- did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen? time went on for everybody else, she won't know it, she's still 23 inside her fantasy how it was supposed to be. did you hear about the girl who lives in delusion? break-ups happen every day, you don't have to lose it. she's still 23 inside her fantasy and you're sitting in front of me, at the restaurant, when i was still the one you want. cross-legged in the dim light, everything was just right. i, i could feel the mascara run, you told me that you met someone. glass shattered on the white cloth, everybody moved on ― right where you left me
- i'm right where you left me, you left me no choice but to stay here forever ― right where you left me
- they told me all of my cages were mental, so i got wasted like all my potential. and my words shoot to kill when i'm mad, i have a lot of regrets about that ― this is me trying
- and it's hard to be at a party when i feel like an open wound, it's hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you. you're a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town, and i just wanted you to know that this is me trying (and maybe i don't quite know what to say). i just wanted you to know that this is me trying, at least i'm trying ― this is me trying
- you drew stars around my scars but now i'm bleedin' ― cardigan
- and i can go anywhere i want , anywhere i want, just not home. and you can aim for my heart, go for blood but you would still miss me in your bones. and i still talk to you (when I'm screaming at the sky). and when you can't sleep at night (you hear my stolen lullabies) ― my tears ricochet
- i'm still on that tightrope, i'm still trying everything to get you laughing at me. i'm still a believer but i don't know why. i've never been a natural, all I do is try, try, try. i'm still on that trapeze. i'm still trying everything to keep you looking at me. because i'm a mirrorball. ― mirrorball
- and i've been meaning to tell you, i think your house is haunted, your dad is always mad and that must be why. and i think you should come live with, me and we can be pirates then you won't have to cry or hide in the closet and just like a folk song, our love will be passed on ― seven
- i sit and watch you reading with your head low, i wake and watch you breathing with your eyes closed. i sit and watch you, i notice everything you do or don't do. you're so much older and wiser and i, i wait by the door like i'm just a kid. use my best colors for your portrait, lay the table with the fancy shit, and watch you tolerate it, if it's all in my head, tell me now. tell me i've got it wrong somehow. i know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it ― tolerate it
- combat, i'm ready for combat, i say i don't want that, but what if i do? 'cause cruelty wins in the movies. i've got a hundred thrown-out speeches i almost said to you ― the archer
- and i just wanna tell you, it takes everything in me not to call you, and i wish i could run to you. and i hope you know that every time i don't i almost do ― i almost do
- and i confess, babe, in my dreams you're touching my face. and asking me if i wanna try again with you and i almost do ― i almost do
- this is the last time you tell me i've got it wrong. this is the last time i say it's been you all along. this is the last time i let you in my door. this is the last time, i won't hurt you anymore ― the last time
- i persist and resist the temptation to ask you, if one thing had been different, would everything be different today? ― the 1
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