• money.
• tragus piercing.
• money.
• new phone
• car
• orange nail polish.
• a job.
• longer eye lashes.
• smaller feet.
• beautiful weather everyday.
• a new dog.
• a turtle.
• to meet biggie smalls.
• to go to rock the bells concert.
• trust to be regained.
• hair to grow faster.
• laya to not be in pain.
• have everything be free.
• a pool.
• smoke weed with bob marley & tupac.
• have an amazing beat boxing ability.

• psychology.
• education.
• art therapy.
• writing.
• art.
• sociology.
• graphic design.
• interior design.
• fashion merchandising.

• middle school.
• my friends, that I don't keep in touch with anymore.
• summer nights.
• my dad's family parties.
• my summer camp.
• my New Hampshire house.
• just when I was kid.
• recess.
• when the light up sketchers were in fashion.
• when I didn't have any homework.
• when I didn't have any responsibilities.
• playing stupid games with my best friend Kala.
• dressing up as the spice girls.
• going swimming everyday in the summer.
• playing soccer & basketball.

• 3rd Grade- Told my aid that because she was starting to get old I would attend her funeral. It made her cry.
• 5th Grade- got in trouble for selling school supplies on school property.
• 6th Grade- my mom put sprite in a plastic sippie cup sort of thing (dont ask why I had a sippie cup in 6th grade) but when i opened it sprayed all over me and my friends and caused a huge disruption in the lunch. So as usual, went to the principles office.
• Didn't tie my shoes for gym class, a really original punishment once again.. I got sent to the principles office.
• 7th Grade-didn't say the pledge of allegiance one day during school.(I thought I was making some cool statement, but didn't even know what the statement was)
• dress code violation. apparently rip jeans with fishnet tights underneath wasn't i...

• Canada
• Maine
• California
• New Hampshire
• Vermont
• New York
• Pennsylvania
• Connecticut
• Washington D.C.
• Mexico
• Florida
• North Carolina
• South Carolina
• Costa Rica
• France
• New Jersey
• Maryland
• Arizona
• Rhode Island
• Maryland
• Delaware

• trusting too many people.
• when I started smoking cigarettes.
• not sleeping enough.
• cheating on a past exams.
• lying to a friend.
• putting myself in awkward positions.
• not speaking up.
• staying in relationships that aren't working.

• Hold me tight - Beatles
• Love & Happiness- Al Green
• Sufferers- The Heptones
• Dreadlocks in the moonlight- Lee Perry
• Crept n' we came- Bone Thugs-N-Harmony
• Doctor Monroe- Casey Dienel
• Pablo Picasso- Citizen Cope
• Misunderstood - Common
• September- Earth Wind & Fire
• Bennie & the Jets- Elton John
• Love - G. Love & Special Sauce
• Papas got a brand new bag - James Brown
• Hey Mama - Kayne West
• Get down on it - Kool & the Gang
• Everyone Nose - N.E.R.D
• Stone Love - Pepper
• We Still Got it - Redneck Manifesto
• Super freak - Rick James
• Only God Can Judge Me- Tupac
• Beautiful Disaster - 311

• when my mom went into septic shock.
• when my dad went into cardiac arrest.
• when my brother was arrested for drunk driving, and got into an accident.
• witnessing my dog get hit by a car, and having her die in my arms.
• finding out I was adopted.
• Realizing my high school was closing my junior year & knowing I would have to transfer somewhere else.
• having one of my best friends tell me she was suicidal.
• flying on a plane for the first time.
• being sent to a camp that I didn't want to go to for a month over my 13th birthday.
• realizing that I suck at standing up for myself.

• bacon, if you just woke up.
• the smell before/after it rains.
• cookies.
• paint.
• sharpies.
• toothpaste.
• cold air.
• burning wood.
• apple cider.
• doctors offices.
• grass.
• peaches.
• new pencils.
• clean laundry.
• old basements.
• distinctive smells in peoples houses.
• smell of humidity.

• smell of gasoline.
• greasy hair.
• the smell of burps.
• people who walk slow at the mall.
• powdered soap.
• dry skin.
• when I can't sleep.
• tap water.
• tomatoes.
• the movie Juno.
• headaches.
• when a body part falls asleep.
• when people chew loudly.
• talking a lot in a movie theater.
• awkward silence.
• when your stomach makes a weird noise when your hungry.
• fights/arguments.
• sleeping with one pillow.
• when you don't get a text message back.
• where people don't seem interested in you...

• get a job.
• quit smoking.
• figure out what I want to do.
• ✔ start writing again.
• take a art class.
• ✔ look at schools.
• trust myself more.
• ✔ tell someone.
• ✔ get through this awful winter.
• ✔ get a new computer.
• ✔ clean my room.
• see my grandpa more.
• realize that things won't change over night.
• think about my actions.

• i make too many promises i can't keep.
• its impossible to get hired freaking anywhere.
• this summer sucks.
• don't sit outside at a party, because the cops will come.
• time goes by faster than you think.
• bagel world is the best place to go if you need to cure a hangover.
• my phones a piece of shit.
• I've forgotten whats important.
• i no longer appreciate things as much as i used to.
• two days ago i lost my parents trust for a long long long time.
• its harder than it looks to quit smoking.
• my room always gets dirty even after i clean it.
• i miss camp mitchman.
• everything so god damn expensive when you...

• ✔ cook supper for my family.
• ✔ clean the house.
• walk the dog.
• ✔ start cleaning the kitchen regularly.
• ✔ offer to babysit.
• ✔ start doing some of my own laundry.
• offer to shovel. (if it snows again.)
• ✔ help fold clothes.
• go to my food pantry.

(more later)

• biting my nails.
  • smoking when I'm nervous.
• shaking my pencil during a test.
  • biting on my upper lip.
• fixing my hair, even though its fine.
  • start out too fast when I'm talking.
• laugh even when things aren't funny.
  • walk with my feet inwards.
• not fully chew all of my food.
  • space out during the middle of a conversation.
• constantly look at my phone.
  • rub my eyes, even when their not itchy.
• make strange noises when I'm bored.

• someone spitting my food.
• death.
• drowning.
• the dark.
• never finding someone.
• not being able to make it all way through college.
• stuck working somewhere even though i don't enjoy it.
• finding out my birth mother doesn't want to meet me.
• missing out on a great opportunity.
• having someone tell me I'm not good enough.
• disappointing my parents.
• the day I realize my humor won't always get me through in certain situations.
• loosing someone I love.
• to give up.
• betraying a friends trust.
• crying in public.