(this list was started on 7.19.17, and is NOT indicative of i) whether that day was good or bad, ii) the things listed are necessarily good or bad, and iii) whether or not i was successful in completing any tasks or assignments listed herein. basically, don't assume anything. that goes for you, too, self.)(def stole this from this lady, rose , who may or may not realize i'm effectively emulating a lot of her shit)

❧ JULY

• 19: woke up w/ bae; stuck in house
• 18: woke up w/ bae; stuck in house; finished Cosmocopia before midnight; mapped habits poorly; Snotgirl #6; beanie-weenies; Oh, Hello! on Broadway
• 19: stuck in house; Furies by Elisa Gonzalez (x); finished Do What You Want, the zine re: mental illness and self-care, feel very conflicted about it
• 20: stuck in house; 4+ hours of the bachelorette, watched ~half of most recent episode with Cava; me, cava, + bae went to One-Fifth (restaurant) to celebrate nothing in particular (told waiter we were celebrating my getting accepted into graduate school, but nah, no freebie, despair); third night in a row w/ headache in evening
• 21: surprise brazilian cheese biscuit-style waffles w/ green onions, courtesy of bae; shopping = pineapples, mangoes, strawberries + kombucha, wtf?!; started popsugar journaling challenge
• 22: woke up exhausted; went back to bed after waffles, woke up at like 3 + ac:nl (finally got the dream suite, motherfuckas); why the fuck am i only watching golden girls now??; i am pretty sure that i am Dorothy
• 23: goodbye, sweet delicious cheesy waffles; bae & i "scissored" and relaxed on the couch ("why have we never done this before, it's so comfy???"); 8.bit Runner + Virididi; recruited Quillson to move into my town (yessssssss)
• 24: slept in; stuck in house; wrote ✉ ➸ Mike, my counselor when I was an undergrad (just saying hi, maybe he'll remember me??); 4 eps. of Rage of Bahamut: Virgin Soul; bae submitted necessary paperwork for our new place to live in Evanston
• 25: tried to sleep in, failed; stayed in bed for most of the day anyways; too tired, don't want to go back to bed and sleep, tho; started and finished manga Doubt (2015) + 1.5 vols. of Horimiya; steve got the fucking job offer today at UOP, ooooommmmmmgggggmgmgmgmg
• 26: woke up w/ bae; stuck in house; lonely, unable to control spacing out; date night ❤ @ Nobie's » two glasses of high-shelf whiskey (total of 3.5 oz) + duck fat hash browns + blazing shishitos w/ spicy mayo, lime, & salt + whole red snapper w/ salsa de coco (+ watermelon radish salad w/ fresh greens) + 4-6 octopus tentacles (under $30) w/ squash, surprise tamale, & greens + dense-as-fuck fudgy chocolate-chocolate-mocha chocolate pie
• 27: slept in; stuck in house; read vols. 1.5-8 of Horimiya; suddenly plummeted into crippling depression, wanted to die; stayed in bed all day, then the whole evening; finally broke down and cried, played ACNL in the dark until i felt better; (Better Together organization pouch (pink)) from MochiThings came in the mail; steve helped a little
• 28: woke up with bae; stuck in house; pineapple envelopes + yellow writing paper set from Pipstix came in the mail!; doing significantly better than i was the day before;
• 29: Isaac is in town!! excited as fuck to see him; went to Filipino cafeteria restaurant, just pointing at things that looked delicious + amazing; baby's first cup of mango juice!; treated ourselves afterwards w/ drinks from Hay Merchant; FALL SEASONALS ARE COMING OUT MUCH EARLIER THAN USUAL??; ginger barley wine + black o' lantern!
• 30: lunch date w/ Cava! ▸ Guru burger! (Pancho burger w/ a fried egg and weirdo yerba mate kombucha); Flying Saucer, our table was taken, cry cry; actually flat-right refused to go grocery shopping; smoothie for dinner, i'm awful; vegetated
• 31: woke up w/ Steve; laundry + reorganized by "pretty things drawer"; wrote ballsy letter to Curtis; created new ACNL resident, Izumi; nagged Isaac about visiting; fucking marathoned S1 of Castlevania (2017)

❧ AUGUST

• 1: first day of Augusttttt, yes yes yes; pagan festival of Lammas, in the northern hemisphere; waited all day to hang out w/ Isaac, but he was a loser; started and then finished Kurt Vonnegut's God Bless You, Dr. Kevorkian (1999); fucker came over at freaking seven o' clock, asaaaahahahsahs; gifts from Isaac ▸ shirt ("Punch me in the face / I need to feel alive"), Psy ("Opa, Gangnam Style!") socks; dinner was awkward at first??; came home, all 3 snuggled on couch, fubbing one another
• 2: caught up on the Bachelorette (Lee is still trash, first-time social justice forum re: racism and white supremacy in context of reality TV (that I'm aware of, anyway); "whaboom" is still not funny);
• 3: bae woke me up to help him find his wallet, jdkshfjs; bonded forever with Prissy on the floor; "hicky dicky parley voo" - Caves of Steel (1954); will I ever fucking finish reading Phoebe Robinson's book;
• 4: AE clothes came in!; cute AF;
• 5:
• 6: dinner @ paul & shirley's house; duly left-out, again; what is "anatha's life accomplishments are forever eclipsed by the achievements of her husband, etc."; cousins* night out @ The SUgar Refinery (pretty shitty service)
• 7: slept in; stuck in house. cava introduced us to his gf, Megan; talked a lot about video games, couldn't really keep up, oh well; 2nd day of sore throat, fuckkk; ACNL w/ Megan + double-date @ Max's Wine Dive (RWH mealsies: Max & cheese; grilled cheese sandwich w/ kettle-chips and truffle oil & cheap rose wine andddd Big Ass Brownie); spoiled Bachelorette finale for myself, thankful i did (maybe watch w/ bae tomorrow ?)
• 8: slept in; stuck in house; made new character in ACNL (Mimsy!); throat is still sore as shit, wtf; ew, tonsil stones, kill me; Mayflower packing co. estimate (yikes); ate lunch!! so proud of myself?;
• 9: slept in; stuck in house, forget the gate dongle to get the fuck out of here, shit; een defends sexist fuck from Google and his manifesto because he thinks it was "polite" and "objectively unoffensive" ; trying not to think of him differently, but it's hard, we love him, he needs to understand that there's nothing here that's defensible; date @ A'bouzy, had ACTUAL expensive delicious wine??; situation with een is worse than we thought, it's fucked Tracey up; went to B&N, bought The Glss Castle
• 10: slept in; had sexy dreams about dragons?? there was a guy named Lance, with light blonde hair, & it was one of those "relationships across the ages" things; woke up, Tracey is deeply upset, worried; tired as fuck, sore throat finally getting better; need to write, UGH; rescheduled shrink appt.; Violence Jack: Hell Town (Uncut) (1988)
• 11: slept in; read eyes out re: [DEAD] tube; Steve's last day of work at Fluor!!!; mmmm my pork chop, yay; why am i so into ACHHD, wah; watched S1.1-7 of the Magicians, the fuck
• 12: did virtually nothing allllll day; slept in, nightmares; ACHHD + ACNL, neglecting RF4, feeling itches of guilt; started watching Adventure Time again, so fucking behind, so fucking clueless; almost embarrassed the shit out of us with my fucking period, i haaaaaaaaate my body, hate hate hate hate hate it; went to reception for Vicky & Huned (who the hell are these people, you ask, but lemme tell you, that's a really fucking good question )> baby's first chinese wedding reception banquet; ate sea cucumber and hydrated jellyfish for the first time; only 1 of 2 white people there, tried to, uh, behave
• 13: dissociated HARD at the grocery store, can't actively get back to normal, not easily, anyways; this is like the 6th day in a row i haven't taken any of my morning meds, help help help
• 14: Steve's frst weekday, not working; went on date to Riel!; baby's first migraine, nausea and all; played ACHHD all fucking day, newly obsessed
• 15: similar headache at night, couldn't focus on words, couldn't read, pressure around head, like there's a rock underneath or right above my eye, under my skin; haircut; finalized three hotels to stay at for trip to Chicago, one being a bed & breakfast!!; uh, fucking bed & breakfast called back to let us know that they accept all pets but cats, for allergy reasons (thanks for making that clear on the website)
• 16: slowly but surely starting to like Curb Your Enthusiasm; i am both disgusted with Larry David, but my inner terrible person sympathizes hardcore; drop off prescriptions; went to Sephora ▸ translucent powder, brown liquid liner (Sephora), and Fresh Rose Facial Mask summer, splurge gift bag w/ several samples; lunch date @ Sweet Paris
• 21: MegaBus'd to SA, uber'd to parents' house; VG; cold as fuck on bus; hung out with Nicky until Childresses & family came back or by; Chuy's dinner; stayed up laaate
• 22: SA; played escape-room game w/ family, lots of fun
• 23 - 31: Hurricane Harvey, all kinds of shit

SEPTEMBER

• 1: water, water, everywhere;
• 2:
• 3: finally fucking made it to Evanston; TJ cashier: "
  
  looks like Truman Capote;:
• 4: too tired to eat; antsy about school; Jun's cooking videos; trying to love new place; wtf is THAT in the walls, omg; went to fancy Tapas restaurant?; still no furniture
• 7: too tired to eat; antsy about school; played RF4 all day, waffling between potential bachelors; wtf, is that FANFICTION i crave; I'm disgusting... when was the last time I read a book?; why is Penn Gillette's good intentions canceled out by his self-defeating libertarianism?; oh shit, Peaky Blinders is a good show
• 13: woke up early, TGS orientation (all day); rainy, no umbrella; why so unorganized
• 15: department orientation; everything is more important than linguistics; "everything is more important than linguistics" is an opinion and it's funny, at least
• 16: woke up too damn early, thanks for nothing, cat beasties; painfully productive
• 17: woke up early... are we officially early-risers now?; picnic by the lake; romantic encounter with lake vaguely ruined by incessant gnats; the future is bright-ish??
• 18: research resources forum for school library; woke up early, almost said 'fuck the forum;' adulthood prevailed, went to the forum, found cohorts & chilled; course enrollment anxiety attack at home; the future is not so much bright so much as it is... period. So much as it SIMPLY "is" now; autopilot inside
• 19: first day of school, shit shit shit;

❧ OCTOBER

• 12: happy birthday, Steve!; got Ben Loory's new short story collection, am actively restraining myself from blazing through it; unusually excited about sound inventories???