- order your steak bloody, your whiskey, straight up
- purchase sensible things you’ve needed for some time: ink cartridge, rain gear, vacuum-cleaner bags
- picture him tasting the congealed frosting of wedding cake samples, talking to the blonde-tipped florist, checking his watch every fifth word
- remember all the places his hands have (haven’t) been and all the places you wish his hands have (haven’t) been
- take long baths
- make dinner for the man you live with. manage (a record) not to burn the sauce
- see him everywhere: hotel bars; the laughter of people on trains; the dopey, blanked-out eyes of the krispy kreme guy
- floss
- take to drinking sherry in the tub while leafing through women’s magazines. learn to mulch, prevent rug burn, undo a zipper with your teeth
- buy a rubber plant on sale. manage (a record) to keep it alive for a month
- recall, in the dark, the warmth of his mouth on your neck, the warmth of his neck on your mouth.
- picture him, again, the only way you know how: standing around the portico, fumbling with the lighter, his shoulders hunched against the wind and beyond him the water, always the water…
mar 29 2012 ∞
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