• Barcelona, Spain
• Paris, France
• London, UK
• Moscow, Russia
• St.Petersburg, Russia
• New Zealand
• Rome, Italy
• NYC, USA
• San Francisco, USA
• somewhere I can see the Northern Lights
• Tokyo, Japan

• henry: portrait of a serial killer
• the libertine
• the brave
• casablanca
• plan 9 from outer space
• battle royale
• elephant
• one flew over the cuckoo's nest
• bowling for columbine
• heart of america
• last tango in paris
• hairspray (john waters)
• pink flamingo
• staying alive
• the godfather
• vivre sa vie
• north by northwest
• psycho
• on the waterfront
• gone with the wind
• roman holiday
• lolita (97)
• yes man

• theory of relativity
• how birth control pills work
• LSD
• all of the movies I have seen in the past year or so
• Hans Bellmer
• fireflies
• hooping
• constellations
• French
• Russian
• James Dean
• Natalie Wood
• Marie Antoinette
• Nero
• tattoos
• chess
• alcohol
• cigarettes
• hummingbirds
• cancer
• Versailles

• bread
• milk
• vegetables for a salad
• fruit
• cigarettes

• Gilmore Girls
• South Park
• Family Guy
• Friends
• House MD
• Desperate Housewives
• Being Human
• Weeds
• Sex and the City
• Buffy the Vampire Slayer

• Charles-Loius Philippe: Marie Donadieu
• Szabó Dezső: Az elsodort falu
• Remarque: Arch of Triumph
• Jane Fitch: White Oleander
• Milan Kundera: The Unbearable Lightness of Being
• Tolstoj: War and Peace
• Polcz Alaine: Asszony a fronton
• Alice Sebold: The Almost Moon
• Jenny Downham: Before I Die
• Steven Pinker: The Stuff of Thought
• Ram Dass: The Only Dance There Is
• The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
• Dostojevskij: Th...

• speaking in front of an audience
• doing anything in front of an audience for that matter
• unless i'm drunk
• spiders
• talking on the phone
• except with my boyfriend
• not being able to have children
• getting lung cancer
• being broke
• getting raped
• drowning
• ending up with a job i hate
• gaining weight
• losing my hair
• waking up one day to find i have lost my ability to draw

• serial killers
• eating disorders, diet trends and history
• titanic
• hollywood legends and mysteries
• pop culture
• sex
• spiritual sexuality
• prostitutes
• sexual literature
• sex addiction
• fashion history
• drugs
• fairy tales
• religion

• Hungary
• USA
• Canada
• Germany
• Slovakia
• Greece
• Austria
• Croatia

• la science des reves
• the million dollar hotel
• white oleander
• lolita (1997)
• natural born killers
• arizona dream
• le fabuleux destin d'amelie poulain
• jeux d'enfants
• ed wood
• the family man

• ankle boots
• strappy high heels
• eyeliner
• mascara
• very blond and curly hair
• short shorts
• a kitten
• prescription to vogue and nylon
• canvases
• paints and brushes
• lots of notebooks
• a new mp3 player
• new headphones
• little black bag
• and a little black dress to match
• perfume
• a new camera that works for a change
• 3 tattoos (a heart, a swallow and something involving water)
• 4 more piercings in my ears
• and more earrings to go alon...

• i believe in true love and love at first sight
• i believe that the little things are worth waking up for
• i believe that everyone has a purpose
• i believe in harmony
• i believe that everything will be ok in the end
• i believe that everything is achievable
• i believe everyone has the opportunity to find happiness
• i believe that everything is connected with everything else
• i believe that there is someone or somet...

• poker
• chess
• plurk
• blind contour drawing
• gesture drawing

• writer
• painter
• photographer
• theater actress
• fashion journalist
• presenter for the travel channel
• eating disorder therapist
• mermaid in an aquapark
• theoretical mathematician
• gardener

• kill myself in many ways
• hanging myself
• slitting my wrists
• taking pills
• putting my head in the oven
• jumping from the top of a skyscraper
• shooting myself
• drowning
• lying down on train tracks
• starving myself
• rob a store and go on a road trip á la Mickey and Mallory or Thelma and Louise before one of my suicides
• travel everywhere
• give up all my clothes and money to charity
• be in a tornado
• be in an earth quake
• run a...

• top of a bunk bed with someone sleeping underneath
• balcony
• living room floor
• boyfriend's brother's bed
• boyfriend's best friend's bed
• two separate tents
• a public restroom in an alternative bar/library/movie/concert place
• a bar
• a riverbank, on 3 occasions, with 2 different people
• a bathtub
• in the middle of a party
• in a lake
• a soccer field

• "Sometimes I get upset when I consider the fact that the self is an illusion produced by the combination of neurology and environment, and that we are all empty, unique little shells. It's like auto-erotic asphyxiation, in a way." (Y.J. Greenapple)
• "Love me, because love doesn't exist, and I have tried everything that does." (Everything Is Illuminated)
• "Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an...

(That is, songs my boyfriend would dedicate to me if our musical tastes were the same.)

• Nine Inch Nails: The Fragile
• The Cure: Lovesong
• The Beatles: Octopus's Garden
• Blue Oyster Cult: Don't Fear The Reaper
• Depeche Mode: Precious
• Dido: White Flag
• The Doors: Hello, I Love You
• Laura Marling: Night Terror
• LGT: Szabadíts meg
• Madonna: Beautiful Stranger
• The National: Val Jester
• Nine Inch Nails: We're In This Toget...

• I am starting to get a clearer picture of what I want to do carreer-wise.
• Much of my time on the internet is spent more usefully due to aforementioned.
• I have started exercising and like feeling that I use my body for something instead of just vegetating in it.
• The boy and I have taken steps to make our sex life what it used to be (or better).
• Again this means using my body, feeling more comfortable a...

• dress up and take photos of myself with appropriate surroundings
• paint all my nails different colors
• or my toenails
• re-read my journals
• reorganize
• my desk
• my books
• my clothes
• the kitchen
• my bookmarks
• my livejournal
• files/folders on my computer
• bake a cake with funny colors
• try different hairstyles, take pictures, pick one to wear for the rest of the day
• make a cocktail
• draw a selfportrait
• assemble different outfi...

• smoking in places where smoking is forbidden despite knowing this
• the locket with my boyfriend's picture in it getting soaked
• driving a car and not knowing how
• when drunk or stoned, I always have dreams that could be really happening in that time and place

• Kate Rusby: Awkward Annie
• Tori Amos: Happy Phantom
• R.E.M.: The Great Beyond
• Damien Rice: Coconut Skins
• Jamie Cullum: Catch The Sun
• The Beatles: With A Little Help From My Friends
• Jefferson Airplane: Volunteers
• Porcupine Tree: Nine Cats
• Blind Melon: Mouth Full Of Cavities
• The Cure: Lullaby
• The Byrds: Turn, Turn, Turn
• The Doors: Hello, I Love You
• Franz Ferdinand: The Fallen
• Garbage: Cherry Lips
• Grease: You're The...

• swim naked (and not in a backyard swimming pool...)
• sleep in a stranger's car along with about 5 of my friends
• have sex on a riverbank multiple times
• go on a date with a guy I met on the internet who was 10 years older than me when I was 13
• go drinking with friends and smoke weed outside the pub and then curse like a sailor to the taxi driver all the way to my boyfriend's house
• dye my hair pink
• have my ...

• Szeged, Hungary (apartment)
• Baltimore, MD (apartment)
• Baltimore, MD (house)
• South San Francisco, CA (house)
• Cupertino, CA (twinhouse)
• Győrújbarát, Hungary (house)
• Piliscsaba, Hungary (dorm)
• Pilisvörösvár, Hungary (apartment)

• pouch containing:
• assorted pens
• tampons
• pocket knife from Old Faithful Geyser
• hairties
• haircomb
• eyeliner
• tweezers
• mascara
• skin tone corrector
• birth control pills
• lipbalm
• rubber ball
• Pocket Coffee
• water bottle
• cellphone
• mp3 player
• keys
• bus pass

• buy a house
• buy a house for my mom
• and my grandmother
• buy land, also, have a garden
• buy a horse
• spend a whole summer traveling the world
• buy all the books and movies I want to read/see
• get my hair done at a reallyreally professional place
• buy a car
• go to lots of concerts
• host a great big party for all of my friends
• buy a good camera
• create my own workspace, buy lots of canvases and papers and charcoals and pa...

• sing
• ballroom dances
• paint
• take photographs not only relying on my intuition
• knit
• crochet
• bake and cook lots of dishes by heart
• deepthroat
• dye my own hair
• bind books

• be content with my outfit/overall appearance
• take a bubble bath and listen to music
• draw a lot
• take a walk and take photographs along the way
• pick flowers
• eat lots of strawberries and peaches and blueberries
• watch a movie with Peter
• cook and bake together
• eat the meal he cooked and the cake I baked
• read a good book, write out lots of quotes from it
• make love
• go shopping and buy lots of small things that make...

• floating in the middle of the ocean, in the dark, in complete silence
• lying in the grass with 1 or 2 of my closest friends, smoking, looking at the stars
• endless meadows full of flowers, running around barefoot
• apple/peach/cherry orchard, walking under the trees with my hair in braids, wearing a floaty white dress and reading poetry
• laughing with someone like we're in the middle of the greatest party ...

• broke a finger because i jumped into the pool too close to the edge
• right hand got bitten by a dog
• cut right hand by smashing a shot glass to the wall, drunk
• foot pierced by pitchfork while running after my dog
• tooth chipped, running down concrete stairs, drunk

• red plastic hello kitty wallet i'd had since '96
• along with the money in it
• lots of half-full packs of cigarettes
• along with the money in my pocket next to them
• dice earrings
• dice earrings my boyfriend bought to replace the lost ones
• black studded leather belt
• virginity
• solitude
• faith (but found it again)
• weight
• patience
• i'm being really witty, aren't i?

• sunglasses
• belt
• pillows
• kundera: the unbearable lightness of being
• remarque: arch of triumph
• jane fitch: white oleander
• magazine subscription(s)
• vogue
• nylon
• national geographic
• calendar
• lingerie
• books about psychology (eating disorders, addiction, sex)

• for Peter
• black shirt I painted a heart on
• decoupaged treasure box with small things representing our relationship inside
• chess set
• coupons for free sex, massages, lunch, walks, hugs...
• framed illustration and description of a dwarf (who be both know represents him)
• notebook with quotes, drawings, photos and excerpts from my journal from before we were officially a couple
• teddy bear
• for Sara
• stuffed tiger ...

• Albert Einstein's last words remain unknown because he spoke them in German and the people by his side at the time didn't understand German
• elephants can swim
• elephants can't jump
• many of Dido's songs were recorded in her own kitchen, and if you listen intently, you can hear the background noises (neighbours etc.)
• When Forrest gets up to talk at the Vietnam rally in Washington, the microphone plug is ...

• loving
• being loved
• thoughtfulness
• surprises
• understanding
• having memories together
• laughing
• hugs
• dreaming
• drawing
• cooking
• a clean and tidy room
• an elaborate outfit
• catching glimpses of strangers' lives
• efficiency
• thought-provoking films
• music that begs you to dance or sing or paint
• rhythmic words
• not being doubtful about the future

• dogs
• Ribizli
• Tökmag
• Manó
• Tacsi
• Kutya
• Tábornok
• Egérke
• cats
• the grey cat we never named
• Müzli
• parrot (piroska)
• rabbit (Houdini)
• snail (Leonidas)
• mice (intruders though, not pets)

• Allison Richer
• Diana Richer
• Michael Guerrido
• Cynthia Leung
• Allyscia Headquist-Covino
• Michele Throckmorton
• Jessica Mendoza
• Hannah Kang
• Donna Kang
• Terry Smith
• Janos Botyanszki
• Zack Kunst
• Desirée Prevo
• Amrit Khalsa-Peterson
• Rose Peng
• Rita Bagnulo

• spaghetti
• salad
• greek
• tossed
• grilled cheese sandwich
• plain
• wih camembert cheese
• with mushrooms
• with onions
• with soy meat
• anything with tomato, cheese or cabbage involved
• tomato soup
• noodles with cabbage
• cabbage in tomato sauce
• lasagne
• eggplant casserole (with mozarella and tomato slices)
• stuffed cabbage
• stuffed paprika
• macaroni and cheese
• pizza with loads of vegetables
• fried cheese
• steamed vegetables
• green beans
• spinach...

• writing
• piano
• gymnastics
• good grades
• ortography

• quit smoking
• stop drinking coffee
• stop drinking alcohol
• regulize my sleeping habits
• exercize
• pay attention to what i eat

so basically the only healthy things i do are drink tons of water and have sex

• non-alcoholic
• chili hot chocolate
• pink lemonade
• water
• black coffee
• tomato juice
• earl grey tea (no sugar, just some lemon juice occasionally)
• alcoholic
• red wine
• rum
• tequila (silver)
• rum and coke
• vodka and orange juice
• bloody mary
• vodka and coffee

• walking in high heels
• water
• laughter
• the wind in the trees
• birdsong
• lighting a cigarette
• silence
• turning a book's pages
• pencil on paper
• windchimes
• crickets
• rain
• cat purring

• sleeping
• too late
• in the afternoon
• eating
• too much
• with no variety
• sitting in front of the computer
• drinking with friends
• visiting classes
• wondering when i will start studying for exams
• wondering when i will start drawing again
• having moodswings

• i love opening cans
• i have a snail named Leonidas
• my foot got pierced by a pitchfork when i was 11
• i drink my coffee black
• i don't drink coffee to wake up but because i love the taste
• if you yell at me i will start crying however trivial the matter may be
• when i am especially anxious (like on the border of a serious breakdown kind of anxious), red spots will appear on my hands
• my feet are always cold
• when...

• in a club, on the dancefloor
• on a balcony in math camp
• in a friend's yard
• on the street by the bus stop
• in front of a tesco
• in an apartment on a bed
• on a dark and empty street

• exquisite
• sheer
• anguish
• perish
• acquire
• accomodate
• vile
• immaculate
• morgue
• promptly
• proceed
• intricate
• peculiar
• acquaintance
• insane
• excruciatingly
• hollow
• misinterpretable
• elocution
• lush
• languish
• viscious
• efflorescence
• gossamer
• clusterfuck
• debauchery
• perhaps

• R.E.M.
• explosions in the sky
• heaven street seven
• neo
• tankcsapda
• kispál és a borz
• the offspring
• franz ferdinand
• limp bizkit
• péterfy bori & love band
• quimby
• marilyn manson

• LJ
• last.fm
• polyvore
• weheartit
• plurk
• facebook
• stumbleupon

• watching at least 2 movies a week with my boyfriend
• having cats
• drawing portraits once or twice a week
• summer music festivals
• getting stupidly drunk very quickly
• living at home
• the bartender at our favorite place at home :(
• eating grilled cheese sandwiches daily
• having a 2l bottle of water by my side at all times
• having things to write about
• being constantly in touch with myself
• the notebook i used to doodle...

• Depeche Mode: A Pain That I'm Used To
• Samuel Barber: Adagio For Strings
• Queens of the Stone Age: Skin On Skin
• Nine Inch Nails: Perfect Drug
• Nine Inch Nails: Closer To God
• Tori Amos: Suede
• Apocalyptica: From Out Of Nowhere
• Pure Reason Revolution: In Aurelia
• A Perfect Circle: Rose
• Explosions in the Sky: Remember Me As A Time Of Day
• Deftones: Digital Bath
• Tool: Schism
• My Bloody Valentine: Only Shallow

• livejournal
• postsecret
• we heart it
• polyvore
• overheard in new york
• sex in art
• i can has cheezburger
• xkcd
• fashiontoast
• 25 things about my sexuality
• squid intestines
• visual crack for the ocular fiend
• modfetish
• modsmut
• iCiNG
• pretty foods
• wikipedia
• gives me hope
• stumbleupon