• close-up shots of swarming insects in frame
• girls wearing capes
• women riding motorbikes + creepy atmosphere/ominous music
• witchcraft
• girls with their nymphomaniac ways
• girls walking through the woods to get to school
• spying through peepholes at their dream person
• cloistered life
• fictitious books, movies, tv shows ("seeker of the serpent's eye")
• abrasively creepy scores
• eeriness and gloom pervading
• chambermaid-centered stories, their private lives
• pastoral pretty villages + satanic rituals
• where everyone is attractive and creepy

2020

• the claiming of sleeping beauty paperback/hardback
• goth kitten bondage collar
• ✓ strangling fairy necklace ♡
• ✓ plaid miniskirt n plaid tie-up cami
• ✓ devil heart pendant ♡
• ✓ blood spatter nail polish
• ✓ butterfly mesh top
• ✓bewitching flowers tee
• ✓school girl pleated lace up skirt (black)
• pink ballgag ???
• TO hemi-squalane - 30ml
• black lace balconette bra
• satin bonnet
• s***o machine
• recurve bow
• ✓ kitty ears
• ✓ jeans
• ✓ jeans
• ✓ cosrx master patch

• the house that screamed
• celia
• ms. 45
• gingersnaps
• may
• living dead girl

• alfonso
• lionel
• audie
• fauna
• lily
• pudge
• filbert
• pancetti - moved here in october
• lolly - moved in 10/20/20
• rodney - moved in 11/07/2020

moved out

• camofrog :(
• tank
• annalise
• sylvia
• tutu
• leopold - moved out 10/10/20
• keaton - moved out 10/19/20
• mira - moved in 10/13/20; moved out 11/06/20

• rear view window eyes
• men dressed nicely
• very awkward parting with _
• hope sandoval hair
• reading again
• rose empire waist
• married
• 40+
• moon in my hair
• red on my nails
• roses
• looks
• i never want that part to disappear
• velvet chokers
• i think i see _ driving my route?
• the man with the garage
• the man in the next apartment
• voyeur girl
• buttons undone
• letting hair air dry into pretty
• he buys me velvet chokers

• man riding a woman like a rocking horse
• wearing latex, watching myself
• _ annoyed i'm dancing with someone who looks like him
• planets low in the atmosphere
• tornados and carrying momo in her bandage
• momo's tail

• girl of the limberlost - elnora hides box in a hollow log with books, a butterfly apparatus, small cracked mirror, walls lined thickly with gaudy butterflies, dragonflies, and moths
• celia - celia hides mementos of her grandma and evidence in a wooden lockbox in the creek tied to a rope

• meet him at work
• locking his office door
• breaks into my house at night
• messages still
• pushes me off hiking trail and drags me into the woods
• in the elevator with him/several other men and won't stop glancing at me

• valerie a týden divů
• tess of the d'urbervilles
• jane eyre

• jaromil jirês (dec 10, 1935 - oct 24, 2001)
• lorca (jun 5, 1898 - aug 19, 1936)
• luboš fišer (sep 30, 1935 - jun 22, 1999)

• ache of modernism
• stonehenge
• hardy's fir trees
• his veggies
• "romance blood"
• betokened
• rabbit-runs
• tess and her animals
• exuvia
• cyclone in the sun
• terene—of or like earth; earthly
• sylvan language
• tess' tomb
• in love with her own ruin
• concatenation
• flower-like mouth
• thyme-scented morning
• photosphere
• tess the cat
• humid pink & atmospheric
• a rosy warming apparition

november 2020

• first mushrooms
• learned how to change my facepaint within the change appearance app lol
• went to my first nook miles island and got rodney (:
• maple leaves falling 11/17

october 2020

• moving all my islanders into a neighborhood
• dragging pudge out of bed in his pjs to approve his move lol
• growing cute little pumpkins!!
• 30+ golden roses
• blossom viewing lanterns ♡
• so foggy in the morning until noon and then double rainbows 10/11
• halloween purple sky ♡

since start until end of september 2020

• fingerless opera gloves
• lacy/wasteland/grunge style gauntlets
• natural bondage rope over/under velvet bras
• ouvert panties
• cage back panties
• suspender belts
• ooak chokers
• collars with pet names
• panties with side-ties
• fishnet stockings with unfinished tops
• thigh highs being secured at the top by ribbon messily
• sheer bralettes with embellishments/embroidery
• hand cuffs made of ribbon
• mesh panties
• embroidered + mesh tops

• medicean venus neck
• hamadryad
• the monster in the church (v valerie... nezval was inspired by "the monk" possibly even this pretty passage in the book)♡
• blush of pleasure
• "my heart remained without a master"
• poignard
• coral lips... ripe, fresh, melting
• "how deep was the precipice before him"
• the most ardent caresses
• doat
• the monster's odious caresses
• religious gloom

• creating image maps
• cliques/rings/fanlistings
• inline windows
• javascript
• html
• landing/splash pages
• having a links page
• "about me"
• visitor counter
• photoshop
• adopting pixels or sprites
• paintshop pro (PSP)
• camgirling
• wishlists
• never owned my own domain but was hosted by sweetest people <3

• his warm hand on my bare waist and hip
• the wet of a cat's nose
• sprinkle of water on my feet as i walk across warm cement (summers in mexico)
• skin of my hips
• his chest hair through my fingers
• skin of his neck on my lips
• his beard grazing my neck
• my softest inner thighs
• sting of being slapped
• snail mucin sticky
• tingly lip glosses
• watery cold squalane
• cold facial roller along jaw line

• the untamed (2016) heavy fog, motorbike won't start, injured
• gemini (2017) escaping, winding road, ominous music
• belle épine (2010) riding with stranger for first time at night

• reading
• hiking
• daydreaming

elnora's in "a girl of the limberlost"

• narrow bed
• pieced calico cover
• whitewashed walls with lithographs
• every crevice stuck full of twigs with dangling cocoons
• pegs for the few clothes
• old chest
• little table
• two chairs
• uneven floor covered with rag rugs and braided corn husk

valerie's in "valerie a týden divů"

• a little room in house no. 27
• with a high, Gothic window
• long curtains
• a view of the church tower and garden below
• "bizarre legs of the bed"
• carpeted floor

[she was] marching on upon long stalky legs, in tight stockings which had little ladder-like holes at the knees, torn by kneeling in the roads and banks in search of vegetable and mineral treasures...—tess of the d'urbervilles

that 'collected' frightens me. i've only gathered. i always loved everything outdoors, so i made friends and playmates of them. when i learned that the moths die so soon, i saved them especially, because there seemed no wickedness in it.—girl of the limberlost

the lines between my days and nights are blurring. the night is filled with the calls of owls and the smell of daffodils, and i run for miles.—?

if you have ever lived with a girl child you will know that quiet, infuriating retirement into some private world of their own of which they are capable, as well as that stubborn independence in the face o...

• a clearing in old-growth forest
• shoreline with waves crashing against you

• paw pose
• top down bottom up
• licking self
• folded ponytail
• elbow gloves
• mole under eye
• wrist cuffs
• cow girl
• all fours
• lifted by self

day

• hydro boost water gel
• cerave

night

• LRP toleriane hydrating gentle cleanser
• pixi glow peel pads
• hydro boost water gel
• cerave

• ✔ blossom-viewing lantern
  • ✔ light wood
  • ✔ dark wood
• glowing painting
• ✔ grand q. a. birdwing model
• sturdy sewing box
  • white
  • navy blue
• ✔ colorful wheel (win or lose)
• ribbon eel model
• water egg shoes
• mage's booties
• embroidered shoes (pink, white, green)
• shattered glasses
• meme shirt (comfy)
• ✔ plushie-muffler coat - ty cammy!
• earth egg shoes
• heart sweater
• chic rose crown

day

• hydro boost water cream
• cerave

night

• LRP toleriane hydrating gentle cleanser
• pixi glow peel pads
• hydro boost water cream
• cerave

currently

• □□□□□□□□□□ southern reach trilogy: acceptance
• ■■□□□□□□□□ 20% — the monk: a romance

completed

• southern reach trilogy: authority apr 9, 2020
• southern reach trilogy: annihilation apr 2020
• sharp objects
• assata: an autobiography
• little birds
• carmilla ♡
• hush, hush
• matched (matched, #1)
• dearly, beloved: a zombie novel
• dearly, departed: a zombie novel
• two on a tower
• tess (tess of the d'urbervilles)
• valerie and her week of wonders (valerie a týden divů)

• valerie pretties
• gloss for valerie a týden divů
• cherished of the film
• valerie's room in the text
• how valerie is described
• valerie & lemora parallels
• notes

• girl who makes glosses as she reads
• being reckless girl
• taking long walks during noon break
• gym at night with longest hair
• when i took full body selfies
• oblivious to why ppl stare at me

• justin nozuka - sweet lover
• land of talk- inner lover
• the microphones - v. universe
• neil young- harvest moon
• bon iver & st. vincent
• north highlands - collar bones

irun's coffin

• butterfly pin
• heart scarab
• little shabti

elnora's weather-beaten old box hidden in the forest

• several books
• butterfly apparatus
• small cracked mirrors

• the constant ache of pining over what she can't have
• wants to create an ephemeral invisible world with someone
• obsession with catharsis which can prompt her to masturbation
• withdraw into a secret world of imagination
• dream of wicked princes who kidnap and rape her
• rehearsed it all in her dreams
• every experience must be carefully analyzed and the precious emotions absorbed and savored
• feeling bad is often much better than feeling nothing at all
• usually obsessed with unrequited love which allows her to give free rein to her latent masochism
• words on their own can put her on the edge of orgasm

• anything necessitating creativity
• books
• collection/fixation of objects
• daydreams
• intricate fantasies
• music
• running/hiking
• television series
• tracing word origins/botany
• building gloss for literature
• list-building
• one sided crushes
• d/s relationship
• impact play

• ma petite
• "why is it ... that such a sweet pretty creature is a schoolteacher—of all dreary things in the world...?"
• crocodile —a line of schoolchildren walking in pairs ♡
• "naughty black eyes"
• pretty little diamond watch
• picnic like Cleopatra's banquet
• mother of pearl penknife
• drugged with rich food and sunshine
• food: chicken pie, angel cake, jellies, tepid bananas, iced cake in the shape of a heart, tea, lemonade, milk
• mr hussey watching miranda :/
• "a continual source of aesthetic pleasure"

• (you're my doll - tomie)
• (masturbating nea - nea)
• opening scene - the untamed
• opening scene - millennium mambo
• wedding dance scene - in bloom
• dancing under the fireworks - les amants...
• bath scene - splendor in the grass
• thomasina goes to cat heaven - three liv...
• a mere reed you feel in my hands - jane ...
• angel clare carries tess - tess of the d...
• charulata cries/ending - charulata
• suzanne takes her vow - la religieuse
• carole laughs at a movie she hasn't seen...
• anja appears outside thelma's apartment ...
• madame blanc appears - suspiria
• hitchhiking scene - it happened one nigh...
• mia floods her home - blue my mind
• may queen challenge - midsommar