i really don't know where to start but let me just say- happy first month to us. (baby, we're going to the cheesy lane aha.) up to this point, i still cannot believe that we're together. and for a month already. time sure flies so fast when you're really happy, huh? i'm looking forward to a lot of things with you. to exploring more places, doing weird stuff, more cuddling time, annoying you 390491290x a day and more to mention. it's funny how you are on my annoying people list before but now, god, you're my one and only love. i have to admit that i was really hesitant before to hit you up because... yeah, i told you i got annoyed and we might not be in good terms already. but then i'm quite thick-faced and hit you up but i never planned liking you that time. i was in denial, too because i'm scared to get hurt. thank god, i'm really thick-faced and gathered my shit up and decided to tell you how and what i felt and i must be really lucky because we share the same feelings. and now... it feels like my day is empty without your presence. i told you already but i don't want to sound so clingy. i miss you every single time. even if you're with me. i'm really lucky to get myself an understanding boyfriend. even if... i know that i really get annoying by calling you names and i get jealous easily. ah, there's a lot of things why i love you, joon but i can't spell and say them out to you because i, myself is having a hard time explaining to myself. i just... love you so much. that's all. again, happy first month to us! i love you, kim namjoon. so much.