Astilbe - "I'll be waiting for you"; patience, dedication

Carnations

• Pink Carnation - "I'll never forget you"
• White Carnation - purity, innocence
• Deep Red Carnation - love, romance; "alas, my poor heart".
• Light Red Carnation - friendship, minor interest
• Purple Carnation - unpredictability, aversion, impulsiveness, unreliability
• Yellow Carnation - rejection, regret, disappointment

Salvias

• Blue Salvia - "Thinking of you"

Hydrangeas - gratitude

• Blue Hydrangea - apologies, forgiveness, understanding
• Purple Hydrangea - desire for lasting con...

• Am I the trigger of your gun? (I'd Rather Die Than Be Famous - Pierce the Veil)
• WHATS WITH THESE HOMIES DISSING MY GIRL :O (Buddy Holly - Weezer)
• WHERE ARE YOUUU, AND IM SO SORRYYY (I Miss You - blink-182)
• Can we create something beautiful and destroy it? (Disasterology - Pierce the Veil)
• Close your eyes...You'll be here soon. (My Time - Omori) :(
• If I lose it all, slip and fall, live to die another day~ (The Rumbling - SiM)
• Tell me it's okay, to be happy now. (Tell Me It's Okay - Paramore)
• Just another pot calling the kettle black (Punching Bag - Set It Off)

• investing in bitcoin
• going to cryptoland
• avid nft lover
• pathological liar

• Have as much fun as possible
• Be more attuned with the present instead of only thinking about the future.

• Watching: Madoka Magica
• Reading: Dai
• Playing: Persona 2: Eternal Punishment

• The fact that I have an abnormal care for what people think of me and fear if that thought turns out to be negative worries me to an extreme degree.

• watch birds
• music
• debate
• darts
• billiards/pool
• writing
• games

• animal ⋆ jellyfish
• body part ⋆ brain
• book ⋆ no longer human - osamu dazai
• card suit ⋆ hearts ♤
• cards ⋆ ace of hearts
• colors ⋆ yellow
• constellation ⋆ pegasus
• day of the week ⋆ thursday
• emoticon ⋆ :D
• form of physical affection ⋆ grabbing arms
• ice cream flavor ⋆ vanilla + caramel topping
• insect ⋆ firefly
• lyric ⋆ just another pot calling the kettle black.
• month ⋆ november
• music artist/band: Beabadoobee
• music genre ⋆ modern rock
• musical instrument ⋆ violin
• painter ⋆ Michealangelo from tmnt

• find and befriend anomalies
• try to stay afloat mentally :')
• learn to forgive, but not forget, and most importantly...have fun!! :)
• get as close as possible to as many people as possible
• don't get too lost in your head! you're more than your faults.
• try not to hate yourself! you may have bad thoughts but atleast you dont act on them.
• compliment others' looks, just dont go overboard ;-;
• accept your ugly feelings...you'll only suffer more if you dont :(
• tell your friends you love them! ily isn't a statement exclusive to romance.
• be more assertive. if you're annoyed at someone, tell them! but do it concisely, maturely and directly, don't overdramatize it or else you'll come off as childish :...

• eri - i steal their music :D
• taz - my bestie
• md - my other bestie

• 3/30/22 : fun day, I got to work with my sworn enemy. ah not actually. I don't have any sworn enemies haha.
• 3/31/22 : people were throwing colors and water around. I obviously joined in ;p
• 4/1/22 : pretty underwhelming April fools day. Applied for a debate officer position. I'm so quirky guys.
• 4/2/22 : went bowling and won. ego boost. I discovered my set it off addiction. staying up until twelve for zaina's burthday.
• 4/3/22 : tbh todays always uneventful. year after year. its kind of a shame but its not like I can do much about it. im being forced to go out to eat for my birthday (literally 2 weeks ago). ik saying this is selfish, but i really hate it.
• 4/4/22 : After school was significantly funner than anything else that happened today. I talked with someone for like 40 mi...