jan

feb

mar

apr

• 4, my child first time goes to the school.

may

• 16, go to one ok rock detox concert at jakarta with my husband. it was fun. the best night ever! we went to one piece restaurant at senayan park for lunch ♡

jun

jul

• 11, first time i went to an internist. he said there is no problem. my breathless was disappear. fuck anxiety.
• 12, i with my fam had a lunch at sate maranggi hj yeti and we did karaoke together! miraculously, all my problem was like disappear lol. i didn't get gerd too.
• 13, first time i went to a psychiatric to heal anxiety and gerd that has been my problem of my life. it was astounding.
• 14-23, trying to heal from anxiety and gerd. it was like a wheel. but lately it's better after maintaining the gerd diet. anxiety is still there, but maybe getting outside is the solution for now.
• 27, second time to psychiatric. it is still there.
• 29, wfh budi. got budi's salary. gacoan time! i was so anxious because i just knew that "tukin"'s deadline is 31! i didn't prepare anything! it was scary. but, thanks god, i was prepared but i forgot.
• 30, finally i can do yoga! it was a nice feeling. i also can start walking again. it's a good day. i will start to be more compassionate to myself.
• 31, i started practice guitar with my friend. it was nice. i also got deadline of changing gift.

agt

• 1, outing with my co-worker. it was fun! it was embarrassing because i performed (no, i don't want to sing! i wanted to play guitar, but yeah, the skill matters, right). i also feel embarrassed because my gift was taken by bu trans. i went to jeep for off road and soak in a hot spring. overall, it was fun.
• 3, i feel not anxious anymore lately. i wonder why. maybe the medicine that i have been taking is worked. nope. i got panic attack at 7 pm. went to emergency. it was gerd. first day of period.
• 4, still got panic attack. i was walking on treadmill. it stopped the panic.
• 5, no panic attack but i was so anxious at 5-8 pm.
• 6, it was confirmed that it was panic attack by doctor. damn, that day was scary. today i don't have any and don't feel anxious. moka got evaluation for 10 weeks. it was nice. i love his school.