I never thought I’d have to heal from the person I considered a big sister. I’ve always known we’d part and I’d imagined that would be mutual, or better yet, slowly distancing. We said some words, time passed by, and I apologized on my part. But the aftermath was horrid. What I never expected from a person who preached so much about being a good person, was the act of spreading negative information about me. The ignorance of believing I could and have changed turned them into a person they never wanted to become. I’ve gotten considerable confirmation that I changed into a better person than I was before. Even from myself. No matter what, I cannot please them and that is okay. I cannot please everyone– no matter how hard you try, someone will perceive you as a bad person. My mistake was that I depressingly spent energy and wasted my time to prove I’m a good person. Getting their approval is not what I needed. I got my closure– and I did not need it from them. It’s a mere myth that you need closure from another person to possess it. Closure is an internal process. It’s about your relationship with yourself. What I know now is that my past will not dictate who I am, but it’s what I do for the future that will. My goal is to water my plant that sits in the future, rather than trying to keep the wilted one alive. I’ve become the bigger person and moved on from something I cannot water anymore. It’s difficult sometimes due to the immaturity this person has– to be inordinately petty towards me and refuse to move on. The glares and staring they do, it’s meant to intimidate me, but instead I feel like a pretty flower. They miss the control they had over me, but there’s no way I’m letting them think they have the slightest chance of getting it back. I am okay, and I will prosper.