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• i learned how to swim.
• i would swim everyday.
• 131003 i met her.
• she would swim for me and take me everywhere.
• i only needed her.
• i stopped swimming.
• i thought i didn't need to swim anymore.
• she would swim for me.
• but i think i started getting heavy.
• she was drowning me and she didn't even notice.
• it took me so long, but i noticed.
• one day she noticed.
• and nothing changed.
• i tried to swim again
• i didn't know how to swim anymore.
• i still needed her
• and she didn't need me anymore.
• i decided that i would swim again.
• i decided i wouldn't need her anymore.
• 161226 was the first attempt.
• i almost drowned.
• but i didn't.
  • i can't swim like i used to. but i'm trying. i swear i'm.
    • i know i'll never be the same. i just want to swim again.