And if I was running, you'd be the one who I would be running to

And if I was crying, you'd be lining the cloud that would pull me through

And if I was scared, then I would be glad to tell you and walk away

But I am not lying

I am just trying to find my way in to you

~

You know I'm gonna find a way

To let you have your way with me

You know I'm gonna find the time

To catch your hand and make you stay

Yes, yeah we're moving on

Looking for direction

We've covered much ground

Thinking back to innocence

I can no longer connect

I don' t have a heart left to throw around

Oh, and time moves like a train

That disappears into the night sky

Yeah, I still get a sad feeling inside

To see the red tail lights wave goodbye

But we'll grow old together

This old love will never die

Beautiful dawn lights up the shore for me

There is nothing else in the world

I'd rather wake up and see with you

Beautiful dawn, I'm just chasing time again

Thought I would die a lonely man in endless night

~

Promise me tomorrow starts with you

Getting high

Running wild among all the stars above

She said it's cold

It feels like Independence Day

And I can't break away from this parade

But there's got to be an opening

Somewhere here in front of me

Through this maze of ugliness and greed

And I've seen the sun up ahead

At the county line bridge

Saying all there's good and nothingness is dead

We'll run until she's out of breath

She ran until there's nothing left

She hit the end

It's just her window ledge

~

Well this place is old

It feels just like a beat up truck

I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn

It smells of cheap wine & cigarettes

This place is always such a mess

Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it bu...

I'm staring at a broken door

There's nothing left here anymore

My room is cold

It's making me insane

~

Running through the monsoon

Beyond the world

To the end of time

Where the rain won't hurt

Fighting the storm

Into the blue

And when I lose myself I think of you

Together we'll be running somewhere new

And nothing can hold me back from you

Through the monsoon

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup

They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe

Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind

Possessing and caressing me

~

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes

They call me on and on across the universe

Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box

They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe

~

Sounds of laughter, shades of life are ringing through my open ears

Inciting and inviting me

Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns

I want to be in another place

I hate when you say you don't understand

(You'll see it's not meant to be)

I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy

A place for my head

It found me

To hold me

But I don't like it at all

Won't feed it

Won't grow it

It's folded in my stomach

All I need is a bitter song

To make me better

Much better

The quiet can scrape

All the calm from your bones

But maybe it should

Maybe we need to be hollowed

To get up and grow

And stop fucking around

To kick off our braces and start straightening out

Let's sift through the static

For a simpler sound

Let's sift through the static

For a simpler sound

A simpler sound than the shit

That's clouding our heads now

I can hear my train coming

It's a lonesome and distant cry

I can hear my train coming

Now I'm running for my life

What makes a man walk away from his mind?

I think I know

I think I might know

~

I can feel the wind blowing

It's sending shivers down my spine

I can feel the wind blowing

It shakes the trees and the power lines

What makes a man spend his whole life in disguise?

I think I know

I think I might know

‘Cause I’m bleeding out

So if the last thing that I do

Is to bring you down

I’ll bleed out for you

So I bare my skin

And I count my sins

And I close my eyes

And I take it in

And I’m bleeding out

I’m bleeding out for you (for you)

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth

Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs

Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you

You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit

Drink up baby

Stay up all night

The things you could do

You won't but you might

The potential you'll be

That you'll never see

The promises you'll only make

Drink up with me now

And forget all about

The pressure of days

And do what I say

And I'll make you okay

And drive them away

The images stuck in your head

The people you've been before

That you don't want 'round anymore

Or that push and shove

And won't bend to your will

I'll keep them still

~

Drink up baby

Look at the stars

Waiting under dark clouds for the rain

Praying lightning strikes a change

As history gets lost

And as I took that final breath I felt alive

Meeting god to stand in line, all alone

~

Don't let me go, don't say goodbye

Don't let this love die

Everybody lies, lies, lies

It's the only truth sometimes

Doesn't matter if it's out there somewhere

Waiting for the world to find

Or buried deep inside

Everybody lies

Love, I hope we grow up

I hope we can find a way

Of seeing it all

Love, I hope we can be

I hope I can find a way

Of letting you see

That I'm so easy to please

So easy

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness

And all the real people are really not real at all

The more I learn, the more I learn

The more I cry, the more I cry

As I say goodbye to the way of life

I thought I had designed for me

~

Then I see you standing there

Wanting more from me

And all I can do is try

I was so high I did not recognize

The fire burning in her eyes

The chaos that controlled my mind

Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane

Never to return again

But always in my heart

~

This love has taken its toll on me

There was a time that the pieces fit

But I watched them fall away

We've seen our share of ups and downs

Oh, how quickly life can turn around

In an instant

It feels so good to reunite

Within yourself and within your mind

Let's find peace there

~

When you are with me, I'm free

I'm careless, I believe

Above all the others we'll fly

This brings tears to my eyes

My sacrifice

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things

He will admit to everything

Or he'll say he's just not the same

And you'll begin to wonder why you came

~

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Your eyes close to me by fog

And I awake and arise

As the light in your eyes

Whose heavy lids close on me

My world, my life

They close on me

And I am not

No longer

They open

And I spring up their wish

Like a field of flowers

You close your eyes and I die

You close your eyes and I die

And when I'm gone

Just carry on, don't mourn

Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice

Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling

And I didn't feel a thing

So baby don't feel no pain

Just smile back

You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do

And it's breakin' my heart in two

Where are you?

And I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick, strange darkness

Comes creeping on, so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

The webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

And hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?

Stop this pain tonight

~

Don't waste your time on me

You're already the voice inside my head

(I miss you, I miss you)

Well, bless my soul

You're a lonely soul

'Cause you won't let go

Of anything you hold

~

All I need is the air I breathe

And a place to rest my head

We're just two lost souls swimming in a fishbowl

Year after year

Running over the same old ground

What have we found?

The same old fears

Wish you were here

Everyone's got their chains to break, holding you

Were you born to resist or be abused?

Now the waves they drag you down

Carry you to broken ground

Though I find you in the sand

Wipe you clean with dirty hands

So goddamn this boiling space

The Spanish Sahara, the place that you'd wanna

Leave the horror here

~

Forget the horror here

Forget the horror here

Leave it all down here

It's future rust and it's future dust

~

I'm the fury in your head

I'm the fury in your bed

I'm the ghost in the back of your head

Look at the stars

Look how they shine for you

And everything you do

I need you so much closer

Walking rose with strife

Alone inside my head

I'm sorry honey, but I feel so lonely

Trapped inside my skin

I hold your hands like ornaments

And all I meant was to be kind

All I meant was to be kind

I pull your heartstrings tighter

And play my song as loud as I can

I'll sing my heart out for you

I'll sing my heart out for you

~

How does all this feeling grow?

How does all this feeling go on?

~

I pull my sleeves out further

And I prepare to fight my demons

I must not lose again this time

So wrap your arms around me

And sing the words as loud as you can

We are together in this world

Together in this world

~

How does all this feeling grow?

How does all this feeling go on?

~

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

Is there a cure for this pain?

Maybe I should have something to eat

But food won't take this emptiness away

I'm hungry for you, my love

Well, I made it through another day

In my cold room

On scraps and pieces left behind

I survive on the memory of you

~

All of me is all for you

I stood out there in the covering

In the baskings of a holy night

I was lucid and conscious

Hovering like a firefly

My mind stretched out on the canopy

It put its arms out slow

I heard the whispers of silence

Floating down from the radio

So come on, come on, I'm ready now

I got that feeling honey, like I'm ready to roll

You see I'm not gonna wait 'till the end of me

I got the burning fire in the bed of my soul

I've seen your face here before

You think you've got it all

But there is so much more

You hit the wall, you fall

And then you learn to crawl again

There's worlds to explore, yeah

Walking on the other side

It's my mother's side of me

Passing all the photographs

Of my lifeless past, you'll see

I'm troubled by double meanings

But do they mean much to you?

Now I'm done with these half-cut dealings

Like with everything else, you never see it through

~

Raindrops they're dropping on me

Like your heart's in the clouds above

But one day they'll drift right away

I never wanted the rain to stop

The sun you loved

I always knew it was the sun you loved

It's bugging me, grating me

And twisting me around

Yeah, I'm endlessly caving in

And turning inside out

~

'Cause I want it now

I want it now

Give me your heart and your soul

And I'm not breaking down

I'm breaking out

Last chance to lose control

And I want you now

I want you now

I'll feel my heart implode

And I'm breaking out

Escaping now

Feeling my faith erode

I never conquered, rarely came

16 just held such better days

Days when I still felt alive

We couldn't wait to get outside

The world was wide, too late to try

The tour was over, we'd survived

I couldn't wait 'till I got home

To pass the time in my room alone

Making my way downtown

Walking fast, faces pass

And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead

Just making my way

Making a way through the crowd

~

And I need you

And I miss you

And now I wonder....

If I could fall into the sky

Do you think time would pass me by?

'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles

If I could just see you tonight

And when i see you

I really see you upside down

But my brain knows better

It picks you up and turns you around

Turns you around, turns you around

~

If you feel discouraged

That there's a lack of color here

Please don't worry lover

It's really bursting at the seams

From absorbing everything

The spectrums a to z

Why do I have to fly

Over every town up and down the line?

I'll die in the clouds above

And you that I defend, I do not love

On a dark desert highway

Cool wind in my hair

Warm smell of colitas

Rising up through the air

Up ahead in the distance

I saw a shimmering light

My head grew heavy and my sight grew dim

I had to stop for the night

There she stood in the doorway

I heard the mission bell

And I was thinking to myself

This could be heaven and this could be hell

Then she lit up a candle

And she showed me the way

There were voices down the corridor

I thought I heard them say...

~

Welcome to the Hotel California

Such a lovely place

Such a lovely face

Plenty of room at the Hotel California

Look at earth from outer space

Everyone must find a place

Give me time and give me space

Give me real, don't give me fake

Give me strength, reserve control

Give me heart and give me soul

Give me time, give us a kiss

Tell me your own politik

And it starts

Sometime around midnight

Or at least that's when you lose yourself

For a minute or two

As you stand

Under the bar lights

The band plays some song about forgetting yourself for a while

The piano's this melancholy soundtrack to her smile

~

And so there's a change

In your emotions

All of these memories come rushing like feral waves to your mind

Of the curl of your bodies, like two perfect circles entwined

You feel hopeless, and homeless, and lost in the haze of the wine

And you walk

Under the streetlights

I want to break free

I want to break free from your lies

You're so self satisfied, I don't need you

I've got to break free

There's another world inside of me

That you may never see

There're secrets in this life

That I can't hide

Somewhere in this darkness

There's a light that I can't find

Maybe it's too far away

Or maybe I'm just blind

~

So hold me when I'm here

Right me when I'm wrong

Hold me when I'm scared

And love me when I'm gone

Everything I am

And everything in me

Wants to be the one

You wanted me to be

I'll never let you down

Even if I could

I'd give up everything

If only for your good

So hold me when I'm here

She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak

I've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for weeks

I've been drawn into your magnet tar-pit trap

I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn back

It's a beautiful day

The sky falls and you feel like

It's a beautiful day

Don’t let it get away

~

Touch me, take me to that other place

Teach me love, I know I’m not a hopeless case

~

What you don’t have

You don’t need it now

What you don’t know

You can feel it somehow

What you don’t have

You don’t need it now, don't need it now

It's a beautiful day

Can you be the one?

Can you see the sun with me?

In a dream I saw you walking

With your friends, alive and talking

That was you

All the roads we have to walk are winding

And all the lights that lead us there are blinding

There are many things that I would like to say to you

But I don't know how

~

Because maybe

You're gonna be the one that saves me

Tiny vessels oozed into your neck

And formed the bruises

That you said you didn't want to fade

But they did and so did I that day

~

So one last touch and then you'll go

And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more

But it was vile, and it was cheap

And you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me

Yeah, you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me

I've seen a palace in London

I've seen a castle in Wales

But I'd rather wake up beside you

And breathe that old familiar smell

I never thought you could leave me

I figured I was the one

But I understand your sadness

So I guess I should just hold my tongue

~

I know that we're taking chances

You told me life was a risk

I just have one last question

Will it be my heart

Or will it be his

Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see

Every single day what you say makes no sense to me

Even though I try, I can't get my head around you

I was a baby, maybe I was just a couple of months

My faggot father must have had his panties up in a bunch

Cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye?

No I don't on second thought

I just fucking wish he would die

I don't have to feel like this

It's just that it hurts so bad

Everyone says I should forgive you

Maybe you can change

Maybe it doesn't have to be like this anymore

Why did you do this to us?

Pour me out

On the concrete

Next to your feet

I wanna trust the pulse

In which decay is followed by bloom

And I'm sure any flaw

Will turn out beautiful

Just between you and I

You and me and the satellites

You'll sit alone forever

If you wait for the right time

What are you hoping for?

I gave you all

But you rip it from my hands

And you swear it's all gone

And you rip out all I have

Just to say that you've won

~

Well now you've won

Don't carve me out

Don't let your silly dreams

Fall in between

The crack of the bed and the wall

Aerials, in the sky

When you lose small mind

You free your life

~

Life is a waterfall

We drink from the river

Then we turn around and put up our walls

~

Swimming through the void, we hear the words

We lose ourselves, but we find it all

All around me are familiar faces

Worn out places, worn out faces

Bright and early for the daily races

Going nowhere, going nowhere

The tears are filling up their glasses

No expression, no expression

Hide my head, I wanna drown my sorrow

No tomorrow, no tomorrow

~

And I find it kinda funny

I find it kinda sad

The dreams in which I'm dying

Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you

I find it hard to take

When people run in circles it's a very very...

Mad world

Somebody's baby boy ain't coming home tonight

Here I am, this is me

There's nowhere else on earth I'd rather be

Here I am, it's just me and you

Tonight we make our dreams come true

~

It's a new world, it's a new start

It's alive with the beating of young hearts

It's a new day, it's a new plan

I've been waiting for you

Here I am

Days like this, I don't know what to do with myself

All day and all night

I wander the halls along the walls

And under my breath I say to myself

I need fuel to take flight

~

And there's too much going on

But it's calm under the waves

In the blue of my oblivion

Under the waves

In the blue of my oblivion

~

Is that why they call me

A sullen girl, sullen girl?

They don't know I used to sail

The deep and tranquil sea

But he washed me ashore

And took my pearl

And left an empty shell of me

There's forces working in our heads

But we don't understand them

I need a map to find my way out all the time

There's curses lurking in our heads

But we don't want to find them

We need to come back down

And face what we've become

Run baby, run

Don't ever look back

They'll tear us apart

If you give them the chance

So take it as a song or a lesson to learn

And sometime soon be better than you were

If you say you're gonna go, then be careful

And watch how you treat every living soul

~

My eyes can't look at you any other way

Any other way, any other way

When you're on a holiday

You can't find the words to say

All the things that come to you

I wanna feel it too

On an island in the sun

We'll be playing and having fun

And it makes me feel so fine

I can't control my brain

I awake to see that no one is free

We’re all fugitives

Look at the way we live

Down here I cannot sleep from fear, no

I said which way do I turn?

I forget everything I learned

Everything's so blurry

And everyone's so fake

And everybody's empty

And everything is so messed up

Pre-occupied without you

I cannot live at all

My whole world surrounds you

I stumble then I crawl

~

Can you take it all away?

Can you take it all away?

When you shoved it in my face

This pain you gave to me

~

Everyone is changing

There's noone left that's real

To make up your own ending

And let me know just how you feel

Cause I am lost without you

I cannot live at all

My whole world surrounds you

I stumble then I crawl

We were running from the same noise

We were stuck in the same pursuit

Now the door's locked, and I find that

The dizzy madness is bleeding through

~

The world is spinning, turning day to night

And my thoughts are running at the speed of light

Got an empty feeling that I never want to fill

Absolutely still

I waited longer 'cause I needed proof

That every door I shut is leading me to you

And there's a nervous feeling that i never want to kill

Absolutely still

~

I'll go anywhere you want tonight

'Cause my head is spinning like a satellite

Yes and no are just distinguished by distinction

So we choose the in-between

Give up your books and put an end to your worries

Enjoy central park in spring

Our minds are empty

Like we're too young to know to smile

We know to fear what others fear is nonsense

Right?

~

The books suggest we set our hearts on doing nothing

And then nothing's left undone

Everybody's busy waiting for the go-ahead

But by then their heads are gone

Our minds are empty

Grave as well as strange

We know to seek success is utter nonsense

Lie awake in bed at night

And think about your life

Do you want to be different?

Try to let go of the truth

The battles of your youth

'Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie

It's the perfect denial

Such a beautiful lie to believe in

So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

It's time to forget about the past

To wash away what happened last

Hide behind an empty face

Don't ask too much, just say

'Cause this is just a game

Everyone's looking at me

Everyone I've loved before

Flashed before my eyes

And nothing mattered anymore

I looked into the sky

Well I remember

I remember, don't worry

How could I ever forget?

It's the first time, the last time we ever met

But I know the reason why you keep your silence up

No, you don't fool me

The hurt doesn't show

But the pain still grows

It's no stranger to you or me

~

I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord

I've been waiting for this moment for all my life

A good man doesn't drink

And I've been drinking alone

So what does that make me?

My hands they always shake

And no one's calling my phone

So what does that make me?

~

I'm selfish enough to wanna get better

But I'm backwards enough not to take any steps to get there

And when you realize it's a pattern and not a phase

It's what you've become and it's what you will stay

That's ballgame

'Cause I don't got room in my life for anyone else

I've driven away all the people that could help

And I still don't even know what I need to do to fix myself

~

Woke up and wished that I was dead

With an aching in my head

I lay motionless in bed

I thought of you and where you'd gone

And let the world spin madly on

~

I let the day go by

I always say goodbye

I watch the stars from my window sill

The whole world is moving

And I'm standing still

I took a walk around the world

To ease my troubled mind

I left my body laying somewhere

In the sands of time

But I watched the world float

To the dark side of the moon

This place is so empty

My thoughts are so tempting

I don’t know how it got so bad

Sometimes it’s so crazy

That nothing can save me

But it’s the only thing that I have

~

If you believe it’s in my soul

I’d say all the words that I know

Just to see if it would show

God, my fingers burn

Now when I think of touching your hair

You have changed so much that I don't know

If I can call you and tell you I care

And I would love to bring you down

Plant your feet back on the ground

Hey now, hey now

Don't dream it's over

Hey now, hey now

When the world comes in

They come, they come

To build a wall between us

We know they won't win

~

Now I'm walking again to the beat of a drum

And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart

Like a freeze-dried rose, you will never be

What you were to me in memory

But if I listen to the dark

You'll embrace me like a star

Envelope me, envelope me

~

And if I listen to the sound of white

Sometimes I hear your smile and breathe your light

~

My silence solidifies

Until that hollow void erases you

Erases you so I can't feel at all

I've got this icebox where my heart used to be

I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

So turn up the corners of your lips

Part them and feel my finger tips

Trace the moment, fall forever

Defense is paper thin

Just one touch and I'd be in

Too deep now to ever swim against the current

So let me slip away

~

I am vindicated

I am selfish, I am wrong

I am right, I swear I'm right

I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed

But I am cleaning up so well

I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

When I exit I recall your eyes

Leaden depth and dark

Hinting at space

Oh the richness

Too much of everything

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlit floor

Lift your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moon's sparkling

So kiss me

It's amazing, the changes I've been feeling

I'm dreaming about seeing the world with someone like you

I've been tumbling, shaking and my whole world is breaking

I wanna put it together

~

And if we run away, run away now

We won't ever look back

I will find my way

I can go the distance

I'll be there someday

If I can be strong

I know every mile

Will be worth my while

I would go almost anywhere

To feel like I belong

I am covered in skin

No one gets to come in

Pull me out from inside

I am folded and unfolded and unfolding

Loose ends tangle down

And then take flight

But never tie us down

Never tie us down

~

Off I go

Where I fall

Is where I land

I was just guessing at numbers and figures

Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science, science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart

You're in my veins

And I cannot get you out

Sunlight creeps in between the curtains

Lose the sheets, there's no time for sleep

I lie, I pretend, 'til I'm almost certain

It's a beautiful world

So I’ll brace myself against the wall

And hope to god that I don’t fall

My bones are worn, my hip won’t hold

I used to be so young, how did I get so old?

Won’t you take my cane and hold my hand

You’re holding on to all I have

Just a basket full of memories

And I'm losing more each day it seems

But if I can make it to the street

I’ll steal a car, or a bike

Or whatever there is to steal

And it might get cold, I just don’t care

I’m going ’til I’m getting there

You got a fast car

But is it fast enough so we can fly away?

We gotta make a decision

We leave tonight or live and die this way

~

I remember we were driving, driving in your car

The speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk

City lights lay out before us

And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder

I had a feeling that I belonged

And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

Meaning is sometimes hard to spot

It begins with the flickering of cigarettes

In the darkness of a dorm room

Somewhere in the suffocated mid-west

If this is real then I was mistaken

And if there is truth then why can't we find it?

Beauty comes to those who have been waiting

For something that is bigger than themselves

~

But this is the sound of the hopeless kids

As they scream from the basements

Of the houses of their parents

And this is the sound of the hopeless ones

As they stare down at their books

And realize that they've been lied to

This one's for the lonely

The one's that seek and find

Only to be let down

Time after time

This one's for the torn down

The experts at the fall

Come on friends, get up now

You're not alone at all

We are the reckless, we are the wild youth

Chasing visions of our futures