- 1st: class, did groceries w luis, cooked pasta, quayside wethers, taylor swift party (that was a good party), felt like i have a really good group and the second semester is not that scary.
- 2nd: for some reason i didnt sleep, skipped class, did chores, went to have lunch and for a walk w magdalena, was going to meet ula but wasnt feeling it, arohi came back (that was nice, he's fun), got my coat stuck in the laundry machine, wethers (i miss david, albert and mery so much, i miss genuinely laughing so hard).
- 3rd: classes, met isa, i like so much being independent and be able to do my chores alone, talked to marvin, "was worth it you know", wethers and esn party at wonder bar and bier keller.
- 3rd (p.s): he remembers, and i know he remembers, and i know he misses me, not as much as i miss him, and i know it was real and not just for me. just saw the nye video, i dont miss crying because of you, i dont miss feeling restless because you werent there, i miss that first week when everything was at its peak, i miss how i felt like you wanted to spend as much time with me as i wanted to spend with you, i miss movies and i miss how you said we spent too much time together. but it was also bad, and sad, and i lost my independence because i was only thinking about you (this part, and most of it, is not your fault), and it was too much for me emotionally, i dont miss crying because we fucked up after talking on the 17th, and i cried so much because of that, and because of you, when i saw you on the window, when you lied to me, after that day, my heart hurt so much, and after seeing you on soho i was shattered, and i need peace and i know im getting it but i miss you a lot, and in a week its going to be okay but now it isnt.
- 4th: gym, bought the tickets for lisbon (yess), coffee w ula, watching encanto w magdalena and staying at home, messages from albert and mery :'(, nothing much actually.
- 5th: watched belfast w ula in tyneside cinema, nice day at home, its cold and rainy, read, pres at luis' and rustys.
- 5th (p.s): told michela about you and took a detour in the park where we used to walk, when im drunk i miss you so much its ridiculous, but there was people where we sat on the 1st of january, i hope it gets better soon for me.
- 6th: spent the morning home, put on my jeans overalls (felt cute), it was rainy, went to pret instead of brunch, sun came out, ms jackson - outkast, read ya, wethers (i wish i had a better saturday night).
- 7th: euphoria monday, studied and cleaned my room, went to class (that was good, that was good), gym, stayed at home and went to sleep at 11.
- 8th: class and went back home, chilled there, went to bar blanc and meet some cool people, went w them to flares, i really hope they text me again (maybe not, but thats okay), i love nights like this.
- 8th (p.s): marvin kissed maria argelich and lied about what happened on the 17th well lmao fuck him.
- 9th: woke up really early, a little sick, went to class, graingers, was going to eat but then!!! my tupper fell to the floor, so i did a hamburger, thats the highlight of the day, gym, baked a banana bread and chilled.
- 10th: class (skipped the last one, but met a really nice guy in my seminar who is my hyperfixation of the week), had lunch at home and went to olive and beans w majda kim lisa barbora anna etc, applied to work on bar loco hope they want me, watched hsm3 and went out to market shaker, didnt have fun.
- 11th: gym, went for a walk w magdalena, pres at nuria's with her friends from barcelona and rustys, went home early because £3 wine is something else, a continuacion otra cosa sentimentaloide que escribi sobre marvin igual a las otras, que no voy a borrar por respeto a mi yo borracha pero ya podría la verdad porque vaya ridícula.
- 11th (p.s): on the 1st of january we held hands, we rolled on the grass, you grabbed me by my hip, we were so happy, it was a new year, a new chapter, you missed me, i missed you, not anymore, but when i go through leazes park it hurts so much, because rolling here was real, and i know you remember.
- 12th: laing gallery coffee w magdalena (and grabbed my shein package), lunch (frankies and tonys) and movie at home, had varun's birthday w chinese food, the flat had a dinner for once, which was very nice, going out to michela's place for a st valentine's party, met gary who is as hot as ever, had fun, actually, this was a good day.
- 12th (p.s): cuando leo algunas cosas de enero pienso en lo mucho que ha cambiado mi vida en poco tiempo, yo no, pero mi alrededor sí, y me río y echo de menos y me da esperanza por las cosas buenas por venir, y lo bonita que pinta mi vida estos meses, y lo agradecida que estoy por absolutamente todo lo que tengo y lo que viene, y por mis padres, que me han permitido toda la belleza que una persona puede experimentar.
- 13th: made it through a whole month of this yayy, watched david's match and gym, tried to dye luis's hair (gone wrong), watched a movie w them at marta's, the sunday most sunday ever (it was even raining).
- 14th: was kind of a sad day, since i didnt have much to do and felt kind of lonely, michela confessed her feelings to me?, went to a bar w magdalena carson and david.
- 15th: gym, pret and library, bar blanc and talking w my besties, i guess accepting that people criticise me is still in my to-do list, i have to get better at it but its going fine, you got this <3.
- 16th and 17th: didnt write anything because its pretty much the same, i dont want to be on strike, i want to go to class it gives me a purpose, yesterday was lorena's birthday and im talking w a guy (two guys) on tinder.
- 18th: storm eunice was a surprise?, library for a bit and then going to durham to help nuria get laid, jimmy's, tricking free drinks, that was really fun i have to say, hope we meet the girls again.
- 18th (p.s): its been such a good life.
- 19th: woke up at 7am for some reason, library, went to have lunch w nuria and luis, corado's house (it was actually pretty fun, sammy was there lol), popcorn, i love majda so much, and i am so happy after this weekend.
- 20th: it was raining for the whole morning, woke up late and gym, majda did risotto (amazing), studied w nuria and luis and felt a lot like a sunday, mcdonalds and went home, read a bit about lady di, was a pretty good day.
- 21st: euphoria, library, went to have migas at luis' house and stayed there for the afternoon (my social battery ran out, so i was kind of annoyed), pub quiz at habita w lisa and the french guys.
- 22nd: my day was uneventful but i have started thinking that maybe i feel this deep regret for not enjoying every single minute of it because im keeping track of them, these days are just uneventful, be fine with it.
- 23rd, 24th, 25th: usual days, been thinking about how i manage social capital, went to the reggaeton party at aveika, im happy :)
- 26th: trip to the north pennines, not gonna lie i love hiking until i do have to hike (plus the hangover), that was beautiful still, there was a really beautiful light on our way back through durham county, went to durham to party at jimmys, hope we keep going i like isa and aleix.
- 27th: i woke up rather sad but then went down to quayside market, it was sunny and beautiful, had a beer w magda and nuria came. Read on tiktok: "it [the covid lockdown] was such a horrific time but life slowed down to a beautiful pace that we'll never get back."
- 28th: arohi's birthday, hosted a party, nothing much, i guess february was a good month but there's still a bittersweet feeling everyday, specially about my friends in here and how i don't really feel like i'm being myself most of the time.
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