• MUSIC!!!!!! MUSIC!!!!! MUSIC!!!!! MUSIC!!!!!!! MUSIC!!!!!!!!!! MUSIC!!!!!!!!! (listening to it + playing it!!!!!)
• anything remotely Razormaid and jmblya related COME BACK JMBLYA TWITTER ACCOUNT PPELLELEAASEE JMBLYAAAA!!!!!!!!!!
• my guitar ❤
• 80s synthesizers and keyboards !!!!!!!!!
• vinyls and cassettes
• obscure bands/rare songs/demo tapes
• foreign youtube channels with great music. tangkad99, radio mipebar midnightwave 80s + marcos ottone i love you
• NTS Wednesday, New Wave Outpost and Siriusxm shout out to first wave!!!!!!!!
• black vines/2013 to 2015!!! omg yall i wore kingvader , mightyduck , lenarr , kenny knox , etc. out so bad its been nearly 7 years and i can STILL repeat every one of their compilations word for word bro
• those oldhead FB + twitter posts/statuses...

• dilbert (i do not like or support scott adams please believe me when I say that the show is MUCH better than the comics)
• dr. katz
• monk
• king of the hill
• beavis and butthead
• regular show
• american idol (2002-2012, not a fan of the newer seasons. bring paula abdul back)
• tabatha takes over
• black-ish (2014-2016, not a fan of the newer seasons)
• everybody hates chris!!!
• blood sweat and heels
• very very niche but gay atl influencer fights + drama livestreams . they should count as shows theyre funny af i watch them RELIGIOUSLY
• top pop
• top of the pops

• hands (update/sort of fixed!!!) ........
• complex poses ........
• stiffness
• line flow
• symmetry
• shading
• realism
• guitars
• armor

• my nose shape!!!!!!
• my dimples
• my hair in its natural state
• my hip dips
• my face shape
• my moles
• my eye shape
• my chest

• loud sounds (unless it's music)
• being physically unable to speak in social settings 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
• olfactory hallucinations 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
• intrusive thoughts 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬*@*&&@*&@&**&@!!!!🤬🤬🤬
• getting sick
• being stared at and eye contact. this is something that REALLY REALLY bothers me
• hearing myself blink EWWWWWW
• insects (mostly wasps and hornets)
• npc music lmfaoooo
• vapid music
• not eating tbh
• 𝓯𝓪𝓷𝓬𝔂 𝓯𝓸𝓷𝓽 𝓶𝓯𝓼
• people who talk too much
• being around people my age 😨 yes in fa...

• Push (Sapphire)

i know there will be a time where i have to go back and read Push in full so i can give my proper thoughts on it but i seriously could not get past the rape without feeling physically sick to my stomach. that pdf is still rotting in my notes and i am not rereading that shit no time soon . will expand on more later . whenever that is

• Oroonoko (Aphra Behn)

will touch on later ... ending made me especially queasy

• saverino (!!!)
• geopold
• uvxcx
• clayton hawkins
• cam james
• fredding the needle (!!!)
• aaron branch
• berlin (been a fan since the 5th grade #EEZYGANG)
• calvin michaels (!!!)

• learn a foreign language
• be fully proficient and knowledgeable in a topic or hobby (mainly looking at physiognomy/face reading)
• improve in math
• clear my skin up a little bit (there's not any acne but hella hyperpigmentation lmbo)
• homebrew my dsi and try to run doom !!!!!
• make a shirt (again)
• try pottery or sculpting
• get my license
• get a job at a library or become a phlebotomist (or a medical assistant of sorts)
• pick caroline up from school at some point
• get my teeth fixed
• dye my hair brown
• have a successful wash n go yay!!!!
• have a successful flexirod set .. rip

• if you hate black people and black people alone SPECIFICALLY . i genuinely don't care if you hate anyone else because there is not a single form of bigotry on this planet that can come even anywhere close to anti-blackness . thanks
• IF YOU'RE INTO LOLI/SHOTACON CONTENT???????
• if you're texan 🙄 (/j)
• if you're a cancer born in the first or third decans yall are genuinely WEEEEIIIIRRRDDDD 🤢🤢!!!! PATTERN RECOGNITION !!!!!
• if you're anti-Palestine/a zionist or israel bootlicker
• dsmp + hazbin/helluva boss fans . u dusty
• if you tell people not to int. with you because of their gender like what (people are way too comfortable with telling others "DNI if you're cis" and its weird)

• prominent basslines
• complex basslines
• chugging basslines
• wall o' sound
• icy/pixelated synths
• brassy synths
• sparkling synths
• soaring/sweeping synths
• organs
• harpischords
• sad, dark sounding keys/tones
• strange chord progressions
• specific chord progressions
• jangly guitars
• crunchy guitars
• stacked and layered guitars
• "sparkling" guitars
• FAST BPMs
• kind of fast bpms
• train beats
• shaking drums

• Cows (i forgot the guys name hold on....)

i will expand on this way more later I JUST WOKE UP AND THOUGHT ABOUT MAKING THIS LIST but I read this twice FRONT TO BACK just to make sure I wasn't missing anything. this was just a whole bunch of nothing. a boring read for sure.

• The Girl Next Door (Jack Ketchum)

will expand on later

• Tampa (Alissa Nutting)

will expand on later . YAWN!

(ihmlitor)

• Tim: KILLING JOKE, Hüsker Dü, Squirrel Bait, Sad Lovers & Giants, Bad Religion, For Against and some Misfits
• Kyrie: Saxon, Danzig, Slayer, Savatage, and Dio

(ag)

• Vick: WOV, Thomas Dolby, Harald Grosskopf, Genesis, B-52s, XTC, The Police, and The Fixx
• CT: Luther Vandross, Bernard Wright, Level 42, Jesse Johnson, Phil Fearon/Galaxy, Steve Arrington/Slave, GAP BAND!!!!, wip
• Shay: RUSH!!!, Danger Danger, The Outfield!!!, Cutting Crew, Mister Mister, Richard Marx, Don Henley, and Saga
• Mitch: Johnny Hates Jazz, Cube, China Crisis, Heaven 17, Oingo Boingo, wip
• Mel: Terence Trent D'arby, Kashif, Deon Estus, Living Colour, Andre Cymone, Glass ...

• Slade
• LaMere
• Argandona
• Sloan
• Pearce
• Glass
• Behcet
• Mariner
• Melchior
• Gagne
• Imara
• Marisol
• Blegen
• Allegra
• Isis
• Margaris
• Iva
• Juno (a name I've loved since I was little!!!)
• Jordan (a name I've loved since I was little!!!)

• smooth, very dark skin ouuWEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
• very dark skin that looks blue
• big full lips
• wonky mouths ... jst not on myself ok
• crooked teeth
• small perky noses
• tall, straight noses (think linda manz)
• dorsal humps
• DIMPLES
• really faint smile lines
• short round faces
• long slender faces
• big/prominent ears
• big bushy eyebrows
• thin arched eyebrows
• droopy eyes !!!!
• monolid eyes and hooded eyes
• those cute little "semi-circle/⌓" looking eyes . nedra talley is the best example of this that i can think of .. she is also objectively beautiful to me BUT ANYWAY i lovvveeee them!!!!...

Clothes:

• black jacket
• trevor's top🤤🤤🤤
• striped top
• navy top
• bow necklace
• mesh top
• black dress
• black sweater
• ala pua dress
• black cross top
• spiked headband
• tights
• big windbreaker
• more pj pants (cherries/elmo)
• black courderoy overalls
• Luna Luna bag (OMG..)
• vlados YASS!
• brobee backpack
• betsey bag
• sunglasses

• Cecil McBee
• Axes Femme
• Betsey Johnson
• Paparazzi Fashion
• One World/Let Live
• Vera Wang
• Notations
• Impressions
• Luna Luna ( sort of a clothing brand??? Idek)

• colored pencils
• graphite pencils
• mechanical pencils
• fineline pens (005)
• crayons
• watercolors
• gouache

• macklechee 🧀
• mexican food
• southern food (specifically Cajun)
• spicy food
• CHICKEN ALFREDO #YOUNGHO
• mr. ray's chicken pesto (which i have nailed the recipe for!!!)
• gma's fried fish 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤
• gma's beef stew🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤
• anything my mommy makes 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤
• the whole braums menu actually I LOVE BRAUMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• als o pollo campero
• papa murphy's (which ironically i used to hate when i was little because i thought it was "too healthy" ?!??!?)
• steak
• sorbet + italian ice

(✼) - to design

• Joe (✼)
• Ginny
• Cindy
• Theda
• Dyan
• George
• Walker
• Vashti
• Margo
• Bobby
• Mamie
• Nick
• Bastet