05/01/2025 - beltane

• divine feminine - ix of w r
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• divine masculine - p of w
• union - k of c
• fertility - iv of c
• manifestation - a of p

04/30/2025 - daily

• thinking - ki of s
  • you must use your knowledge and intellect to achieve your goals. today is a day where logic precedes emotion, and realistic steps must be made to ensure that you are on the right path.
• feeling - viii of p
  • after the needed rest of yesterday, your mind is set to work at a higher potential than it would have done. your motivations are honed into your task, and with support systems in place you are ready to hone your craft. there are high standards that you are now able to set for yourself, and you can be confident while reaching it.
• doing - moon r
  • you have just battled yourself in a fight of self deception and difficulty. to deal with your anxieties, you must walk forward and overcome them instead of holding them in the back of your mind.

04/29/2025 - situation, action, outcome

• situation - ix of wands r
  • you've worked so hard to get to this point, but the motivation is completely gone. you are exhausted, and questioning whether anything is worth doing.
• action - judgement
  • it is time for you to reflect with yourself by taking a closer look at your actions. there are things that want your attention, but it takes away from what makes you nervous. there are more important items at stake for you to put your energy towards.
• outcome - vi of pentacles
  • getting help from others isn't a bad thing - take your time and work with people who want to see you succeed. in turn, you can give your teachings to others.

04/29/2025 - waxing crescent

• your talents - ix of cups
  • throughout this cycle, your emotional instability will soon smooth over. you must be able to focus on yourself and your personal satisfaction, rather than attempting to continue to reach something unattainable.
• your environment - strength
  • the people in your life are willing to help you. your trust in them is reciprocal, and with the help of others you can reach a new height of self understanding and a better bond with others.
• your resources - kn of pentacles r
  • you are amazing at focusing on things with the proper motivation - use it to your advantage. you tend to work with an assumption that you aren't receiving anything rewarding, but the work itself and having completed work is the reward.
• what cannot change - v of pentacles r
  • regardless of what happens this cycle, there is a theme of recovery and mental growth. you are able to seek help through your supports, and you will emerge from your mental and physical difficulties. (aka you will graduate)
• what must change - x of swords r
  • you are at rock bottom. things cannot get any worse than it is now. you must be able to pick yourself up from the floor and start working your way back up.
• outcome - the empress
  • when you are finally able to reach the height of your work, you will be able to bring people together once again. when your energy is positive, others will follow suit.

04/29/2025 - daily reading

• thinking - x of wands
  • the past few days have been rough to you, and you seem so alone carrying everything on your shoulders. you aren't expected to collect so much responsibility without having time to appreciate your work so far.
• feeling - iv of pentacles
  • you are in the "eye of the hurricane" - you feel as if you are free to relax today, but terrified for when it inevitably crumbles soon. this destress period shouldn't be taken for granted, be kind to yourself.
• doing - vii of swords
  • you are ignoring it - and you know you are. instead of sitting through the direct path, you look for a "easy" way out. there is a looming procrastination that looms right behind you.

04/27/2025 - new moon

• where you want to be - a of pentacles r
  • you can't keep running into things and creating new hobbies for yourself. every half-done job is added to the pile, and there isn't any reasonable way to create things that are meaningful if you aren't willing to put in the work to learn more about something. your want to be able to do so many things is rooted in a procrastination, and a poor investment in your time and resources.
• where you are - v of wands
  • when you spread yourself thin, your mind is clogged between choices that have no need to be made. you create obstacles for yourself, causing a root of jealousy where people succeed even though you aren't fully aware of the situation entirely. the competition here is yourself when it doesn't have to be.
• where you have been - kn of wands
  • take a step back and think. constantly you run headfirst into ideas and plans when everything around you continues to pile up. if you aren't going to clean up your messes, you're leaving it to someone who doesn't want to deal with them either. understand that your energy and curiosity towards the world is limitless, but cannot be used efficiently without somewhere positive to channel your energy towards.