• yogi
• poet
• psychonaut
• bisexual
• humanist
• pagan
• androgynous
• artist
• writer
• vegetarian
• queer
• Wiccan
• herbalist
• polyamorous
• radical
• francophile

• publish poetry chapbook with Sav & Tyler
• work at food co-op
• be a writing tutor
• volunteer for cultural or ecological organization
• volunteer for RAINN
• publish poetry
• publish short stories
• do community ethnography art project

• Gustave Flaubert
• Simone de Beauvoir
• Michel Foucault
• Marquis de Sade
• Voltaire
• Samuel Beckett
• Lord Byron
• Jean Paul Sartre
• Derrick Jensen
• Aldous Huxley
• Vladimir Nabokov
• Joseph Campbell
• Jacques Ellul
• Philip K. Dick
• Ursula K. Le Guin
• Ernest Callenbach
• Stewart Brand
• Françoise Sagan
• Anais Nin
• Marcel Mauss
• Ralph Metzner

• yoga
• posture
• stretches
• weed
• massage
• acupuncture
• gels & creams
• heat
• calcium-magnesium supplements

• loving Savannah
• the prospect of marrying her & having kids
• holistic health
• spirituality
• music
• friends & family
• Tori Amos
• writing
• reading
• aesthetics
• yoga
• herbalism
• cooking & food
• sex
• hallucinogens & other drugs
• nature

• acupuncturist
• small alternative medicine business owner
• Chinese herbalism practitioner
• forest conservation worker
• yoga instructor
• environmental writer/advocate
• alternative medicine writer
• music/writing therapist
• freelance writer
• arts advocacy

• American Indian
• French
• Russian
• Haitian
• Latin American
• Chinese
• Swedish
• Brazilian

• she will be taught to love her body regardless of weight, shape, or conventional standards
• her sexuality (heterosexual, bisexual, gay, pan, trans, genderqueer, etc.) will be celebrated, not just accepted
• she will be beautiful to me always
• this isn't that hard. it's not. I'm sick of Americans not making the effort and letting media and pop culture dictate their insane beauty standards
• if I could hate my skinny-muscular white male body for being inadequate, what the fuck chance do less represented body types have? (gay & bi men are notoriously held to higher standards, but still. shit's fucked up)

• Agent Provocateur lingerie
• used books on to read list
• wifebeaters and tight underwear
• Fells Point sex shop and vegetarian food day
• essential oils
• diffuser oils
• candles
• blood vial necklaces
• a flask
• a medicine bag for Shane, incense, and other spiritual shit
• plants
• a pink bong (would be fun)
• a purple bubbler
• elephant bubbler!

• Brazil
• India
• Australia
• Netherlands
• Madagascar
• England
• Hawaii
• Morocco
• Iceland
• Haiti
• Los Angeles
• to be continued, obviously

• finish CHUM app
• email Peter
• book S.S.
• book L.A. transportation
• mail Amazon book/s
• plan Cali
• internships, National Endowment for the Arts, etc.
• plan summer - Yellowstone, etc.
• look up texts and notes on phone

January:

• Body Shop skincare
• poetry anthology
• start poery book work with Sav & Tyler
• look into other colleges
• pack
• Cali!
• plan for semester
• start classes

• mugwort (good for dreams, muscle pain, in baths for muscle soreness, poison ivy rash) ++
• lavender (anti-inflammatory, good for depression, induces relaxation and deep sleep)
• chamomile (reduces anxiety, stomach troubles, colds, muscle aches and insomnia)
• basil (good for asthma, good antioxidant)
• cilantro (removes toxins, beneficial for digestion)
• catnip (for my cats!)
• patchouli (good for relaxation, headache relief) ++
• lemon balm (excellent antioxidant, antibacterial properties) + ++
• ginger (anti-inflammatory, good for colds) + ++
• St. John's wort (depression, muscle pain) + ++

• Asparagus Cashew Rice Pilaf: http://allrecipes.com/recipe/asparagus-c...
• Cookies and Cream Cheesecake Cupcakes http://www.handletheheat.com/2010/02/coo... (stolen from you muaAahaha)
• Spicy Chicken Soup http://allrecipes.com/recipe/catherines-...
• One Pot Pasta http://mediterrasian.com/delicious_recip...
• Cantonese chicken and corn soup http://mediterrasian.com/delicious_recip...
• Asian noodle salad http://mediterrasian.com/delicious_recip...
• Nasi goreng http://mediterrasian.com/delicious_recip...
• Extreme Chocolate Cake http://allrecipes.com/recipe/extreme-cho...

• 7/15:
• finishing two books and reading most of the day (fuck it, it's Sunday)
• the overcast weather
• skinnydipping in the hot tub

• and I love you madly, pumpkin, and you're my best friend and love of my life always

• Baltimore Pride
• go ghost-hunting ;)
  • Jericho Bridge
  • a graveyard
• vanilla sex
• buttsex
• shrooms
• acid
• E
• coke
• smoking in my hot tub
• drunk in my hot tub
• Brady's graduation party
• picnics
• drawing/painting me naked
• writing poetry pour toi
• Sav's friendship bracelets pour moi (passionate, dreamy, gay and nature)
• hookah lounge in Towson
• roadtrippin' anywhere

• things I want to explore:
• tantric sex
• the Kama Sutra
• Kegel exercises
• naked yoga
• BDSM
• smoking mugwort
• psycobilin mushrooms
• ayahuasca trip
• sex on ecstasy
• LSD
• camping with DMT
• absinthe
• ghost hunting
• Ouija board
• Chinese herbalism
• lucid dreaming

• (note: some of this has already been noted on previous lists)
• see Goldfrapp in concert
• see Tori in concert again
• meet Tori Amos
• take a tai chi class
• get acupuncture
• buttsex
• shrooms
• acid
• grow weed
• ferment own wine
• grow herbs for tea
• mountain bike in Hawaii like Rocket Power
• travel to Denmark
• study abroad in France
• carry on a conversation in French with a native
• camping with vodka or DMT

• love, finance, economics, sexuality, spirituality, herbalism, mysticism, french language, lgbt topics, women's studies, power, holistic healing, emotion, travel, self-defense, lucid dreaming
• specifically:
• anarcho-capitalism, queer relationships, BDSM, NDEs, planes of consciousness, french gender culture, the afterlife, black market business, mugwort, ayahuasca, acupuncture, Krav Maga, OBEs, rape culture

• "I just like to see you happy."

• http://www.wikihow.com/Support-the-Arts
• http://www.wikihow.com/Improve-Emotional...

• yoga mat
• spiritual nature elfish wall poster
• psychedelic wall poster
• Haitian painting
• lava lamp
• lots of lube
• books of love poetry
• mango body butter
• an illustrated book on yoga
• an illustrated book on massage
• a purple lamp light
• an elephant bubbler
• a ceramic piece
• a blue bowl
• a cock ring
• flying ointment
• condoms
• the Kama Sutra
• The Joy of Sex
• Agent Provocateur magazines
• handcuffs

• art, nature, poetry, culture, shamanism, French language, writing, music, gardening, cooking, psilocybin mushrooms, marijuana, yoga, animals, food, dancing, sex, meditation, nudism, exploring, fashion, literature, scents, aesthetics, colors, spirituality, psychonautics, emotion, acupuncture, massage

• rainforest conservation
• LGBTQ rights & freedoms
• women's rights & freedoms
• sex and body positivity
• ending rape culture
• defending nature
• eco-communal spaces
• arts & humanities funding
• supporting local artists & community-based art
• respecting spiritual and cultural diversity

• Belle de Jour
• The Dreamers
• The Intouchables
• Beasts of the Southern Wild
• Moonrise Kingdom
• Winter's Bone
• Hell House

• economics and finance:
• Confessions of an Economic Hitman by John Perkins
• How to Make a Living Outside the System: A Practical Guide to Starting a Black Market Business by Tarrin Lupo
• Deviant Globalization by Nils Gilman
• Eco-Socialism or Eco-Capitalism?: A Critical Analysis of Humanity's Fundamental Choices by Saral Sarkar
• Finding Community: How to Join an Ecovillage or Intentional Community by Diana Leafe Christian
• The Worldly Philosophers: The Lives, Times And Ideas Of The Great Economic Thinkers by Robert Heilbroner
• Why Not Socialism? by G.A. Cohen
• Economics and Utopia: Why the Learning Economy is Not the End of History (Economics as Social Theory) by Geoffrey Hodgson
• Trading Up: The New American Luxury by Mi...

• things I want for sex:
• white boxer briefs
• lingerie
• roleplay outfits
• a whip
• a paddle
• leather boots
• eyeliner
• massage oil
• a dildo
• nipple pasties

• French
• art
• poetry
• psychedelics
• mysticism
• ethnobotany
• gardening
• American Indian medicine
• Chinese medicine
• herbalism
• cooking
• social construction of sexuality
• sexology
• anthropology

• current treatment:
• stretching
• yoga
• acupuncture
• muscle gel
• heat pads
• breath therapy
• weightlifting
• calcium-magnesium Vitamin D supplements
• other options:
• massage therapy
• chiropractic care
• capsaicin cream

• cooking
• growing herbs and vegetables
• herbal tea
• wine-making
• cider-making
• homemade cleaning supplies
• bookbinding
• house painting
• house mechanics
• financial planning
• investing
• hair cutting
• massage
• wall painting
• paintings and drawings
• poetry and other writing