INFP | agender | asexual / aromantic | ve/vir/vem

I am an agnostic-atheist,

To be absolutely specific with my identity, I am agender, maybe a bit masculine-leaning, even. My orientations are apothiromantic, and aegosexual and apothisexual, simultaneously. Do not use masculine or feminine terms with me unless I say you can.

Please do not use they/them pronouns with me, make an effort to respect and use my neo-pronouns. I'd really appreciate it! Questions are encouraged.

I have social anxiety.

I am a rather worried and paranoid person, I can (irrationally) assume the worst, and become suspicious, distrusting, and doubtful of those closest to me. I often excessively ask clarifying questions, and sometimes feel that people are ignoring me when they aren't, and would never do so. I apologize in advance for my potential terrible accusations and thoughts, I really am trying to get them under control.

I also struggle with confrontation and connecting with people, if we are in an chat and I suddenly leave, it's because I never connected with you and that I couldn't confront you about it. I am really striving to be more honest and blunt with people about my feelings from now on.

I also have an big issue with oversharing and dumping my problems onto others, I'll try my best to not be too much, let me know if I am ever overwhelming you!

I have issues with feeling guilty, ashamed, or paranoid when or after opening up about anything, please be patient with me since I may beat myself up for sharing.

Please be concise with your wording of things that could be seem as negative or harmful so that I don't accidentally get the wrong idea. I tend to think the worst case scenarios and get very worried/stressed over small things which weren't given with enough context, leading me to get the wrong idea often and get unnecessarily stressed. (Examples: Do not just send me: 'I am scared.' or 'I'm sad.' without further elaborating why. It will make me so, so nervous for you.)

Also, I believe I find myself to often 'mimic' the people I admire or am around for awhile, i.e. text mannerisms or their own interests, let me know if that may make you uncomfortable.

jul 17 2019 ∞
jan 26 2020 +