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it's almost your birthday.

i'm kinda nervous, you know? i want to be enough for you. i know. it sounds stupid. but i really want to make you birthday special and... i don't know how. even if i could give you all the stars it wouldn't be enough for me. you give me so much, you probably have no idea. i wish i could return everything to you. im so anxious and sometimes depressive, and you.... you give me peace. when my head is a completely caos i just need to look at you and suddenly everything is okay. your voice keeps me calm. seriously. i never thought that someone who's so far away from me could give me this kinda of feeling. this kinda of peace. i was so empty and lonely, and then you came, and it was the best thing that could ever happened to me. i'm happier, you make me so happy, it's almost like i didn't knew what was missing until i found you and i can't thank you enough for that. it still almost your birthday and i'm still nervous. i hope you're resting well right now. i love you.