― all you need to do for this is write five things. these can be peoples names, places, emotions, a film title, song title, band, anything that sums up your day. do it each day on your listography for a year.

start date: 01.01 | best days are marked with ★

— january

• 01.01: feeling hopeful, dinner with family, the message, high self esteem, supermoon
• 02.01: rainy day, lasagna, headache, anxious, bored
• 03.01: in love with italy, beautiful sunset, nice weather, cmbyn soundtrack, puppy
• 04.01: stressed, anxious, worried because i can't control everything, wanted to punch a wall, basically feeling like trash
• 05.01: woke up with rain sounds, felt a little more controlled, cried a bit (i think it's my period coming), chocolate, rainy day
• 06.01: slept with rain sound, missing him, made pancakes with my sister, late talk with mom, watched the new episode of x-files and i'm so fucking pissed
• 07.01: started skam, i'm in love with noora sætre, golden globes, saoirse ronan winning best actress and lady bird best movie on the golden globes, sebastian stan being shy, oprah speech ★
• 08.01: basically the worst day of the year until now, anxious, depressed, stressed, missing him, i need to go back to gyn URGENTLY
• 09.01: cooked after a long time and it make me feel a little better, literally no sense of time, angst, I FUCKING LOVE SKAM and i'm very mad with myself for not seeing it early, "everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about it. be kind. always."
• 10.01: feeling better, favorite food at lunch, kitties, skam marathon, i love noora and william together
• 11.01: i'm get really mad about all the situation at gda, but then the chankai live make me feel better again, exo wearing jeans, felt a little worried about my kitty but she is alright now, ugh i'm feeling so fucking angry and anguished because of skam
• 12.01: kyungsoo day, super leader hyung, nice weather, movie with my sister, anxious
• 13.01: watched the florida project and cried my ass off, purple aesthetic, I FUCKING LOVE DANA SCULLY, eletric kiss dance practice, chanyeol being impossibly cute on his instagram's live
• 14.01: cold, all day with sweatshirt, made my nails with a beautiful blue polish, jongin day, no anxiety crisis ★
• 15.01: headache, woke up late, kim bears, jendeukie day, no anxiety crisis
• 16.01: after two days without any episode my anxiety crisis are back, scared af, upset stomach, cramps, exo having the time of their lifes in dubai and 'i'm proud of hyung too" (the only good things in this terrible day)
• 17.01: bad dreams, a fucking rhinitis crisis in the middle of summer, headache, synthwave, longing
• 18.01: stressful, nostalgia, talk about the universe by the native architects, choque de cultura, wherever we are we are one
• 19.01: rian johnson slaying sexist fanboys on twitter, chat with grandpa about history, cooking, taeten on vlive, no anxiety crisis
• 20.01: sehun making a live with vivi, kitties, warm day, headache, feeling anxious
• 21.01: anxious, watched kpops mvs and felt a little better, reboot by wonder girls, really hot day, worried about college
• 22.01: very anxious, feeling like shit, worried about doctor's appointment tomorrow, can't sleep, headache
• 23.01: feeling confident in relation to my treatment, my favorite movies all being nominates to the oscars, i can't stand this weather anymore i feel like i'm melting, chanyeol being the prettiest boy ever (again)
• 24.01: good night of sleep but i'm still feeling a little anxious, longing, disappointed, sunset, summer rain
• 25.01: bad night of sleep, panic attack, chanyeol being the most soft boy in the whole world, nct 127 stage, "did you know that we know what the center of our galaxy smells like? smells like rum and raspberries. the center of the galaxy is ethyl formate, which is the same gas that gives rum its smell and raspberries their taste"
• 26.01: one of the worst days of my life, feeling anxious worried and extremely irritated, stressfull, sleep all afternoon, feeling sick
• 27.01: another shitty day, cried a lot, bad stomach, dreamed with cy, yuta's kiss (today was one of the worst days of my life, but somehow these two last things made me feel a little better)
• 28.01: good sleep, rainy day, feeling better, my aunt made donuts, buzzfeed unsolved
• 29.01: woke up feeling like shit, but i had a good day, rain, longing, bad boy (kang seulgi just slayed me)
• 30.01: good sleep, longing, got out, feeling happy and confident, typical summer evening ★
• 31.01: bom dia neném, cringe, feeling euphoric but happy, gift, rain ★

— february

• 01.02: my sister bday, one year since i got accepted to college, pissed, rainy day, movie with my sis
• 02.02: cold day, good sleep, made my hair and nails, anxious, missed a dinner with my friends and stayed home to watch netflix 'till 3am
• 03.02: altered carbon, cats, rainy day, feeling cozy, slept all afternoon ★
• 04.02: spent all da with sweatshirts because was cold and rainy, a lot of trailers of my favorites tv shows\movies coming out at superbowl, went back to talking to someone i really like, no anxious crisis, excited to meet my friends tomorrow ★
• 05.02: a little bit anxious, meet my friends after a long time no seeing them, lots of laughs, and lots of pictures, could and rainy weather ★
• 06.02: new phone, yuten being the most beautiful humans who ever put their feets on this planet, A COMEBACK WITH ALL NCT UNITS AND SIX MVS, feeling happy, a little headache
• 07.02: woke up late, busy day, cooked a great lunch, the x-files, got out with a very cute outfit
• 08.02: mark's graduation, yuta acting like a mom, chanyeol's live, kitties, feeling excited for the weekend
• 09.02: rain, carnival, feeling happy, spend some good time with my friends, surprises
• 10.02: stunning makeup, glitter, cute outfit, feeling like a goddess, best day ever ★
• 11.02: argue with mom, felling a little disappointed, tired, looks like a truck just hit me, I'M ILL
• 12.02: i'm sad bc today is the last day of carnival, lots of laughs, some regrets, i took a lot of medicine to be able to enjoy the carnival,I NEED TO SLEEP
• 13.02: lemongrass tea, rhinitis crisis, depressed, i'm feeling like trash, talked to my friends and felt a little better
• 14.02: anxiety crisis, feeling really bad, donuts, hot weather, cried a lot
• 15.02: cried a lot again, depressed, slept all day, nostalgia, stars
• 16.02: feeling awful, i want to throw everything up in the air, missing days things and people that won't come back, ice cream, era uma vez by kell smith
• 17.02: back with my oscar's marathon, slept a lot, missing my friends, missing carnival, journaling
• 18.02: agradable weather, missing my friends, headache, boss mv, I'M IN LOVE WITH KIM JUNGWOO
• 19.02: typical summer day, angry, i need do start wake up earlier, rain, MICHAEL B. JORDAN PLEASE LET ME LIVE
• 20.01: the handmaids tales, i'm so fucking pissed with society, football game, missing my friends, saudades
• 21.02: grumpy, bad stomach, mom was at home all day, the good place, EXO ARE THE KINGS OF THE WORLD
• 22.02: rain, candy, a drunk sehun answering fans on instagram, baby ten don't stop, #6YearsWithChanyeol
• 23.02: netflix all day, feeling grumpy, baby taeyong don't stop, missing him, CHANYEOL'S NEW TATTOO!!!!
• 24.02: TAETEN SLAYING MY ASS, anxious for exo's performance tomorrow, watched a bunch of cute animations, loving vincent is the most beautiful film ever made, spent saturday night in my favorite way - at home watching some 80's movie (today was top gun)
• 25.02: I'M SO FUCKING PROUD OF EXO THAT I FEEL LIKE I GONNA BLOW UP ANYTIME; i was so nervous for them but they did great and i was able to see them on my tv getting all the recognition and respect they deserve and all of them looked so good and happy (i'm starting crying again while writing this), i just want to hug and tell them how much important they are to me and how much they help me with everything and i'm writing a lot here lol but i'm feeling so proud and happy for them that i can't even describe, CHANYEOL THANKED US when the merit is all of them i love my precious boy so fucking much, also i watched a lot of kpop stuff today and i'm in love with tvxq!, my mom made a delicious food and i'm feeling so happy till' now TODAY WAS DEFINITELY A GREAT DAY ★
• 26.02: bad mood day, i think yesterday i spent all the serotonin produced by my brain bc i'm feeling like shit lol, headache, grumpy, BABY DON'T STOP MV AND TEN DAY
• 27.02: good meal, anxious, headache, insomnia, nct live
• 28.02: february it's over already what the fuck, headache, all day gaming, very woried, tired

— march

• 01.03: gaming, feeling nostalgic, subway, i think i'm gonna stan jbj, anxious
• 02.03: nomin, rain, headache, anxiety, kittens
• 03.03: beautiful cotton candy sunset, chanyeol being the most precious and beautiful boy in the WHOLE world AGAIN, stay with me, nct are feeding me very well with a lot of pics everyday I LOVE MY BOYS, feeling of doubt
• 04.03: nct dream comeback, mom's food, headache, bad nigt of sleep, lots of laughs with mom and sister
• 05.03: worried, cats, cook, headache, sleep
• 06.03: grumpy, feeling euphoric and then distressed, cook, taeten, nct selcas
• 07.03: woke up early, rain, feeling confident, afternoon nap, OT18 + MONSTA X on weekly idol
• 08.03: woke up early, went shopping, feeling a little bit anxious, really excited bc of supermarket household utensils section, yuta's voice
• 09.03: rainy day, agradable weather, gifts, lasagna, headache
• 10.03: good meal, family, lots of laughs, very good sleep, rain
• 11.03: really bad mood, stressed, anxious, bad sleep, TOUCH TEASERS
• 12.03: disappointed, pissed bc i let my phone slip GOD WHY I'M SO FUCKING STUPID????, anxious, spent a good time with my sister, EXO WITH CAPS
• 13.03: anxious, last day at home :(, chocolate cake, TOUCH, yuta finally getting lines and screentime
• 14.03: missing family and home, back to college, cried a lot, rain and fresh-cut grass smell, city stret lights
• 15.03: good night of sleep, yet feeling unmotivated, headache, hot weather, missing a lot of people
• 16.03: depressed, feeling like shit, coxinha, college has barely begun and is already draining me, cute dog at r.u.
• 17.03: all day in bed, feeling sick, sad, ordered food, watched some tv and felt a litte better
• 18.03: another day in bed, cried a lot, missing home, good talk with my sister, I LOVE YUTA AND CHANYEOL
• 19.03: library, music, rain, progress, a little bit of embarrassment
• 20.03: cotton candy sky, got home early, had the coolest class with the coolest teacher, missing mom, feeling pretty
• 21.03: day out, treat myself, shopping, cinema, subway
• 22.03: motivated, feeling confident about college, rain, pleasing evening, todo mundo odeia o chris
• 23.03: A BIG SURPRISE, storm, library, feeling really happy, life is so funny sometimes
• 24.03: good night of sleep, got out, shopping, subway, people
• 25.03: watched lollapalooza with my sister, cooked lunch, anxious,the killers, BRANDON FLOWERS IS THE MOST HANDSOME MAN IN THE WORLD
• 26.03: library, study, feeling confident, missing mom's food, a little bit disappointed
• 27.03: feeling pretty, cute outfit, blue sky, anxiety crisis because of college, good night of sleep
• 28.03: good news, i love my new teacher, confused, cried at the library, TOMORROW I'M GOING HOME
• 29.03: travel, home, gifts, family, cats
• 30.03: lunch with family, i cooked delicious food, studied chemistry, mom's food, lots of laughs ★
• 31.03: party, friends, feeling pretty, bought make up, food ★