Thursday, April 24, 2025

• F and I went to paint pottery again today and pick up our last projects. I did the cutest little mug with lavender sprigs on it. I cannot wait to get it back next week. I look forward to this every week. We had the best time.

Monday, April 21, 2025

• I'm at 337.8 today. I'm excited. I wonder if I was holding on to a lot of fluid because of exercising. *shrug* I haven't been to the gym in like a week and I haven't gained anything. I'm sitting in the office and typing away on my computer. Work feels like a lot today and I'm looking forward to being done. Feeling quite hungry today as well which is crazy since I took 7.5mg of tirzepatide yesterday. I should be good to go. Actually, it might be working because thinking about it, I had not even a whole container of cantaloupe this morning for breakfast. Interesting!
• The Pope passed away today. Because of Easter it feels significant. I mean, it's the Pope, of course it is but it feels like "more". I'm not sure if I'm religious. I pray

Sunday, April 20, 2025

• Happy Easter!
• Y'all, we're still going down. Slowly but surely and I'm so, so excited. I also took my first 7.5mg today.

Saturday, April 19, 2025

• WERE GOING DOWN! Again. I'm so, so excited, you can't even imagine. It's only at 338.8lb but it's another day down. I've been stalled for so long that it's really bugged me. And my dad was even questioning yesterday if I'm still losing weight or if my tirzepatide is even working. I explained that it definitely is because I'm not as hungry and I can't eat as much.
• I didn't go to the gym yesterday and I went to sleep at my usual time and woke up at around 6:30am. Maybe sleep is a big deal for me. I'm not as young as I once was and could run on less sleep. Either way!
• J sent me flowers today. They're a lovely blue and white Easter bouquet. I'm such a lucky girl and so loved. <3

Friday, April 18, 2025

• It moved! The scale has finally started to move even if just a little bit. I've decided to try to sleep better/more, eat more home cooked meals, and I'm going to focus on going to the gym every other day for a bit. I think I have to give my body time to adjust? I didn't do that before. But seriously I'm so stoked that my scale has moved. I also ordered one of those smart tape measures where it logs your measurements automatically. I'm going to be logging all the metrics I can. Changes are going to be made!

Thursday, April 17, 2025

• I don't understand. I have never in my life had this much trouble actually moving the scale. I'm stalling in the low 340s. THERE IS NO REASON. I track my calories. I don't just track them I weigh my food to the tenth of a gram. I did go over on Tuesday but that shouldn't have such lasting effects. My weight hasn't moved since April 3rd. Why?!
• A part of me hopes it's balancing out, like I just happen to be moving enough to start building up some muscle that it's causing the scale to stall but what the actual fuck. I know it's just wishful thinking.
• Maybe it's my sleep? I don't know. I'm going to try that and making more of my food at home. Maybe there's just been too much variation. I'm so discouraged but I refuse to quit. I want to live and be a mother. Stopping now won't help me accomplish that.
• I also just realized I should be tracking my changes through measurements too. That's a no-brainer. The scale may not be changing but maybe my body is? I'm ordering a measuring tape.

Wednesday, April 16, 2025

• The scale went up. Not surprised after yesterday. It was 100% worth it, even though I woke up feeling terrible because of what I had eaten. That's okay though. These days will happen. As long as we don't make it a habit.
• J called me his "first and most special wife". It was from a joke where he told a spammer that he was hoping to find his 6th wife. I don't think he wants to get married in the future but I like to think about it... I even have a dress that I always think, "Hm, I'd really like to get married in that dress." It's a size 10. I bought it I liked it that well. Maybe it will be a dream come true? I would like to have someone say, "I want her to be mine always." I'm a dreamer!
• I went to the gym. I walked for 31 minutes. I didn't want to but I did. It's not much but it'll add up hopefully.

Tuesday, April 15, 2025

• Work went well! Everything got done. I got to spend a lot of time in the office with C. and F. It was honestly fun.
• After work F and I went to paint pottery and honestly it was so much fun. We talked and we laughed. Then we went to Olive Garden and I ate way, way too much. We were out until after 10pm. I'm old y'all and I had to work today so that's late. I can't wait to do it again!

Monday, April 14, 2025

• I am still not losing weight this is bullshit. Seriously. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. It is a thermodynamic impossiblity that I am eating in a deficit and the scale not budging.
• Work was horrific. Three people were out. We had to find coverage as best as we could.
• I finally went to the gym. I walked for 30 minutes. It was okay. I pushed it a bit more there at the end and when I was finished I was actually starting to sweat.

Sunday, April 13, 2025

• Went to HomeGoods and Ulta with K. Then we went to Texas Roadhouse for lunch. I got a Rangers Meal with broccoli. I also ate a roll. It was a good, relaxing day. J. and I finished our book.
• I didn't go to the gym tonight.

Saturday, April 12, 2025

• I didn't go to the gym last night (or the night before) so I woke up feeling a bit guilty. I was tired. I slept. It was good. I was 339.4lb when I weighed myself. You know I only weigh myself naked and after I've peed. I was pleased. My weight had been going up for a few days for no reason and I was not liking it. But today I am feeling some relief. I was able to update my Weight Loss Tracker!
• I had a migraine this afternoon. J. told me to go lay down and he'd put me to sleep. He talked to me until I fell asleep and when I woke up 3 hours later he was snoring softly. I am so fucking lucky.

Friday, April 11, 2025

• Today I'm feeling discouraged. The scale has gone up for no reason. I took a day off from the gym yesterday to see if that would help the scale move and it did, it went down 1.6lb. But seriously, WTH? What am I not doing right? I mean, I know logically this happens. I've lost 125lbs before. But this, it feels like it should be easier or at least dropping faster. UGH!