There's a fire somewhere down river

Just a thin arm of gray reaching off the river flats

I'd call it a smoke signal if I were the kind of white person who said that kind of shit.

The Lake Street bridge always gives me vertigo The water probably isn't that far away

You can sort of see the expressions of the people on the boats below you

If you dropped a rock onto the sand, it wouldn't make too deep a hole, I guess

I gotta go home now but I'm sitting outside my old home

So, when does "home" emerge from just the place where I put all my stuff

The new house is where I do all my living so I guess the old house is where I'm dead

I've been saying all that so I don't have to say this:

It's too easy to jump off a bridge or take some pills

No, actually, you've gotta walk to the bridge so no one tows your mom's car. You gotta buy or steal the pills.

Mostly, it's too easy to go without saying goodbye

Yes there is a place where someone loves you before and after they learn what you are

That place is called the world and if you wanna live, really the only option, you could choose not to, but where would you get really great sandwiches or listen to Springsteen with the windows down

When you wanna cry you'll have to just not

Yes, people will miss you, but you've wanted to kill yourself for a while

You've heard that too much and it no longer means anything

"Goodbye" isn't a strong enough word but "fuck off forever" isn't always what I mean

Listen, if I joke about wanting to kill myself, that means I don't wanna do it

Start worrying when I only talk about brunch and dog breeds

Start worrying whenever you want to, really, I'm not your boss

I don't know - I don't know why I ask my phone how to get home from here but I guess it's nice when someone else agrees with me

The GPS says it'll take 3 minutes

Home is where I most comfortably have my panic attacks

When I get home, I get to stay there

I get to sleep then I get to

If I want to

Do this all again