• deeyah
• 20s
• she/her
• i like anime, korean variety/reality shows, digital collage journaling, disney, pixar and dreamworks

• yoshioka-san is in a bad mood
• a delinquent girl's first love
• valentine's day and white day
• her special seat
• sakamoto days
• creepy cat
• the story of a cat that has lived for 100 Years
• the day before summer vacation

• smile brush
• smile brush: my old pictures
• cassandra comics
• miki's mini comics
• wheresmybubble (debbie tung)
• my giant nerd boyfriend

I just want to put this list on my main to see what i've accomplished. I often feel like i don't accomplish enough or that my goals aren't big enough but this list is reassuring.

• have internet friends
• learn how to play kalimba
• learn hiphop dancing
• become a cheerleader
• snorkeling
• kayaking
• visit a bird sanctuary
• visit a retro-themed museum exhibition
• sew felt food/flower crafts
• make a terrarium
• crotchet
• learn photoshop
• build a book nook
• paint
• visit an aquarium
• try building mini lego

watching

• busted (korean variety show)

reading

• six crimson cranes

august

• sick
• felt overwhelmed, accomplishing goals one at a time

july

• stayed with my aunt for a while
• learn how to cook
• feeling peaceful
• rewatching shows i love

june

• spending time rewatching movies i love
• reading
• therapy
• wrote down my small wins

may

• failed job interviews
• crying at night
• exploring the possibility of studying communication design

Hi, i'm gonna slowly share bits and pieces of my lifestory in different places. Sharing it helps me feel less alone. I'm not sharing everything ofc- just the parts that i feel okay to talk about right now.

When i was young, i would compare myself to someone who had pretty privilege. Then as i grew older, i became fixated on my appearance. I became so stress about the way i look to the point where i would loose weight. Eventually, i had reached out to a therapist, and for the first time, i felt seen and understood.

I began showing her this video;

• A healthier alternative to comparison-ba...

Then we started talking about shifting from comparison to compassion. And it sounded something like: "It hurts that she gets more attention— but that doesn’t mean I’m ugly. I’m proud of how i showe...

I saw this instagram post;

• When you weren't allowed to express your...

I thought about sharing it here because i could relate to the things they were saying.

When i was a child, i often felt like i wasn’t allowed to show my emotions. Excitement, happiness—even small joys— were often met with “shut up” and disapproval. Over time, it made me think that: "oh, i'm not allowed to feel happy or express my emotions. It's wrong to express emotions."

And in adulthood, it showed up as a block. I'm not sure how to explain it. Its like, i have a hard time fully connecting with how i feel. But sharing little pieces of myself in safe spaces, like here, has become a way to practice feeling and expressing again. It’s healing and i'm so grateful for these spaces.