jan

feb

mar

apr

• 4, my child first time goes to the school.

may

• 16, go to one ok rock detox concert at jakarta with my husband. it was fun. the best night ever! we went to one piece restaurant at senayan park for lunch ♡

jun

jul

• 11, first time i went to an internist. he said there is no problem. my breathless was disappear. fuck anxiety.
• 12, i with my fam had a lunch at sate maranggi hj yeti and we did karaoke together! miraculously, all my problem was like disappear lol. i didn't get gerd too.
• 13, first time i went to a psychiatric to heal anxiety and gerd that has been my problem of my life. it was astounding.
• 14-23, trying to heal from anxiety and gerd. it was like a wheel. but lately it's better after maintaining the gerd diet. anxiety is still there, but maybe getting outside is the solution for now.
• 27, second time to psychiatric. it is still there.
• 29, wfh budi. got budi's salary. gacoan time! i was so anxious because i just knew that "tukin"'s deadline is 31! i didn't prepare anything! it was scary. but, thanks god, i was prepared but i forgot.
• 30, finally i can do yoga! it was a nice feeling. i also can start walking again. it's a good day. i will start to be more compassionate to myself.
• 31, i started practice guitar with my friend. it was nice. i also got deadline of changing gift.

agt

• 1, outing with my co-worker. it was fun! it was embarrassing because i performed (no, i don't want to sing! i wanted to play guitar, but yeah, the skill matters, right). i also feel embarrassed because my gift was taken by bu trans. i went to jeep for off road and soak in a hot spring. overall, it was fun.
• 3, i feel not anxious anymore lately. i wonder why. maybe the medicine that i have been taking is worked. nope. i got panic attack at 7 pm. went to emergency. it was gerd. first day of period.
• 4, still got panic attack. i was walking on treadmill. it stopped the panic.
• 5, no panic attack but i was so anxious at 5-8 pm.
• 6, it was confirmed that it was panic attack by doctor. damn, that day was scary. today i don't have any and don't feel anxious. moka got evaluation for 10 weeks. it was nice. i love his school.
• 15, for the first time, my child went to sport 17-august day school. he was happy.
• 16, thank god, i feel better. the panic never came anymore. the anxiety was also. but i got gerd because of spicy chips. i really need to change what i eat. this is second day to digital detox, btw.
• 17, celebrate independent day by going to campus to flag-raising ceremony and waited for door prize, but i didn't get it. my family got lunch at hokben. at 6 pm, i got anxiety again. maybe it relates with "Monday", idk. i got a loot of screen time which made me so hate myself.
• 18, i tried to fight against the procrastination by the minute-journaling. it worked!
• 25, went to the book store and got nothing! because i didn't have money for buying books. then why I went to the place? it was because i really wanted to go to outside.
• 26, i deleted all contacts on WhatsApp who update status. i blocked all social media: threads, youtube, x, facebook on the browser. i timed pvz fushion for only 40 minutes. i am happy i can do this. what's left? only netflix. but, i already finished "my family", so, now i only watch the "t-shirt dries" that will be updated next thursday, and also, the "attack on titan final season".
• 27, i really love the minute-journaling. the method is powerful for me. i just went to the doctor and got another batch of medicine. i am happy things are going well. a lot of tasks are done!!!
• 28, i subscribed curves btw. i regretted it somehow because it costs one tukin. but, i hope with this decision, i can exercise more.
• 29, gajian time! i planned to use kakeibo method for september budgeting. i hope, i can save more and less spending!
• 30, we went to ikea. for the first time i was not overbudget! wohoo!! this is happy too.