- 13nd: drawing w mery on exhibition park, walk through newcastle, hungover, drinking a coffee in leazes park, feeling creative, walking down a dark path to quayside, walk away by frank ferdinand.
- 14th: feeling of new beginnings, walk on the park w the sun, are we going down in our friendship?, library and searched for a job, plummer house, drunk talk w marvin at 4am.
- 15th: match day, showed my house to my friends and cooked for them, st james full at sunset, david hugging me when they scored, going down w the girls to quayside, feeling tired but really happy, late night w marvin.
- 16th: quayside market, coffee and lunch w the girls, lazy afternoon, stress over fomo because of the erasmus meeting, feeling calm, movie w marvin, "what? nothing".
- 17th: costa w nuria, grainger's monday, finding people at the supermarket as if we were in a little town, digi monday, "i think we should have hooked up today" "what" "do you like me?"
- 18th: jesmond dene, long talks about life w nuria, feeling like i peaked for three hours, finishing my essay, "cant, night shift in the library", dinner at wetherspoons, finding him in his kitchen, heartbroken.
- 19th: tynemouth walk, seagulls and fish and chips and benches on a cliff w my friends and the sunset, feeling like my heart was breaking, "are we cool?" "yes why wouldnt we be", crying in my room, wethers w everyone, found him at soho, feeling like my heart was rippen apart on the way back but for some reason couldn't cry.
- 20th: coffee w marvin in the morning, lazy day, feeling calm, so this is it, harry potter aniversary, crepes at creams, mery's and pres at portland green, soho, lost my earphones (not really), "me and marvin don't want to go to manchester".
- 21st: magdalena came back, trip to lidl, "but that thing yeah is over", coffee w my friends and planning birmingham w david, mansion tyne and tea, watching a tv show w magdalena, feeling like home, wethers and plummer, i can miss him and still be happy, paloma - andres calamaro: porque vivir es jugar y yo quiero seguir jugando, le dije a mi corazon: sin gloria pero sin pena, no cometas el crimen varón, si no vas a cumplir la condena.
- 21st (p.s) lets try to be as good and honest as you can, always, and never meddle in anyones life or share things they dont want you to share.
- 22nd: breakfast w magdalena, paintball (was shit, not gonna elaborate), ride back w david and mery looking back to us and the sunset and feeling so comfortable im going to miss them so much, planning birmingham and oxford, dinner at nuria's, plummer house.
- 23rd: quayside market, sitting in the sun w mery waiting for the people, lunch by the river and baltic centre, goodbyes (first one) at the train station, cried on the way back home, late night talk w magdalena, actually made me feel so much better.
- 24th: birmingham, probably the ugliest city i have ever seen, wetherspoons as always, canals and indian food, laughing too much, im going to miss this two boys.
- 25th: oxford, walking around the most impressive uni hall i have ever seen, "oh, this is einstein's common room", developing my film, walking around w nuria and waiting for the boys, "albert y yo estuvimos pensando que tenéis que pasaroslo muy bien con nosotros como para hacer esta burrada", oh im really going to miss them, bus, bus, bus, leaning my head in david's shoulder, sometimes i let my mind linger around the idea, arriving home at 6am.
- 26th: pancakes w majda, marvin, joanna and acacia, i wish he left already, because for some seconds i cant take the heartbreak anymore, lazy day, coffee w marvin and long talks on the sofa, walking w him to wetherspoons, saying goodbye to pau and ospi (second one), making plans about the future: looks bittersweet, late night talk w johana and majda.
- 27th: marvin came to move out, tynemouth w magdalena and johana, lunch w david, saying goodbye to luna, chill evening at home, last plummer house
- 27th (p.s): god sometimes i get so sad i just want this feeling to be over, but it was so real and it makes me so happy, i miss the people who already left and im missing the people who is still here, but it means that i was there and i was real and i am so grateful for that.
- 28th: d day, breakfast at shakes w majda, marvin, dani and johana, picking up things in plummer, quayside and sunset (me cancelarías si te tiro al río ahora mismo?), picking up things in mansion tyne, going to the station, there was too many people there, it was too fast, marvin left too fast, cried, magdalena was waiting for me w ice cream and 10 things about you, i love her.
- 29th: lazy morning, called marta, coffee w maria argelich's flat and quayside, tea at nuria's, slept for a while, latino fest: market house (i love magdalena so much) and riverside, coming home w marta romero.
- 29th (p.s): the mug hurts me so much, makes me feel like not a single thing in this month was real, but at the same time it is a big proof that it was, i hate that he makes me feel like i was nothing.
- 30th: sunday at home, watched a movie w magdalena and did some pre-recorded lecture, felt like a back to routine sunday, wethers w nuria and luis, i miss david.
- 31st: back to routine, euphoria monday, ran some errands, ate healthy, first class, gym, , had dinner w magdalena and harry (its chinese new years eve) stayed at home, palm springs.
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