a big thing about me is that i have a weird obsession with displaying everything about me on the internet for whatever reason. so i figured id make a little list documenting a bunch of things about me that make me unique !! some are surface level and some are probably Overshare Central but i have like zero concept of TMI so blehhh take it as you will :3

𖦹 °✩ personality traits

• character artist

i adore art SO MUCH !! specifically stylised sketches of ocs/self inserts and the like :3 im totally an addict for drawing self inserts for almost any media im a fan of (im just cool like dat) if you want to see some of my casual work totally take a look here (link does not work on mobile im so so sorry i coded it myself)

• name collector

names arent as important to me as they are to most, i never felt much if any connection to my birth name, (sorry mom) and went several years without a name at all. this basically resulted in me collecting names like figures just for the fun of it. i have little preference between them, there are just some im more used to responding to, but please use any and all on me !! nex was the first name i chose for myself, and is likely the one im most known by. zombie or jackal are my two most used following that one, but im logged as other ones such as scar, firefly, isha or graves !! but theres plenty more kekeke

• weird eater

if you know me IRL, youve had long experience with my odd munching traits. i have really irregular eating patterns, and have a really hard time understanding how much i can eat. unfortunately im always seeing something super tasty and being unable to finish it, which costs me quite a bit sometimes. ive also had an on-and-off eating disorder for about 4ish years which affects my food intake strongly, but it is something im currently working on improving. despite this, i love bond with people over food, specifically desserts and sweet treats!! whenever i meet people in my area i always end up dragging them by train to my favourite japanese restaurant in my home city. im a major fan of salmon sashimi and chicken gyoza, and surprisingly fried octopus is pretty freaking yummers too...

• talking problems

ive always had issues with my speech, specifically lack of volume control or accidentally talking too fast. along with that if i get excited i tend to stutter and talk with weird sentence structures/nonsensical terms. i take things overly literally, and can accidentally cut people off/talk over others regularly. this is NOT out of rudeness, my brain just has some issues with processing that others Are Indeed speaking sometimes. thankfully my friends either have similar problems or have no problem cutting me off straight back. (or both !!)

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𖦹 °✩ general brain junk /neg

• autism spectrum disorder

ever since i was young i was always struggling with communication and general development, specifically recognising moods in others and detecting certain social cues, and throughout my life it has been extremely hard to keep steady friendships. thankfully at this point i have a comfortable group of friends, but i still struggle with a lot of things that come along with my ASD. it is not a picnic, it affects my eating, my sleeping, my school and my home. i experience severe meltdowns and upsettingly long periods of depression. all my life i have been extremely clear with people: i am autistic. no amount of "communication" is going to change that. dont get upset when i miss social cues or just display any other symptoms of the disorder i have.

• processing issues

this is something that is related to my ASD but its significant enough i give it its own little section. isnt it lucky. as long as i can remember i have always had sensory processing problems, specifically with taking in auditory information. i cannot live without subtitles, (my wife) and i struggle severely in school. i have extremely delayed processing during conversations and this can make me hard to talk to sometimes, but i promise im not stupid. these issues led to me being labeled as "slow". i get very bitter and defensive regarding these issues due to them being mocked regularly. please be patient with me.

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𖦹 °✩ general brain junk /pos

• non-humanism

this is something i dont expect everyone to fully understand, as these are my feelings about who i am. being isolated from a very young age due to being perceived as "off putting" and "unusual" led to me having a very strained relationship with my own humanity. i was strongly bullied for many years because of the type of kid i was, essentially i was dehumanised so much it became part of my identity. i dont like being perceived as human. i like being objectified, to be seen as a thing, or an animal. which connects to one of the other most significant things about me -

• spiritual beliefs

i was raised catholic, but left the church when i was young due to the fear mongering i was subject to from a young age. despite this, i still carry certain catholic beliefs and values with me that co-exists with my spirituality. i essentially believe in the consciousness of the earth, and the guiding force behind how our planet was shaped and works. i used to hate praying, but once i found the earth to pray to i never really stopped. i believe the spirit is a genderless, bodyless thing, that takes a new form with every birth, and flows into a different one in death. along with this, every life youve lived in the past affects your current personality, and for this reason ive always felt strongly connected to canines. i do use the label therian for these reasons but im not as active in the community as i used to be, im just myself in my own space. animalistic objectification has always appealed to me due to these reasons, but i understand to most it could seem odd or offputting.

• sexuality

this one is likely going to be the shortest paragraph here, but to drag it out at least a little bit i really Dont Care about sexuality. like i honestly dont GAF. labels regarding my sexual attraction mean so little to me, and i can flow between labels and attraction levels freely. i dont limit myself to any one definition either, and i could care less what others think of it.

• gender

this links back to my spirituality a teensy bit... but mostly its my ASD not understanding the social construct of gender. am i a girl? no. can you call me one? sure go ahead. i can be peoples boyfriend or sister or niece or wife. these terms are not linked to my gender, and can be used on me freely. i do still use the word transgender, as i have severed myself from binary gender and been deeply involved in the trans community since i was young. he/she pronouns can be used on me, but for some reason ive never felt much for they/them. nothing against it just doesnt suit me. big fan of it/its tho please use dat :3.

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