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• ☆ Doppio's: ⊹ Little blog ★

☆ 01/10/2023 ⊹ Phone... ⊹ My mother is a bit of a liar, she says she'll go with me to fix my phone, but cancels the next day. Says we have no money, when she clearly has. I wonder if I'll be able to trust her if my situation becomes an emergency. My phone is important for me... I wonder if selling commissions would help... But then again, I haven't sold anything in a long long time, I'm out of options... Either I try to get a job (Which is unlikable since I have this condition...) or lose everything. ★

• ☆ 01/11/2023 ⊹ Il Mercato... ⊹ Yesterday we went to the supermarket, I learned the prices of things I normally want aren't exactly that pricey, I'm glad... My mother told me how to use my card and how to buy stuff, she only really went because my grandma agreed to go with us, everyone has their highs and lows, I think she only didn't want to go before because she was afraid of getting the car alone (I would be there, but I have no knowledge of how to drive anything) I saw she was getting good at driving, she only needs more practice after all. Today, I asked a friend to write some interactions between my two Sonas so I can put it in some lovely MS Paint short comics, both of them are called Subconscious, so I thought I could call one of them S and the other Sub. ★
• ☆ 01/12/2023 ⊹ Junk ⊹ I've been eating lotsa of junk food lately... I don't know why, I guess I just can't see something tasty without devouring everything on my way... Today seems like just one of those days, nothing to do, nothing to say. I think I'm gonna read some manga or even just grab a book and give it a read, I got this book that is a collections from tales of some authors like Edgar Allan Poe and Charles Dickens (lmao "dick", yeah I have no maturity to these things, deal with it) I thought it was interesting but didn't read yet. I have to talk to mother about therapy and finding a goddamn psychologist for me before I actually go insane, fun stuff. About therapy, actually, I've been doing a lot better these days, having less intrusive self harm thoughts and I've even been a bit more positive, if "Get a job or lose everything" counts as positivity... Alright, it's still early so, if I have anything to report later today, I'll do another entry... Doppio out. ★
• ☆ 01/14/2023 ⊹ Flood ⊹ You may have seen it, but I missed a day, that is because... Well my house had a flood, I even had to sleep at my grandma's yesterday, not fun stuff, but well, here's todays lil piece of thought, because I don't really have anything to talk about besides intrusive thoughts. I've been trying to write a little more of Discount Boy's backstory, I made it more wholesome and less dark than what I normally do... But hey, he still gets the bad ending so we're good. I had many problems with my mental health as of late, but I think it's going to be okay. Huh...? My room smells like... Something wet... Like fish! I hate fish... Hah, this is hell. ★
• ☆ 01/17/2023 ⊹ Missed ⊹ Since I`ve been overwhelmed with my debts, flood and all sorts of misfortunes, I`ve noticed how dependant I actually am... It`s weird to admit, but in terms of dependability, I look like a 5 year old child... I talked to mother about therapy and getting a diagnose sometime when we are a little more stable on money matters, but would be good if I actually talked about all of my suspicions and trauma with a psychologist, would be good... Oh yeah, I went out today, I bought pastel pencils and nothing more, got home and ate a good meal, and now I`m a bit tired, but I`ll try to finish DF`s Oshi and then cleanup a little. Doppio out... ★
• ☆ 01/18/2023 ⊹ Misfortunes ⊹ I've been in a bad luck chain recently, my PC keeps on making me angry because it runs out of internet out of nowhere, yesterday my drawing program crashed and I was gonna do the lineart today, but haaah, look at this, I can't, because I saved the file on my cloud in Medibang and now I can't acess it 'cus MY PC HAS NO INTERNET, I'm on my grandma's PC btw, I have limited time today, so I'm trying to get things done as fast as possible... I just hope nothing happens with my phone, because I'm so close to fixing it... Please... *sigh* Doppio out, I guess. ★
• ☆ 01/19/2023 ⊹ Interest ⊹ I met someone that has a LOT in common with me! It's was very fun to talk to them, it's fun finding people you just click with. Also, I haven't slept. I'm not kidding, I've been awake for more than 30 hours, I'm not okay LMAO. And I've also eaten like, no actual meals at all, all I had all day was bread, fun stuff. I don't have any strength to cook, so I'll just ask someone. Short one today, but aside from these two major things, nothing much happened. Doppio OUT. ★
• ☆ 01/21/2023 ⊹ はあ。。。 ⊹ Yesterday was, nothing happened yesterday actually, I slept through it... Hehe, sorry, no entry for yesterday... Anyways, I was thinking and I finally have enough money to fix my phone, so that's my goal, you see. I talked a lot with my friend this week, and I even made some major improvements in my life... Tho my sleep schedule is shit, I kinda like how we have the same shitty schedule and can talk to each other at the right time. I drew some of my JJOC too. also wrote some more things, and even made a lil "arranged marriage" (As in shipping each others OCs) with my best friend. Everything has been fun so far, guess it's to compensate the shitty things that happened haha... Anyways, I have nothing to report today... I feel like it's gonna be a real good day. That said, Doppio OUT. ★
• ☆ 01/23/2023 ⊹ Nothing... ⊹ You see, I haven't been writing much on my "blog" recently, because, well... THERES NOTHING HAPPENING MANNNN, just the usual, my PC running out of internet that I have to use my grandma's, unusual encounters, holy shit I wrote something really sus that's true I forgot about that... 恥ずかし恥ずかし... Well, I made some more adjustments in Days and Week's story and wrote a little plan on how Diverso and Days met, so that's cool... Not much to report, like I said... Anyways, as always, Doppio OUT!! ★
• ☆ 01/25/2023 ⊹ wait a sec... ⊹ Mother said that maybe today we'll fix my phone! But... Just maybe. Hey, who knows, maybe I`ll get my phone fixed today and even, if the goddess allows me, play ProSeka!! Yaaay, I hope that cute employee talks to me today, I'm gonna try and write a note asking if he's what I think he is... Who knows, always good saving lil contacts everywhere! Oh, yeah I've been on pony town lots recently, I don't know why, it just seems fun observing people, I guess... Anyways, not much to report, again, if anything interesting happens today, I'll make another entry, but for now... Doppio OUT!! ★
• ☆ 01/25/2023 ⊹ I'm an absolute fucking genius... ⊹ The title was sarcastic by the way, also, my phone is fixed babyyyyyy, project sekai is backkk, also I'm in debt :D hehe, cool right, can't believe my first "adult" thing was to immediately get into a debt... Man... So yeah, I'm thinking of opening some commissions, see if it helps, but hey, look at the positive side, I finally, FINALLY did something, and figured out a way of making my life easier... Well, once again, Doppio out...! ★
• ☆ 08/02/2023 ⊹ Oh shit ⊹ Fuck this shit I completely forgot about my blog LMAO. Let's do a rundown of what happened these days... So... I got my phone fixed, started Project Sekai again, stopped my Genshin Hiatus (Though I ain't gonna farm like a dog, I make sure do mostly do event + daily as my priority) worked A LOT on worldbuilding for some other OCs, got better motivations for Discount boys, got an app for... Talking to people? I mean, it's a streaming app, but I seriously need to deal with my social awkwardness when it's voice related, you gotta understand, this shit is seriously gonna fuck me in the ass. Now I'm stuck in this loophole of talking to people I don't know and won't form bonds with because I need the experience. There were some things that happened, like my school situation, me wanting to find a job but seriously needing a diagnose for that, fufufu, I'm tired, I'm going to sleep now, good nigh... Also, hehe... Doppio OUT! ★
• ☆ 09/02/2023 ⊹ On track! ⊹ I'm back as my usual self! Waking up in the morning, cooking in my free time, planning drawings and writing, talking to more people, I've been... Good? I don't know, I've been thinking about suicide a lot, and I keep on having intrusive thoughts, but guess what, all good, I can keep cool, and there's people helping me too! Today I'll do a short log, mostly because there's nothing to report wwww, is ok though... I prefer having short good notices than having long bad ones www. Ah, almost forgot! Doppio OUT!! ★
• ☆ 11/02/2023 ⊹ Off track www ⊹ Guess who's lost the sleep schedule again? But it's alright, I keep on making friends keep on losing face, keep on learning, falling down my own steps. I was reading Tokyo Ghoul after watching the anime so many times, I think I love it a lot more than the anime now. It's so much more brutal and the black and white pages creates a much more darker setup than the colored animated parts, though I have to admit THE ANIMATION SLAPS MAN! Also, as I noticed, a lot of things and facts got seriously changed... A LOT, it wasn't just, "oh they added this" or, "oh they removed that", they seriously changed my favorite scene completely from the manga, and the fact that instead of the Gourmet and Naki didn't team up, how Rise is not alive, how the entirety of the Kanou arc and Kaneki's team got completely changed, the anime completely fucked the amazing storytelling and world building around TG...! It makes me a bit mad, after all, my favorite anime (by which I loved for the sole purpose of the battle scenes and the concept of Ghouls being fascinating) just got destroyed by reading two chapters of the manga, don't get me wrong, I love Tokyo Ghoul, both manga and anime, but there's so much lost potential and context that should have been added when it was being adapted into an anime, you may be like "Oh but it's such an old anime from 2014, it's almost been ten years what are you talking about" BUT I GREW UP WITH THAT THING, I WAS IN MY LIVING ROOM, HEARING KANEKI BEING TORTURED WHEN I WAS 7 MAN, My uncle still questions my sanity from the time he came to visit and I was watching it... Back on topic, I know it's old, and that complaining now is futile, but I just wish they did something like Trigun Stampede, not animation or anything like that, just the whole "Re-adapting the manga, but focus more on the actual story and not fillers" part, maybe is just wishful thinking and I'm being too selfish, but I just really love it too much, even more than JOJO (Since this is an even older hyperfixation) and I mean it when I say more than JOJO! This is something that made me who I am (A delusional chuunibyou! That was only half joking btw~!) I just feel like Tokyo Ghoul deserved way better than it got, and with that, I now finish another one of my daily logs, as always! Doppio OUT! ★
• ☆ 18/02/2023 ⊹ Brother I forgor ⊹ So, with all the: Watching Gangsta, finishing TG and starting TG:re, starting Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint, updating my yaoi library, and somehow taking care of IRL things, I became very, VERY, busy, by which means... I completely forgot about my blog... Again. Anyways, here's some updates! I cleaned my table, got more used to my Sakura pens, started some projects, made some friends, got addicted to sugar, got a happy meal Mickey Mouse in a jet toy, decided to take a break from digital drawings and pretty much adopted a shut-in lifestyle with a bookworm approach to it (It's me, I'm the bookworm). It was a fairly short entry for today, because I have nothing to report... In any cases... Doppio OUT!! ★
• ☆ 26/02/2023 ⊹ Addicting ⊹ You see... Good morning, first of all. I'm addicted to Mystic Messenger... I go on infinite rants about it on my group chat and just forget about my blog haha... Sorry about that, anyways! I've quit genshin, tried to get into Obey Me (I love Beelzebub but I don't really like the game) and got madly addicted to Mystic Messenger (I'm on the final day of Yoosung's route yaaaay!) I have done some of my drawing debts and even got into digital art again (My progress got painfully slow... Not a bad thing though) and I even went to church the day before yesterday (Though I really hated it, it wasn't worth the yummy food I got afterwards... 3 hours of hearing someone singing like a demon possessed fox for 10 minutes of some street food... NOT WORTH IT) I'm not eating very well these days, and I've been a little less motivated to do things, maybe that rain took a toll on me... I want to go out and do fun things, but then mother won't do anything right, and I also have no friends... Huh... I don't know what to write anymore, so... Doppio OUT! ★

Hitaus...

• ☆ 23/05/2023 ⊹ Hello...? ⊹ As you may be able to tell... That was quite a long Hiatus huh? Well, It's just because my Listography hyperfix passed, but as I'm slowly approaching the things I liked in the past, seeing as :sparkles: dissociative amnesia :sparkles: (Yes I'm too used to manually typing discord emojis) made me forget most "non-important" things (They were in fact... Very important...) I'm trying my best to re-track my steps so I don't make this mistake again...! Man I've been sick for some days and I'm tired... I don't like being sick... I vomited two times already, and have to take medicine every couple of hours... Not to mention they TASTE BAD... I absolutely hate hospitals and anything that resembles one, I went to a dentist and almost had an anxiety attack... I've also been listening to Teto Territory a lot on loop lately, I don't know... It helps me focus a little I guess... I've also been around editing and deleting some old carrds here and there... I don't know what else to say so... Doppio out...? ★