i’m going to try to update this with things im doing every single day (starting on february 7th )

FEBRUARY

• 7th: studying before canarval’s week and i received a HUGE list of exercises to do (math and literature)
• 8th: i should have studied but i didn’t and i don’t know why, i hadn’t done anything today
• 9th: i still haven’t waken up early since i told myself i should and i had done my nails today
• 11st: i traveled to my beach house. it’s being cool
• 12nd: i just noticed that the only people i’m talking in person are from my family, i don’t think it’s a good thing
• 13rd:i went to the beach, had a good time
• 14th: my father’s birthday
• 15th: demi announced that she’s coming to brazil for her tour and i’m probably going with some friends.
• 18th: i came back home, even though i didn’t spend a lot of time on the road, it was tiring
• 19th: i studied, ate a good carrot cake and tried to not be shy as always
• 21st: the tickets for demi’s concert start selling tomorrow, i’m afraid i cant get it
• 22nd: I GOT IT AND IM GOING TO SEE DEMI HERE IN 57 DAYS!
• 23rd: i'm missing people i should probably not be missing
• 25th: i watched “everything sucks” it’s a good netflix serie
• 26th: i probably have a crush on someone and it sucks
• 27th: i had a good day. my literature teacher read an vinicius de moraes’ poem and talked about love. it touched me in a way i can’t explain.
• 28th: nothing important happened today

MARCH

• 3rd: my father forgot to pay for the internet, so it’s being hard to update all my social media
• 6th: i talked to a girl who wore a camila cabello’s t-shirt another day, she seems to be nice. i hope we talk again tomorrow
• 7th: i didnt talk to the girl and my day wasn’t so good. there’s nothing i can do about it
• 8th: it’s the birthday of one of my bf’s, i miss her. and i talked to that girl again (we talked to each other during the whole class basically) and she’s cool, we started talking on whatsapp.
• 9th: i ate an hamburger after a month and it was incredible. i talked to that girl again and my day was pretty cool
• 20th: i haven’t been writing in here, i feel bad about it, but my days haven’t been easy, but i can handle it, i guess
• 31st: i've been studying every single day and sleeping so damn late, my life is not being like i wanted it to be, but its okay. my family throwed a surprise bday party for me and my sister yesterday and only one of my friends went, i feel kinda upset about it..

APRIL

• 1st: i don’t fit in my family
• 2nd: i don’t know how to explain my day, it wasn’t good at all and at the same time it wasn’t bad at all but i wrote on my mood apps that it was bad. some old friend sent me a message on tumblr, i feel anxious because i don’t know who the person is
• 3rd: not so good and not so bad. i took some weird pictures with my classmates. the girl from tumblr hasn’t answered me back yet
• 4th: i hate anxiety and i hate that i’m always thinking to much
• 5th: i think that if o could have skipped that day, it wouldn’t change anything. the girl from tumblr sent me a message telling me to forget about the messages
• 6th: it wasn’t really a good day. i tried a new face mask and it seems to be good. i’m not talking that much with my bfs and i miss them
• 8th: i told myself that i was going to write the essay about fake news this weekend but it’s almost monday and i haven’t done it yet..
• 9th: i forgot to write here but i know who the tumblr girl is.. L, it was so predictable
• 11st: demi postponed her concert, it was supposed to happen on april 21st and now it’s only going to happen in november
• 15th: today i had a class about bossa nova, it was one of the best class i’ve ever had
• 20th: i wasn’t talking to noemi for no damn reason and i texted her a couple days ago and she answered me today.. i hope we get back to what we were before, i hate when i’m a bitch with people i love
• 21st: i’m sad with no reason.. i don’t understand myself
• 22nd: i’m talking to noemi!!!
• 24rd: my week is being boring and this month has been the worst, can’t wait till it ends
• 29th; 2am: i cant sleep, at the beginning it was because i wasn’t tired but now i cant stop overthinking

3pm: april has been the worst month so far

MAY

• 12nd: i haven’t updated this since april and it’s the middle of the month already. my weeks has been weird, i’m thinking about having a physical diary. probably doing it with my glowly small notebook. harry’s concert is here in 14 days and i’m SUPER excited but i haven’t got my t-shirt printed yet
• 14th: i haven’t started my new journal yet and i wrote two poems today..i’m proud of what i did :)
• 19th: i’m the procrastination queen!! i haven’t got my t-shirt printed yet, i haven’t started my paper journal and i haven’t started writing my essay of the week. i hate that. thinking about starting the journal after hs’ concert and try to take more pictures of cool things
• 24th: i’m feeling like that camila cabello’s song “i'm just lookin' for some real friends all they ever do is let me down” but tbh, i don’t have lots of friends..basically only the virtual ones and it sucks
• 26th:HARRYS CONceRt is TOMORROW AND IM LIKE SUPER EXCITEDJFPRF IVE BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR ThIs
• 27th: TODAY IS ONE OF THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE OMG HIS CONCERT WAS INCREDIBLE AND I CANT WAIT FOR HIS NEXT

JUNE

• 24th: haven’t updated this since last month but i’m not feeling like doing it. my mind is a mess and i’m a mess. my day was kinda depressing, i’ve been alone (even with my family at home), i’m feeling kinda blue, i haven’t talked with my friends and i decided to take a time for myself. i listened to some songs i like, took a hot shower, did some skincare and now i’m eating ice-cream. i’m taking care of myself and i should do it more often.

NOVEMBER

• 3rd: it’s been 4 months since i don’t update this and i’ve been missing it. tomorrow is the exam i’ve been waiting the whole year, i’m so anxious and i’m afraid i haven’t studied enough. i’ve been thinking about things to do with the two months i have left this year.