dear self,

here's somethings i'd love to tell you and i hope that you'll remember and or try to remember and i hope that you'll accomplish this in the next 10, no, 30 years, i hope this isn't too hard and or something that you should forget no matter how much bitter and harsh times try and pull you towards the darkness. please don't forget to be a light that supports and helps even when you feel like a nobody and or nothing like it. please don't forget and or lose sight of yourself and who you are.

also:

• you shouldn't keep beating yourself up because you were meant:
• to live and exist
• to love and to be loved
• to be a somebody not a nobody
• to shine one day at something
• to realize that you're more than enough
• to love the lord with all your heart (even though you struggle with yourself)
• to spread kindness to those who genuinely need it
• to guide those who need it
• to support and help others when they need you to
• to be somebody's ray of sunshine even if you feel like you're a stormy rain cloud at times
• to encourage and motivate somebody in their time of need
• to be loved by somebody who deserves you and will love you for you and the person that god will give to you or you were supposed to meet at the right time
• to be the light to others who need it amongst the darkness
• to fulfill God's will
• to do something remarkable even if you don't understand why your life is the way it is sometimes
• to realize that you're put on this earth for more than just merely existing and when nobody sees you, He will and that should be the best thing ever because He knows and cares for you and loves you even when nobody else does.
• you should try and love yourself, it's a struggle and a journey but you know what? it'll be worth it. love yourself because god made you and not because everybody says it but also because it's true and loving yourself will help you in some aspects of your life. remember being confident is a beautiful thing. there's nothing wrong with having some confidence here and there. learn that you're worth it and that nobody can determine your worth. at least not from and or by other humans but you and yourself.

love yourself or try to love yourself more and more as each day passes. do something not for yourself all the time but for the days you need to and or need it. you're not a robot, a convenient store, a doormat, or anything worth less than what anybody tries to make you feel. remember that. you're a soul, no, a special being, and you are made with love. and i hope you can try and love that part of you.

love, your own self