⠀ ⠀ keep in mind :

• i find a lot of comfort in Ryan Gosling, and his filmography. i talk a lot about him, his character roles, podcasts, films etc. if you can't bear with me, do not befriend me. i haven't felt as alive as i feel right now that i got into him, not in a parasocial sense.
• i have an unfortunate refusal to befriend people on ponytown, due to my experiences. do not pressure me to talk to you, befriend you, interact with you - that'll make me block you faster than we got to know eachother. i treat every ponytown interaction carefully and i always keep overthinking them. be patient with me, thank you!
• i am a yumeshipper! no, i don't experience triggers when i see so-called "doubles", i don't care. if i yume a character i just avoid those who yume the same characters if they happen to make me uncomfortable. i yumeship for comfort and fun - i do not happen to have serious delusions.
• struggling with empathy, i experience lack of it often, especially in situations where i am not afraid to openly state my opinion while remaining civil · if something pisses me off, i make it clear · i have a bad time controlling my anger and frustration, i hold a lot of rage in me · i have awful anxiety combined with mdd++ · i struggle to read tone as well as hold relationships to last, so i often drift apart from people because i am not able to give as much effort at first without the help of the other · confrontations don't go in pair with me, i struggle to recognize what i am being confronted for + may act defensive because of the need to process the situation, that's my fault.
• regarding my problems with empathy - i act awfully nonchalant. it is a way i sadly, yet subconsciously, defend myself from saying something stupid, slipping on my words, due to my experiences i developed such a habit to act as such. i may or may not somewhat act childish as well, please know that most of my behaviours are most likely coping or defensive mechanisms, as i fear failure and judgement.

⠀ ⠀ do not interact :

• i generally have no dni unless the basic "dni" criteria · if you're a ponytown ex friend or if we ever knew eachother and drove apart - if i wanted to reconnect with you, i would've done that sooner · i don't care if ex friends contact me in case of something important as long as it doesn't involve our past · -15 people dni, i do not want to be in touch with people 2 and more years younger than me.