"I think I’m always so much more happy with books and movies and stuff. I think I get more excited about well-done representations of life than life itself."

⠀ ⠀—— books

⠀ ⠀—— manhwa

• 32 ・ flowers are bait
• 62 ・ tears on a withered flower
• 53 ・ the beast within
• 45 ・ the dragon king’s bride
• 07 ・ to your moralless

⠀ ⠀—— tvshows

not dead, just on new meds and trying to hold my shit together

“I have never known peace like the damp grass that yields to me, I have never known hunger like these insects that feast on me.”

• rebeca — noose; to tie, to bind
• she/her ・ 99s ・ br ・ audhd
• heart ・ blood ・ flesh
  • track —— anilist ・ letterboxd ・ backloggd

There is stability in self-destruction, in prolonging sadness as a means of escaping abstractions like happiness. Rock bottom is a surprisingly comfortable place to lay your head. Looking up from the depths of another low often seems a lot safer than wondering when you'll fall again. Falling feels awful. I'd rather fucking fly.

⠀ ⠀—— special interests

⠀ ⠀♡⠀lord of the rings, a song of ice and fire, latin languages, fashion history, middle ages, victorian era, morbid historic facts, true crime, gothic subculture, vampires, catholic imagery

⠀ ⠀—— comfort

⠀ ⠀♡⠀oversized clothing, coffee, jigsaw puzzles, crosswords, storms with thunder and lightning, sunrises and sunsets, stained glass windows, collecting rocks, classical music, stop-motion animations, papercraft, baked goods, forest hikes, pokemon, the sound of rain, petrichor