To jacob, my baby,

Biggy, take some melatonin. But for now, just read this. I wish things were a bit easier for you, that panic attacks weren’t so bad you couldn’t sleep sometimes, or things didn’t bother you so much that you could enjoy sleep properly. I miss you a lot, all the time. I assume I’m asleep right now, so can’t exactly text me, but do that anyways. I miss when we used to be able to sleep on call, we can sometimes know that I’ve figured it out, but it always felt so nice coming home to a nice sleep with my baby on call talking about some dumb shit he spent a whole week researching. Nevertheless, I was always right where I wanted to be, every night. One day, we’ll be able to say goodnight face to face, maybe with two little bed bugs underneath the sheets too, giggling. Then, you’ll give me a buuuunch of forehead kisses, and we go zzzz. That will be the best day of my life, I cannot imagine anything better. But for now, you gotta sleep baby or you won’t feel well tomorrow morning. I hope reading this made you feel sleepy, or enough time for the melatonin to kick in even though blue light cancels out the effects of melatonin whatever BUT I love you foooorever, goodnight pretty boy. MWAH.