• I didn't do much today
  • I've been feeling kind of burnt out lately
  • Mostly problems with my "self image" or whatever its called idk
  • I don't want to cost money or bother my mom though so I'm not going to do anything abt it yet, it's not too bad anyway
  • but yeah I sat at home and listened to music
  • I guess I went to dollarama? I picked up gifts for my friend's birthday
  • I've been wondering what significance I bring to anything and what would change if I was dead or didn't exist or whatever
  • I'm training myself not to cry though, I don't want to make other people pity me or feel like they have to
  • i'm trying not to cut or anything though, I think it's been at least four weeks? two or three if I counted scratching (which I do, I just don't remember if I did on my exam)
  • other than the emotional shitshow in my brain for no reason
  • theres this annoying ass creaky door in my room (its my closet) and it wont shut up??? like whatever I do that fucking door is creaking alllllll night its so annoying I've barely slept recently
  • speaking of, I keep waking up late so I'll take this thought as a sign to go to bed now (its almost 4:00 now (3:59) )
  • gn
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