[ six years after the first list ]

• 1. My mom loving me so strongly it seems we never lost any time or years
• 2. My older sister easing a lot of my fear and uncertainty over family matters
• 3. The people who have been there for me for a very long time, even though they're hundreds or thousands of miles away
• 4. I'm no longer willing to tolerate toxic, narcissistic friends
• 5 The Marco Polo app
• 6. Accepting who I am, with or without labels
• 7. Having support networks
• 8. Being able to pay our rent & bills & still afford food
• 9. The comic creator Discord server I'm in
• 10. Rainy days
• 11. Really early mornings when the sky is dark blue & the world is coming to life
• 12. Having a cozy bedroom w/ lots of soft lighting & surfaces
• 13. City walks with Jon
• 14. Cups of tea made for me
• 15 The things I learned & experienced while living in Toronto
• 16. That nighttime glow when there's snow on the ground
• 17. Bingeing a comfort show
• 18. That I haven't killed all my houseplants (yet)
• 19. Coffee shops with good company
• 20. Libraries
• 21. Gaining the tools I need for aspects of my mental health
• 22. That feeling where you feel utter joy & zest for life & feel unstoppable
• 23. Finding something I didn't know the answer to for years (could be something as simple as a song, or an item I lusted after)
• 24. Having hope; a way out
• 25 The way clouds roll over mountains, how the mist clings to them
• 26. Wild storms coming off the sea & driving me indoors
• 27. That I don't let age dictate things I like
• 28. Waking up with energy
• 29. A cup of chai coffee at the cafe that has the dog
• 30. Cat purrs
• 31. Quoting popular media, esp. if it's obscure & someone else gets it
• 32. Finding something I've been wanting, and it's in my size & on sale
• 33. Realizing that not every friend/partner is meant to be in my life forever, and

letting go when they're outgrown can be better than hanging on.

• 34. Sitting by the fire with a cup of tea & a blanket
• 35 When transit shows up right after I get to the stop
• 36. The sound of passing airplanes
• 37. Having compassion for myself
• 38. Approaching body neutrality (hopefully one day acceptance)
• 39. Being able to express myself through art
• 40. Spontaneous road trips
• 41. Pleasant surprises
• 42. Being able to see everything around me
• 43. Being able to hear everything around me
• 44. Growing less attached to material things
• 45 Realizing that I don't need to dim my light for anyone else
• 46. Realizing that my time is *mine* to invest in people who actually care about me
• 47. Microsoft Flight Simulator for letting me experience Earth without leaving home; ain't technology grand!
• 48. The smell of a new book
• 49. Mobile apps geared toward mental health
• 50. Weekends spent in the country
• 51. Walks through botanical gardens
• 52. When summers aren't too hot
• 53. When the energy bill is lower than I'd expected
• 54. Pleasant surprises
• 55. Birdsong
• 56. The smell of lilacs in bloom
• 57. Dogs wagging their tails at me
• 58. Wind in the trees, dappling sunlight everywhere
• 59. Having someone who understands me
• 60. Snack nights with hilarious movies
• 61. Charcuterie boards filled with whatever the heck we want
• 62. The way my knees hurt less as my weight goes down
• 63. The sound of cars on a wet road
• 64. Neon lights & reflections
• 65. The lessons I've learned in all 3 countries I've lived in thus far
• 66. Having something to look forward to
• 67. The rare event that we get a thunderstorm
• 68. Super soft, long socks
• 69. All my comfy lounge pants and pj bottoms
• 70. Night breezes that make me feel energized and alive
• 71. People being genuinely excited about my story & characters
• 72. Getting this far through life without any major health problems
• 73. Getting this far through life without any major dental problems
• 74. Ken's Toronto walk videos on Youtube
• 75. Chocolate hazelnut - that's all I need to say
• 76. Laughing at stupid stuff w/ Jon
• 77. Getting complimented for my outfits/appearance
• 78. Long baths w/ special bath bombs & pampering
• 79. The really good (and cheap!) candles from Home Bargains
• 80. Beautiful afternoon tea parties
• 81. Not being lactose intolerant because CHEEEEESE
• 82. Elisa still choosing to be my friend
• 83. The memories I have of Saturday adventures & road trips w/ Elisa & Jeff
• 84. How my confidence & personality began to evolve/take shape thanks to those two
• 85. That brief, intense high of feeling happy & like nothing truly bad can ever happen again; pure buzzed bliss.
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