- going to bed and when i wake up i can think about all the things i wont accomplish that day
- i like to plan things out just to not do them because i think "oh god i know what to do but i dont know how im gonna do it!"
- two art projects for skool/..
- and i wanna animate stuffs;;
- the corporate mecha overlords came to me like jesus to his diciples and i was told to climb the pizza tower; the fear is eating me alive
- tonight's a schizoscriptures night i think,,
- had a friend tell me that it was deafeningly loud and that makes me think a lot about my taste in music
- i LOVE LOUD!! .^o^.
- i would have the volume up louder if it weren't almost 3
- one of my friends actually called me a paranoid schizophrenic and i was like hey wait a minute
- its something i joked about in the past and current year i realize i shouldnt have
- mind my word salads; delusions and what not; what you see of me; your perception of me, is not me; you can tell me that i am schizophrenic but i know in my mind that's not correct
- i cant believe i'm autistic either; that's just what my mother wants me to believe
- other people act like this right?? behind closed doors they must be different from how they present themselves
- its hard to believe others are really real; im still new to this
- it makes so much more sense if they were all puppets piloted by the same force;
- oh! this can explain phenomena like the mandela effect!! :0o
- maybe even mass hysteria
- theyre interlinked with one another almost like a big computer; they all have common interests and common goals.
- be born; finish school; go to work; find a partner, have kids, die
- its all planned that's usually how people want things to go
- hmm' my plan is to fuck around and make stuff i like,, theres not really much i wanna do
- i wanna have fun and be whimsical ! :0D
- <C0:]
- i forgi what i was talking about
- i know that i really can't rely on anyone else for things anymore!! it's hard to imagine anyone shares my silly visions,
- or maybe someone does and i don't know them
- i think about the computer analogy i made as to why people are so linked with eachother while im usually out of the loop;; but i'm the guy that wants to be a big floating pizza mech
- its so silly/
- computers and mechs aren't exactly the same i'm sure but they do link up significantly
- i don't know what i'm feeling anymore "but it most certainly isn't saddness
- if i had to visualize it """it would be the steven face ,,
- my friends don't know how to deal with me/ im the funny guy anyways(
- no,, it's not your fault for not knowing how i feel behind the screen
- william forgives you for al the times you brush him off
- william loves you
- im idk rn!
- as in no emotion
- ummm what to do!;
- worked on my mod a lil bit
- happy transgedner day
- i dont remembr what its called
mar 31 2023 ∞
apr 1 2023 +