I THOUGHT I HAD A FEAR OF THE BLANK PAGE BUT REALLY I ADMIRED ALL THE POSSIBILITES

the beauty of the blank page.

I have a lot of ideas, a lot of dreams, a lot of potential. potential. "latent qualities with unrealized ability."

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welcome to in public pursuit.

over the summer, I listened to a lot of alternative indie pop, and explored random listographys. recently, I’ve found myself immersed in these things again: I have a couple new playlists I want to make, I just bought supplies to make an anime journal, I’m in a new penpal group, and listography is on my list of considerations for daily blogging. for some reason, all these things have a warm summer sunshine feeling in my heart. I think its the idea of potential.

I’ve been feeling restless a lot lately- a terrible jittery feeling of wasting time and not doing enough. but now, as I write this up, I feel an overwhelming surge of potential- I think about all the things I want this newsletter to become, projects I want to take on, and who I want to become. in an effort to make my existence better, I have to do more than just think. I’ve been trying for some time now to write a newsletter and various original character stories, attempt new hobbies or rekindle old hobbies, find my creative voice… the list goes on. I’ve been running in the same mental circles for a while now… and the only way to change is to do it. I just have to take the leap of faith and try my best. will it match the ideas I have in my head? probably not, but sitting and waiting won’t make it happen either.

the effort of doing + the idea of potential = the act of existing better

it doesn’t really matter what I do, more that I actually stop thinking and actually just do something. I want to create something with meaning and polish with the intent to share. but, does it really matter? do those things actually matter to me? are those the things that I want to matter to me? I have many old versions of a first newsletter but clearly none of them made the cut. even now, I wonder if this version I write will make the cut? I want to find my creative voice, explore sharing online, trying new things, just existing better than I have been.

studio space

I’ve been very obsessed with the idea of studios lately. I’m toying with the idea of a digital studio. I bounce between different blogging sites and the need to exert some creative control over what the site looks like (my desire to learn to code!) and the ease of using something simple (my love of listography or write.as!) create a constant battle in my mind. not sure that I’ve quite found what I’m looking for but I did love making my carrd site (check it out here!). the idea had existed as a sketch in one of my planners for a bit, but I couldn’t figure out what to use the layout for. the idea hit me tonight, and I tweaked it a bit to it’s current state. I’m very pleased with it for now, but I would like to add some color or maybe a pattern. regardless- taking the time to finish it, and to leave the potential for more was very satisfying this evening. I will eventually create a pretty and polished portfolio.

I long for a physical studio. in my mind, it’s washed in warm sunlight, a very cozy and artsy academic space full of all the things I love- a place of potential. that’s what I think I look forward to more than anything: potential. the studios exist as a place full of potential and purpose. new ideas, new projects, new goals and hobbies… they’re both teeming with life. that’s what I’m looking for.

creating;

carrd

anime journal, papercraft ideas

listography

pin collecting

workflows

instagram, write.as, dreamwidth

recently;

article about maker vs manager

make art not content memento mori

alt indie playlist - esp flor, joan, landon conrath

artemeus class101 class

what we do in the shadows

ted talk about four pillars

thanks so much for reading! and until next time!

yours truly,

zoe.