- 26th trapeze class. Finally caught my back-end hocks off. THREE times in a row. It was a small class so we had more time to catch. Donovan was my catcher. I am so awkward and weird and shy and anxiety-ridden.
- Went to Bailey's for Paul's Birthday Memorial celebration. Thankfully, no drama with the parents...mom decided not to come. Watched the slideshow again of Paul and did a shot in his honor. Julea was there. It was so good to see her and talk to her, even if briefly. I want to be friends again. We all got awesome Broncos shirts with OLDT on the back, number 79 for his birthday. It was very emotional again. I cried a little during the slideshow. Jessica cried quite a few times. But I still think she is doing remarkably well.
- Ran the Monument Avenue 10k for the 4th time. I did about 30 seconds better than last year. Meh. I arrived alone, ran alone, left alone. I do everything alone. It's starting to get old.
- 27th trapeze class. Worked on a cross-grip turn-around. It was exciting to be doing a more advanced skill, working towards returning to the board! I didn't do it all that well but it was good to make progress.
- Saw the Hunger Games finally. It was pretty good. Of course, as with any book adaptation, there are lots of things left on the cutting room floor for the sake of time but I thought they did a pretty good job.
- Finished my crystal prismacolor drawing. It turned out okay. Not as realistic as I would have liked but it is not something I would normally draw, it had an abstract feel to it so it was more difficult for me. Oh well, as long as I continue being creative and drawing.
- 28th trapeze class. I worked on the cross-grip turnaround again. Still not very good. I also tried to move to the 3-kick turnaround once. I actually liked that better but didn't get a chance to try it again before the catch rounds where I just did my standard back-end split. I hurt my shoulder last class and two weeks later, it was still hurting me today. Yikes!
- Took mom to see Chimpanzee for her birthday. It was so good. Animals continually blow my mind. Then we went to Panera. God damnit, do I love a Mediterranean Veggie sandwich.
- Saw Cabin in the Woods with Alex. Was pleasantly surprised. They lead you to believe that it is going to be a classic stupid slasher movie with a bunch of hot teens alone in the woods but it was so much more sci-fi goodness than that! Loved it!
- Went on a short but nice hike/walk in the Mason Neck Wildlife Refuge with Mom and the dogs. A bald eagle flew right over us and I got a few good pictures! All in all, a nice morning/afternoon.
- Finished Under the Dome. Creepy good.
- 29th trapeze class. Worked on the cross-grip and three-kick turnaround again. It's just like working on your swing all over again, you have to master it before you can move on to higher level tricks. So for now, I am kind of stuck working on it until I get it down pat! But the class was quite encouraging and fun. Sometimes when you get the right people together, the class just has good energy!
- Paul's parents came to visit and to bring Jessica Paul's car. It was heart-breaking to see it in the driveway. They also brought his backpack. The backpack he had with him with his change of clothes and hat and gloves in it the day he died. It reeked of weed too. So sad.
- Went to the LAB fitness class with my Dad after a long hiatus. There's a new instructor who is more motivating, plays better music and had a much better and HARDER class.
- 30th trapeze class. Still working on my turn-around. It's slow fucking progress, sometimes seems like no progress! But we flew outside today and it was GORGEOUS. And I also did start a new trick in between learning my turn-around, the back-end gazelle! I forgot my wallet and couldn't buy my pictures AND couldn't pay for parking to get out of the parking lot BUT Carrie put my pictures on my thumb drive sneakily for free and the parking security let me out of the lot for free too. GREAT DAY!
- Saw The Avengers with Alex. It was good. But not as amazingly good as I thought it was going to be. Some of the action sequences were a bit drawn out, too many explosions, not enough plot. But I do love a good hunky superhero movie.
- Rode the motorcycle with Alex for the first time. We rode out to Monticello. It was a beautiful drive, long but beautiful. Riding a motorcycle is tiring!
- Finished my drawing of Mocha for Jessica's birthday. Finally! Years in the making!
- Went on the Nevada vacation with Mom. Las Vegas: 2 Cirque du Soleil shows (!!!), Valley of Fire State Park, Hoover Dam, Red Rock Canyon, Zion National Park. We argued a lot. But still had a great time. I saw things that I've always wanted to. Bucket list material. Now I am home and have post-vacation blues. Depressed about life.
- Went through another death at work. My big Hoss man. It was the most gruesome and one of the worst things I've been through at the SPCA. Rest in peace big, sweet boy,
- 31st trapeze class. Intended to work on my back-end gazelle and my turn-around again but only worked on my gazelle. I caught it 2 out of 3 times! But I wish I had worked on the turn-around. I really need to get that. The longer I am working on it, the longer it will be before I can move on!
- Saw Snow White & the Huntsman with Alex. It was good but not quite as good as I had hoped. Still, I am a sucker for a medieval fantasy flick.
- Went to the fitness class with dad after another long hiatus. Our teacher never showed up so my Dad improvised and taught it. I think we all still had a great workout.
- Found my copy of World War Z after losing it for a few weeks and finally finished it.
- Saw Prometheus with Alex. Didn't know what to expect. It was awesome!
- Had a HUGE blow-out with Alex after the movie that has been a LONG time coming. As we were walking out of the movie, back to the car, Alex squeezed my neck playfully. I ducked to get away from his touch and did my usual, "Get off, get away, stop, etc. etc.". Only this time, Alex didn't just take it and shake it off. And good for him. I am an idiot, non-affectionate bitch. I didn't want to be like my mom in her relationship with my dad but I have become JUST like her. We didn't speak the rest of the night and I took off to Jessica's to watch the dogs. This morning when I came home, it all came out. I cried myself dry. I don't know why he hasn't dumped me a LONG time ago. I am the problem. And I know that. I want to change but it's so much easier said than done. Alex doesn't think so. Alex thinks if I know it, if I am aware that I need to change, than I should just be able to. Ugh.
- 32nd trapeze class. FUCKING SUCKED. I worked on my turn-around again. Progress is so-so. Then when we got to the catch round, I wanted to do a back-end split. But I hadn't warmed it up yet. Normally, if you haven't warmed a trick up, you don't get to catch it right away. But they let me. They have let me in the past once before, also. The back-end split is usually my go-to trick when I just need to do something quick just to have a catch. I don't know WHAT the hell went wrong but I totally fucked it up and didn't catch it. When I got back up to the board for my second turn, Mandy, who is normally so nice and encouraging said, "Next time, warm up that trick so we don't have to waste a catch." It hurt my feelings. I felt stupid and embarrassed and she has never been cross with me before. So then I went for my second time and I fucked it up even WORSE! I have NO CLUE what went wrong. I normally ACE that trick. I don't know where my head was at, I seriously did it so BAD. I was pissed at myself and embarrassed and I high-tailed it out of there as fast as I could after class. UGH.
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