- i discovered that the guy i was into unfollowed me on instagram.
- to be certain i don't know exactly when it was but i found it to be very disappointing cause first of all... why would he do that? what did i even do. the thing that's been bugging me is the timing thaat he did this. i don't know if it was when he called me to eat sushi but i had other plans on that day, or if it was months before we even met at the bar so.. i feel ashamed someehow so i've been telling people that he did this when i ditched him. i hate telling people stuff about me. nothing exciting ever happens; i feel like i'm in a limbo and the same spiral as always.
- one of my oldest friends that came back to rio stayed the night. it was fun but at the same time unconfortable since there was way too many time since we talked one on one. i was also unconfortable cause i thought that any time he would try to make out or something, and i didn't want to hurt anyone, i just wanted to have a good time. my friend that lives near me also stayed here and we watched funny videos. overall it was nice.
- my dad has been trying to approach me
- i think that things with my stepmother and him aren't ok. and now he's admitting to himself that he feels lonely and that being said hes been reaching out to me more than usual.
- i've been reflecting on my feelings for a certain someone
- i dreamed about him and i just loved him so much. i knew that i loved him. the bad thing is he is just not good for me. i know for sure that if i ever turn around he would fuck my cousin in a heartbeat. i can't live like this. i hate it when he makes me feel small. always did.
jul 10 2023 ∞
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