✧ — if you ever decide to age, love, invite me. i'll retire my bones to make you tea and read you poetry.

• no... to be human. to be the place where the falling angel meets the rising ape. ― terry prachett
• how lucky i am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard. ― a. a. milne
• look, we are not unspectacular things. what would happen if we decided to survive more? ― ada limón
• i have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow i am still in love with life. ― voltaire
• i wish you were here, dear, i wish you were here. i wish i knew no astronomy when stars appear. ― joseph brodsky
• an artist has got to be careful to never arrive at a place where he thinks he's at somewhere. you... have to realize that you're constantly in a state of becoming. ― bob dylan

♡ favourites | ✶ recent additions | ⚠ sensitive content

𝔦. — general

• animals awarded human credentials
• common misconceptions ♡
• cosmic latte
• headfooters
• hedgehog's dilemma
• i can eat glass
• inflatable rat
• love lock
• menthol cigarettes
• pantone 448 c
• rat king
• uk special forces selection
• unusual bio / chemical names

𝔦𝔦. — history & events

• bald-hairy
• bhopal disaster
• bodysnatching / resurrectionists ♡

♱ love is like religion is a trope commonly found in pop songs and other romantic works where religious imagery and terminology are used to talk about love as though it itself were a faith or as though the beloved were a celestial being.

• unsainted, slipknot — you've killed the saint in me, how dare you martyr me?
• arkangel, thornhill — are you an angel right now? i need an angel right now, i see red
• closer, nine inch nails — my whole existence is flawed, you get me closer to god
• blessed be, spiritbox — i say my blessings all for you, i feel it fade from the inside, i open up to adore you / and if i lose myself, blessed be, i could survive in these chemicals for you. offer me, i have the heart of a coward, so open up my sternum, the only blessing that i know
• family tree, ethel cain — so take me down to the river, and bathe me clean, put me on the back of your ...

𝔦. — played

• webfishing
  • dog — with the ramblers and e's server.
• payday 3
  • i was peer pressured.
  • wolf main — until they add my signature sokol
• overwatch 2
  • support main — mercy, baptiste
  • off-tank main — d.va, zarya
• metal: hellsinger
  • second playthrough
  • leviathan mode and achievement hunting
• baldur's gate 3
  • 12.23 — first playthrough: wood half-elf oathbreaker paladin of vengeance | ♡ astarion | shadowheart, gale, and astarion | act 3

✧ — a lot of this is out of context but i think that makes it funnier. from the archives of my personal discord channel, # nyc-sewers

• "little monkey calms down" me when i eat my first meal of the day at 4 pm and suddenly my existence is no longer irreversibly cursed and scorned by god
• l + ratio + no jewel-encrusted epilogue outfit that costs 7007 souls + can't shapeshift + no political sway or great wealth + shooting blanks + docile
• email anxiety is crazy because why am i google translating merci beaucoup before i send it to my quebecois professor
• case of the day is this guy who was at a hockey game and got mad so he threw a jar of peanut butter he had for some reason at the ice but he couldn't throw it hard enough and it hit a woman in the front row

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝔦. — currently

• listening⠀ chromakopia
• watching⠀ arcane w/ friends
• playing⠀ webfishing w/ friends
• studying⠀ lsat prep course

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝔦𝔦. — upcoming

• philosophy of law essay⠀ 17
• discussion forms close⠀ 17
• meeting & case brief⠀ 18
• federalism assignment⠀ 24

𝔦. — essential

• messenger bag
• new bedside table

𝔦𝔦. — fall & winter

• half-zip fleece
• knit winter hat
• grandpa sweaters
• fleece scarf
• dark cardigan
• knit fingerless gloves / arm warmers
• leather jacket... can never have too many right

𝔦𝔦𝔦. — non-essential

• cool lighter
• house plants
• travel watercolour set
• bedside reading lamp

• album ⭑ preacher's daughter
• animal crossing villager ⭑ marshal
• animal ⭑ deer
• anime ⭑ death note
• band ⭑ deftones
• bird ⭑ luzon bleeding-heart dove
• body part ⭑ eyes
• candy ⭑ white rabbit
• cartoon character ⭑ snoopy
• celestial body ⭑ stars
• colour ⭑ black
• discipline ⭑ philosophy
• drink ⭑ london fog
• f1 driver ⭑ cl16
• film ⭑ whiplash
• food ⭑ miso soup
• fruit ⭑ mandarin orange
• game ⭑ dead by daylight
• holiday ⭑ hallowen
• insect ⭑ death's head hawkmoth
• instrument ⭑ bass guitar

♡ favourite | ✶ continue

𝔦. — watched

• death note ⭑ 1/1 ♡
• arcane ⭑ 2/2 — ✶ & ev, em
• over the garden wall ⭑ 1/1 — & ev
• jujutsu kaisen ⭑ 2/2 ♡ — & er
• community ⭑ out of order
• chainsaw man ⭑ 1/1
• stranger things ⭑ 4/4
• drive to survive ⭑ 6/6

𝔦𝔦. — partially watched

• hannibal ⭑ 2/3 ♡
• breaking bad ⭑ 2/5
• bojack horseman ⭑ 2/6
• the wire ⭑ 1/5 ✶ — & dad
• what we do in the shadows ⭑ 1/5 ✶
• bocchi the rock! ⭑ 1/1
• better call saul ⭑ 1/6 ✶
• the bear ⭑ 1/3
• succession ⭑ 2/4

post "therapy" session with em, alt title: this meme

• sooner is better, but better late than never
• what are the chances of that happening?
• you can take the credit for that
• you don't have to "earn" good things like sleep, food, praise, etc. please realize that this is a psychotic way of thinking
• the way you speak to yourself matters
• did you eat? did you sleep? did you drink water?
• break the cycle. you know that poem about the dog with a chain that's just as long as the worn path around the post? THAT IS YOU. YOU ARE THE DOG
• self-destruction is not inherently part of your narrative. i know you think you know that but i don't think you do. it will not get you closer to god, or yourself, or truth, or love, or peace, or success, or perfection. it keeps you from all of those things.

✶ current | ✧ unowned | ♡ favourite

𝔦. — partially read

• a bright red scream — marilee strong ✶
• the portable nietzesche — kaufmann (trans. ed.) ♡
• in cold blood — truman capote
• crime and punishment — fyodor dostoevsky
• slaughterhouse-five — kurt vonnegut
• the story of philosophy — will durant
• leviathan — thomas hobbes
• republic — plato

𝔦𝔦. — finished

• fight club — chuck palahniuk
• crush — richard siken
• fun home — alison bechdel ♡
• peace and good order — harold r. johnson
• chainsaw man vol. 1&2 — tatsuki fujimoto

𝔦𝔦𝔦. — not started

• man's search for meaning — viktor frankl
• blood meridian — cormac mccarthy

𝔦. — folie à deux ⭑ fall out boy

• don't feel bad for the suicidal cats, gotta kill themselves nine times before they get right / hell yes, i'm a nervous wreck / hell yes, the drugs just make me reset / knock once for the father, twice for the son, three times for the holy ghost / your eyes are blocking my starlight / i'm the last of my kind, and that's all that should matter to you
• have you ever wanted to disappear? / i'm stray dog sick / give me a pen, but don't let the doctor in, i want to blow off steam / you know me, i like being all alone, and keeping you all alone / and my ego's in a sling
• life's just a pace car on death, only less diligent / and when the two collide, it's no coincidence / then came a baby boy with long eyelashes, and daddy said "you've gotta show world the thunder"
• what a match, i'm half-doomed and you're semi-sweet / so boycott love, detox just to retox / and i'd promise you anything for another shot at life

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀𝔦. — red flags

• extremely filmbroish taste in movies
• recreational reader of nietzsche and overall philosophy enjoyer. althusser says that ideology makes us desire our own subjugation is a real sentence i have said unprompted and without a hint of irony
• music taste that is some combination of male manipulator loser virgin, angsty 2000s nu metal douche, and depressed chronically online girl
• gamer.
• my room is almost always a mess
• sarcastic and self-deprecating
• emotionally unavailable
• poorly hidden daddy issues
• reddit user. i'm so fuckign sorry
• shy in a way that allegedly makes me seem disinterested and haughty. i am just afraid of you. internally
• untreated unknown mental illness(es) that i will NOT discuss with you and flee the...

♡ favourites | ✶ most accurate

• andrew neiman ⭑ whiplash ♡
  • fletcher: you're here for a reason.
  • you believe that, right? say it.
  • andrew: i'm here for a reason.
• angel devil ⭑ chainsaw man
  • it's tiring to eat ice cream... apparently even eating things takes stamina. i don't really want to work any more today.
• eddie munson ⭑ stranger things ♡
  • forced conformity, that's what's killing the kids.
  • (holds up iron maiden tape) this IS music!
• kyomoto ⭑ look back ✶
  • then i'll get better at drawing too, like you!
• l lawliet ⭑ death note ♡

notes for myself to improve my study habits

• keep pting regularly to build stamina. if you have extra time and are overwhelmed, take a ~45 second break to just relax before checking your answers.
• blind-review practice tests. mark all questions you are unsure on, before you see your score, answer these again untimed, then compare.
• for hard rc passages, repeat back to yourself in simpler words. replace confusing technical terms with easier ones, e.g. it's not necessary to remember the species name, just that it's a fish.
• don't overthink the easy questions, save time for the harder ones. finish the first 10 in 10
• for lr, evaluate the author's argument, for rc, smile and nod boys. it's a waste of mental bandwidth to crit the author whe...