Dont think any of this is your fault baby. I want to help you but i really cant..i seriously cannot. I want to so much but it would do bad things to me and you would not like that. All I know is if I cant help you you need to find someone who doesnt have my kind of problem that can handle that. and I wish i didnt have this problem but it wont go away

i seriously love you and i hope you dont think im your making me any worse off than I ever was