✧ — if you ever decide to age, love, invite me. i'll retire my bones to make you tea and read you poetry.

• no... to be human. to be the place where the falling angel meets the rising ape. ― terry prachett
• how lucky i am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard. ― a. a. milne
• look, we are not unspectacular things. what would happen if we decided to survive more? ― ada limón
• i have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow i am still in love with life. ― voltaire
• to betray with a kiss. the reek of judas. his lying heart is in my mouth. when i kissed him this morning, i tasted his fear. ― jeanatte winterson
• i wish you were here, dear, i wish you were here. i wish i knew no astronomy when stars appear. ― joseph brodsky

♡ favourites | ✶ recent additions | ⚠ sensitive content

𝔦. — general

• animals awarded human credentials
• common misconceptions ♡
• cosmic latte
• headfooters
• hedgehog's dilemma
• i can eat glass
• inflatable rat
• love lock
• menthol cigarettes
• pantone 448 c
• rat king
• uk special forces selection
• unusual bio / chemical names
• wolf collar ✶

𝔦𝔦. — history & events

• bald-hairy
• barding / horse armour ✶

𝔦. — played

• cult of the lamb
  • goat — first playthrough "the sheeple"
• overwatch 2
  • support main — mercy
  • "ily mercy!!! <3 MARRY ME"
  • "MERYC uio love u thank for rezs"
  • "our cassidy says you're the person for him and you'd better be a femboy" (guy on the enemy team. my god you people are dogs)
• marvel rivals
  • mantis & bucky — with s & e
• league of legends
  • vex & neeko main — with j, f, a, e.
• webfishing

♱ love is like religion is a trope commonly found in pop songs and other romantic works where religious imagery and terminology are used to talk about love as though it itself were a faith or as though the beloved were a celestial being.

• unsainted, slipknot — you've killed the saint in me, how dare you martyr me?
• slide, chase atlantic — i know that you've never been this high, promise, baby, i'll take you to heaven if you want it, i don't want to say that i'm god, but i'll take you to heaven if you die
• angel, keshi — so tell me baby, what could i do? i thought you were an angel, i lost myself when i caught sight of you
• blessed be, spiritbox — i say my blessings all for you, i feel it fade from the inside, i open up to adore you / and if i lose myself, blessed be, i could survive in these chemicals for you. offer me, i have the heart of a c...

𝔦. — likes

• f1 drivers patting their car winning a race x x
• songs with a mix of dirty and clean vocals
• the tiny chili peppers on canlii that show how "spicy" the treatment of a case is
• behind-the-scenes shots of the cast acting silly with blood or gore prosthetics on them x x
• pocket knives with inscriptions
• fanart of male characters with black nail polish
• african rain frogs
• trading music recommendations with people i care about
• cartilage piercings, especially industrial and helix
• working dogs / farm dogs / shepherd dogs
• detective duos
• transhumanism in media

because judges can't just write in english, id est quod id est.

• a priori: based on theoretical deduction rather than empirical observation.
  • v. a posteriori: reasoning from known facts or past events rather than by making assumptions or predictions.
• actus reus: guilty act.
  • v. mens rea: guilty mind.
• ad hoc: for this purpose, as needed
  • v. ad hominem: to the person
  • v. ad infinitum: to infinity
  • v. ad nauseam: to a nauseating degree
• affidavit: a written statement under oath (lit. he has sworn)
• bona fide: good faith
  • v. mala fide: bad faith

a messy, angsty list that will always change.

• i'll lay on the floor / touch me til i vomit / i'm not scared of god, i'm scared he was gone all along
• good morning, show me the place where he inserted the blade / or praise the lord, burn my house / i get lost, i freak out / you come home and hold me tight / as if it never happened at all / where is your light? am i home? / i will try not to keep you too long
• i don't go out, but i'll do it for you / i hate to dance, but i'd dance with you, cause i'd do anything to feel your touch / don't like anybody, tell me why it's different with you / don't believe in love, but no one makes me feel like you do / i don't say it much 'cause i just always thought that you knew / it's what you do to me / i'm wrapped around your finger, and i can't stop / you know i got a soft spot for you
• i feel alone in my body / i was never eno...

• finish my last course at ******
• go to therapy oh my fucking god
• get my nose pierced
• take the lsat and get a 170+, ideally 175+
• start working out or an active hobby like climbing
• start journalling and reading for pleasure regularly again
• get an (ideally law related) internship or volunteer opportunity
• get A+s in almost all my courses, a couple As are okay
• avoid procrastinating as much as possible
• avoid any substance use problems
• draw and paint a few times a week
• expand / replace my wardrobe

𝔦. — essential

• messenger bag
• new bedside table

𝔦𝔦. — fall & winter

• half-zip fleece
• knit winter hat
• grandpa sweaters
• fleece scarf
• dark cardigan
• knit fingerless gloves / arm warmers
• leather jacket... can never have too many right

𝔦𝔦𝔦. — non-essential

• cool lighter
• house plants
• travel watercolour set
• bedside reading lamp

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝔦. — red flags

• extremely filmbroish taste in movies
• recreational reader of nietzsche and overall philosophy enjoyer. althusser says that ideology makes us desire our own subjugation is a real sentence i have said unprompted and without a hint of irony
• music taste that is some combination of male manipulator loser virgin, angsty 2000s nu metal douche, and depressed chronically online girl
  • honestly, my spotify account in general like wtf. i would avoid myself based on that and i made it, with a lot of love and care i might add
• gamer. (not nearly as much as i used to so i have that going for me)
• my room is almost always a mess
• emotionally unavailable
• poorly hidden daddy issues
• reddit user. i'm so fuckign sorry
• shy in a way that allegedly makes me seem...

ratings might change since i'm doing this off memory for now. aka " bro thinks he's anthony fantano "

• i lay down my life for you, jpegmafia — 9/10 ⭑ so good. so different and innovative but all peggy, i love the unexpected electric guitar and the sampling is ugfghfg. the album cover is so sick too, perfectly matches the vibe of the album.
  • favourite tracks: sin miedo, vulgar display of power, exmilitary, either on or off the drugs.
• chromakopia, tyler the creator — 8.5/10 ⭑ great addition to his discography, hard songs to scream along to, sweet songs that make you want to fall in love, pensive songs that make you reflect about life... we got it all. he cooked. good album cover too, already iconic.
  • favourite tracks: darling i, thought i was dead, rah tah tah, tomorrow, i hope you find your way ho...

⏹ main | ▨ secondary | ☐ unowned | ✧ fav lore / design

𝔦. — liked

• ⏹⠀ vex ⠀none
• ⏹⠀ neeko ⠀star guardian ✔
• ▨⠀ viktor ⠀death sworn ✔ ✧
• ▨⠀ yone ⠀high noon ✧
• ▨⠀ pyke ⠀ashen knight ✧
• ▨⠀ jhin ⠀dark cosmic ✧
• ☐⠀ lulu ⠀pool party
• ☐⠀ hwei ⠀none

𝔦𝔦. — to try

• ☐⠀ bard ✧
• ☐⠀ vel'koz ✧
• ☐⠀ ornn ✧
• ☐⠀ lissandra
• ☐⠀ kai'sa
• ☐⠀ aatrox ✧
• ☐⠀ blitzcrank ✧
• ☐⠀ kassadin

✶ current | ✧ unowned | ♡ favourite

𝔦. — partially read

• a bright red scream — marilee strong ✶
• the portable nietzesche — kaufmann (trans. ed.) ♡
• in cold blood — truman capote
• crime and punishment — fyodor dostoevsky
• slaughterhouse-five — kurt vonnegut
• the story of philosophy — will durant
• leviathan — thomas hobbes
• republic — plato

𝔦𝔦. — finished

• fight club — chuck palahniuk
• crush — richard siken
• fun home — alison bechdel ♡
• peace and good order — harold r. johnson
• chainsaw man vol. 1&2 — tatsuki fujimoto

𝔦𝔦𝔦. — not started

• man's search for meaning — viktor frankl
• blood meridian — cormac mccarthy

𝔦. — folie à deux ⭑ fall out boy

• don't feel bad for the suicidal cats, gotta kill themselves nine times before they get right / hell yes, i'm a nervous wreck / hell yes, the drugs just make me reset / knock once for the father, twice for the son, three times for the holy ghost / your eyes are blocking my starlight / i'm the last of my kind, and that's all that should matter to you
• have you ever wanted to disappear? / i'm stray dog sick / give me a pen, but don't let the doctor in, i want to blow off steam / you know me, i like being all alone, and keeping you all alone / and my ego's in a sling
• life's just a pace car on death, only less diligent / and when the two collide, it's no coincidence / then came a baby boy with long eyelashes, and daddy said "you've gotta show world the thunder"
• what a match, i'm half-doomed and you're semi-sweet / so boycott love, detox just to retox / and i'd promise you anything for another shot at life

♡ favourite | ✶ continue

𝔦. — watched

• death note ⭑ 1/1 ♡
• arcane ⭑ 2/2 — ♡ & ev, em
• over the garden wall ⭑ 1/1 — & ev
• jujutsu kaisen ⭑ 2/2 ♡ — & er
• community ⭑ out of order
• chainsaw man ⭑ 1/1
• stranger things ⭑ 4/4
• drive to survive ⭑ 6/6

𝔦𝔦. — partially watched

• hannibal ⭑ 2/3 ♡
• breaking bad ⭑ 2/5
• bojack horseman ⭑ 2/6
• the wire ⭑ 1/5 ✶ — & dad
• what we do in the shadows ⭑ 1/5 ✶
• bocchi the rock! ⭑ 1/1
• better call saul ⭑ 1/6 ✶
• the bear ⭑ 1/3
• succession ⭑ 2/4

are you the flesh, the machine, the rot, or the divine?

• the rot.

what flower used in victorian flower language are you?

• eglantine, i wound to heal.

which f1 driver are you?

• charles leclerc.

what ao3 tag are you?

• slow burn.

if you were an angel, why would you fall?

• righteous fury.

what complex do you have?

• guilt complex.

what horror subgenre are you?

𝔦. — general

• tidying up my ✓ playlists, files, and ✓ bookmarks
• buying a messenger bag
• getting my ears or nose pierced
• make art portfolio website
• downloading a bunch of new brushes for procreate
• setting the tv up in my room so the es can come over for movie nights
• buying a racing game that's worth playing on controller (lmao)
• hanging up posters (since the layout of my room isn't finalized)
• emailing dad's contact about volunteering / internship
• hanging up those cute sticky notes from my classmates on a corkboard
  • need to buy pushpins or figure out where mine went
• going to therapy mdrrrr

list idea stolen brazenly from fellow gender outlaw sloane

• rorschach inkblot
• the song girls & boys by blur
• keshi in his long hair pretty boy era
• corky from bound (1996)
• pretty hate machine by nin. not the album just the title
  • if i was a nin album it would probably be with teeth
• viktor from arcane after he comes out of the goop and he's all wet
• boothill from honkai: star rail, and to a lesser extent blade
  • resulted in fox saying: i want to inform you that your gender is quickly becoming a big favorite dps of mine.
• puppy from ruiner
• edited version of leon s kennedy with a mullet
• lemáine's flesh jeans