August 1:

• had a meaningful dream and made a recording of its message!
• buried a little dead european goldfinch in the orchard
• this isn't a highlight really, but I'll mourn him as our own
• Kara was nice to me and showed me a cat video
• went shopping for food and then had a nice breakfast
• gave myself space to mourn and had a lamp session
• played a lot of PPP to beat up Merda
• grieved a lot over past pets...
• had a lovely lunch
• made my second lamp session into a loving grieving session
• made a grave of roses over the european goldfinch from this morning
• lay down to theta waves and meditated over this tenderly
• mom brought me some watermelon and it was delicious
• finished a big puzzle to the theta waves reinforcing the message
• in the end, I'm thankful things happened the way they did
• and now I think I know what direction to end one of my fics <3
• I had a realization about the goldfinch - I found it in the house-shaped feeder
• a little animal that died "in a house," like housepets...
• syncronicities are frightening. incredible, but frightening.
• Okuyasu is now the first character to have a red badge in PPP!
• made an update on Twitter and folks were kind
• did the guided meditation to complete today's heavy work

August 2:

• slept very jumbled, but I did realize something in my sleep
• got a kind message from someone in the morning
• played, did a few chores, and ate some breakfast
• had a lamp session
• had some fun with PPP
• lunch was lovely
• played a puzzle listening to Christina
• had my second lamp session
• started rereading Like a Flame to get into the spirit
• realized I had an assigned box and put my jewelry into it!
• now I have another glass tray for my candles!
• if I get two more, I'll still have room for all of them! :D
• discussed things about tomorrow and packed my medicine tower
• asked my mom if there was an energy by my bed that made sleep difficult
• she found energy in the outermost corner that wished to be transformed
• so I held a ceremony and cleansed it in my heart
• I offered to channel it elsewhere, but it stayed in my heart
• we are now one in love and I promise to keep transmuting it
• talked a bit on Twitter and folks were nice again <3
• also Mia is writing! wooo! go Mia!
• had a lovely Illegally Blond session with Bravinto :D <3

August 3:

• had a tousled but okay sleep
• managed to go shopping early and got hot pastries for us
• yesterday my tarot deck arrived in Budapest!
• did a lamp session on my face and ear
• listening to Discover Weekly
• started on my writing preparations, then had some lunch
• pulled Josuke and Fungami Yuuya!!! <3
• had another lamp session
• this morning a panicked Mista visited Prosciutto...
• ...and now Joey is talking to me about last time.
• we agreed not to talk to each other for a while
• took it calmly, all things considered
• Narancia earned his red badge <3
• listened to a podcast on tarot
• I still feel things, so I'll be okay. I did not fragment. I remain whole.
• did the Masculine Energy Healing

August 4:

• had a fitful but received a message in English
• pus came out of my earlobes, hopefully it needed to
• my mom confirmed healing within five days!
• did a lamp session on both ears
• prepared my document some more
• listened to that one Friderika album and I still adore it
• Formaggio reached SL 5 in PPP! <3
• had a bad case of acid but mom massaged my feet and that helped some
• read Livi's new fic and left a comment <3
• made what is essentially a salt caramel tiramisu
• showered and washed my hair
• had spiritual surgery and it went well, even if it was kinda weird
• connected with my spirit some afterwards <3
• Christina will hold a Lion's Gate activation this Saturday!!! <3
• mom is interested in doing the live activation with me! :D

August 5:

• had a rumble tumble sleep but sort of soothing dreams
• put out the recycling early
• sent Kara healing energy
• ate caramel tiramisu for breakfast
• did a lamp session and thought of some things
• wrote the things down so I don't forget
• decided to cheer up with some Monster Factory
• we got an appointment from another lady next Wednesday
• my tarot deck has arrived and I love it! :D
• did two readings and HO BOY
• had a lovely lunch
• did my second lamp session
• had a breakdown... but I'm trying to calm down
• ironed everything from the basket and started a wash
• hung the washing out to dry, now I'll have fresh clothes eventually
• talking a bit to Jacque
• put on theta waves and played to calm myself down
• according to mom's spirit, I cleansed two energies in this room
• did the Healing with Angels guided meditation <3

August 6:

• slept well enough, despite everything
• today is a new day and my skin looks so nice in the mirror...
• ate tiramisu for breakfast
• lay down and did a lamp session
• had a headache so I lay down to theta waves with a soul issues chip
• lying down felt very good and peaceful, I'm grateful for it
• sent money to help Beirut in Lebanon
• set up a monthly subscription to support our LGBT+ community at home
• lay down and felt happiness, and wrote a bit in another notepad
• had a lovely lunch
• typed a bit for Olga and I'm liking it so far!
• felt sleepy, rested to theta waves, feeling happy and better! :D
• ironed my clothes so I have stuff for tomorrow!
• did another lamp session, staying as optimistic as I can!
• played a puzzle to theta waves, chilling
• read over most of what I had from my previous draft and, nah...
• had a talk with my mom over Libra bullshit lmao
• did the Earth Star Chakra Activation again and it was INTENSE

August 7:

• slept well enough and had dreams of, friends? was Giorno there?
• did my first lamp session and I feel calm enough
• Mista just visited Prosciutto with his gun pointed at me?
• I ended up letting the workman in and arranged for things the way we wanted
• did several chores so I'm feeling good about myself
• reached a new conclusion re: Joey, but I'll wait
• went shopping for food
• came back and ate a crescent roll and cheese
• found an itty bitty box for my meds and I love it
• edited the Yuritetsu playlist, I love it
• ate another poppyseed square, I think I'll be fine for a while lmao
• dressed up, put on the necklace and shoes, I'm feeling amazing ahaha
• the crossword puzzle book I subscribed for arrived just as we were going away!
• had a safe trip
• I made a personal present to my niece and she liked it <3
• the place was nice enough and the food and drinks were good
• the cake was great and people said nice things about it :'] <3
• had a nice talk with my dad by our lonesome
• got home safely thanks to my brother agreeing to drive us
• did some healing on Molly

August 8:

• felt rested in the morning despite everything
• my spirit said I pulled out some of the irritation from Molly
• had a surge of appreciation for my sister
• had a moment with the family at breakfast
• been leveling in PPP and Mista became 50 with Trish
• on Trish's debut Narancia and Bruno were in the cheer squad :']
• we got cake for breakfast hehehe
• dad drove us home safely
• chilling with a Kinley ginger ale and theta waves
• was hit by a surge of happiness and I feel so grateful :'] <3
• risked another conversation with my dad about racism
• found a poppyseed square and had it for lunch :D
• laughing at Monster Factory, bless you, brothers <3
• Bravinto popped in for a bit of chat :D
• put my tarot cards in order for Orsi to look at when we meet
• did a lamp session, still feeling so happy and grateful, ahhh
• showered and washed my hair
• playing and laughing
• prepared my mom for the live activation
• we did it together and it was very powerful! <3
• had a talk afterwards <3

August 9:

• the candle is still burning, my hope and faith are still strong!
• had a nice breakfast and now I'm chilling
• it seems today is the date of the inflammation being gone
• which is amazing because it's been there for 32 years!!! <3
• and now I will patiently keep going because I have to believe in myself! <3
• had a lovely lunch
• poppyseed squares and it seems I'll heal my left lobe on the 15th?!
• I cheered up... :'] <3
• watched Monster factory and did some chores
• decided to revisit the empath videos for some reassurance and guidance
• did some beautiful puzzles
• did some kindness to Livi <3 left Twitter on a kind note, too

August 10:

• stayed in bed until like 8 o'clock somehow, wow
• ate delicious melons for breakfast
• did a lot of chores and got a poppyseed square for second breakfast <3
• finishing up the empath playlist to puzzles
• told my dad about my ears and healing so he can think about it <3
• we had leftovers for lunch and they were good
• had a very delicious lie down to theta waves
• we'll meet an hour later because of the heat but it's fine!
• showered, washed my hair and Prosciutto'd out as much as I could
• met my not wife and we bought stuff and dined
• the hamburgers were exquisite I loved them
• she loved my deck and told me she considered herself family
• I'm... yeah, haha!

August 11:

• woke up with a headache but I will be alright
• I am working on that
• played puzzles to music
• listened to Discover Weekly
• ate delicious peaches and tiramisu for lunch <3
• been kinda miserable and it turns out I didn't take my Dulsevia today :(
• but I did do my best to cope and interact
• Christina posted a video that was VERY pertinent to Joey
• not taking Dulsevia probably helped vent some emotions so, thank you
• did the divine feminine activation
• slept well enough with normal dreams and such

August 12:

• apparently received the message "I am allowed to feel and express anger"
• updated PPP, now we wait
• finally lit my second chakra candle, may it help with creativity
• drinking a coffee and enjoying the silence <3
• I was just given a long wonderful comment on WHMM by someone!
• they wrote it with such appreciation and love I'm gonna cry... :'] <3
• in some hours I'll have new PPP stuff to play with! :D
• played puzzles to my music
• ate tiramisu for breakfast <3
• spent three hours at my mom's friend
• I don't feel like I learned much, but it was free I guess.
• ate fried bread for lunch
• had a good lie down after
• went to the hairdresser for the last time in a while
• played the new PPP stuff and listened to Monster Factory
• we had a nice dinner
• helped my dad outdoors
• paid my electric bill just now super easily, wowza
• did the heart chakra healing meditation

August 13:

• had decent sleep I think
• realized that all my pimples/blemishes are at the heart reflex zone
• talked to my parents about stuff over breakfast
• did a meditation for my spirit to heal my ear lobes some more
• got Santana in the coin gacha!!! :D
• replied to the kind comment I got and, ahhh. Thank you so much! :'] <3
• paid my check, ha ha ha!
• got some poppyseed squares, hell yeah
• Bravinto sent me an ask and I answered it <3
• we had a nice lunch
• I ironed a lot of stuff so that's good
• just existed in the afternoon and sometimes that is what I have to do
• went to bed asking for all the knowledge I have stockpiled to be integrated

August 14:

• slept well enough despite waking up around 3 am
• ate a poppyseed square for breakfast
• Santana's little tush movement as he attacks is giving me so much joy
• made myself a nice second breakfast and ate it on my tray :]
• listening to Release Radar and playing
• switched to my playlist because I love it
• had coffee with biscuits and now I'm chilling again
• decided to try exercising and set a timer to theta waves
• a healing prayer came so I yelled for my mom to write it down for me
• then a meditation came to me so I yelled for my mom to write it down for me
• this was the most productive exercise session I ever had? wow
• got advice for my dad: start calling your wife by her actual name
• another panicked Mista visited Prosciutto
• played and listened to my playlist, I love it so much
• showered and washed my hair, let that air dry, fantastic
• Joseph Joestar now has his red badge! :D
• feeling tired but content <3
• my spirit said my right ear lobe will be whole on August 20
• both August 15 and August 20 are Virgin Mary holidays here...
• chewed over some feelings again, they sure are circulating

August 15:

• could witness my candle burn out (sorry for my interference!)
• lit the next one and it shall burn until the 20th!
• my spirit said my left lobe shall be whole in/by the evening! :D <3
• let in the workers, things are progressing!
• just did some unfucking in the pantry and I'm proud of me!
• had a nice grilled sandwich and tomatoes and took my medication <3
• played a puzzle to theta waves, just thinking
• mom got poppyseed squares, fuck yeah!!! :D
• lay down and then played mom's game a bit
• got Rohan from a gacha, now I have a Rohan!
• decided to do acts of kindness to help with healing
• read Livi's second fic, then a two-parter from Bravinto
• I can feel my ear lobes burning a bit so it's working! :D
• Livi said nice things about me on Twitter ;*; <3
• my spirit reminded me that I actually have an ear chip at home! lmaooo
• put that on, it stings a lot so I'm positive about it!
• my spirit also suggested Monster Factory so I guess my job is to keep happy!
• I made Bravinto's day, and that made me very happy :D <3
• we are talking a bit <3
• finally read Jacque's fic and left comments, they were really overdue...
• feeling better now that I did my acts of kindness <3
• got some love on CC and Twitter :D Illegally Blond and Nadine :D <3

August 16:

• slept well enough, waiting patiently...
• parents let me have the last poppyseed square <3
• did some unfucking in the pantry and it was successful!
• also did chores on the side
• ate a nice pogácsa when my parents got home
• laughed and played some
• someone or something filled me with sadness and then attacked me with pain
• I firmly denied permission and sent it away and the pain disappeared
• and now I just feel a sense of sad but hopeful triumph
• tuckered out but feeling a little better
• lunch was delicious <3
• got some very kind questions/stuff on CC <3
• got a very good prediction from my tarot deck for tomorrow
• it promises creativity and passion... heck yeah!
• ripped up and recycled a bunch of old notes, feeling good about that
• drank a Kinley ginger ale and answered more stuff <3
• had a good evening answering stuff <3

August 17:

• slept well enough I think
• made a new list of things I need to buy
• ate a nice breakfast
• gathered the recycling, unpacked the dishwasher, cleared out some jars
• despite allergies I'm feeling better
• bought a bunch of stuff I wanted, including allergy medicine
• allergies and disappointment weighing me down but I'll sit with it
• fiddled a bit with my purchases
• Avdol (voiced) reached level 50!
• will do my best to love myself
• tried the chocolate I bought and it's delicious
• started editing my chapter WIP and so far so good?
• went shopping and got more exciting stuff so yay
• tinkered more with my WIP
• we got some raspberry and chocolate ice cream as a treat :']
• got a promaggio message and answered it <3
• wrote/edited almost two pages! that is a start!!!

August 18:

• had a rough night but lived
• I still care and I will still fight
• ate some breakfast and started writing/editing again!
• new PPP events came out and I'm so ready
• did some reorganizing in my room and the pantry
• got very emotional over my vow candle
• it burned for a long time and I am grateful to it
• mom couldn't get poppyseed squares but we did eat mákosguba for lunch
• it was wonderful and then I lay down for a while :']
• wrote a bit more and FINALLY untangled the outline, goddd
• showered and washed hair, feeling better now!
• FINALLY made the Melone and Formaggio Monster Factory screencap comic
• some of my friends supported it, which feels good <3
• did my best to spread a little love

August 19:

• slept much better than yesterday <3
• some things still sting but I'm allowing that
• Mia enjoyed my comic and told me on Discord <3
• had a lovely breakfast
• put my tax files in order like an adult, ahahaha
• played a puzzle and then wrote down and edited the prayer I was sent
• instead of sitting here hungry, I went and ironed everything by lunchtime!
• lunch was delicious :']
• had a good rest after
• exercised to theta waves and had a talk with myself
• rested and played a puzzle
• showered and washed my hair, feeling fresher now
• did my best to write some more

August 20:

• slept well
• parents left for church so I'm doing some pantry work
• had a nice breakfast and coffee
• while parents were away, did a little rearranging of my living space
• did a tiny bit of writing but mostly played a puzzle
• ate a very nice lunch
• got some ice cream and played Diablo II :']
• managed a bit more writing in the meantime
• Avdol got his red badge and voiced Mista got his voice <3
• started another puzzle... sitting with my anger
• Hungarospa exists and apparently it kicks ass

August 21:

• had a nightmare but woke up before the worst of it
• never mind, it continued but it was more consentual that time, wow
• had a coffee, that counts as a highlight after this shit
• had breakfast and started Release Radar
• finished a puzzle
• my mom made me a huge bowl of poppy sloppy and it was delicious ;*; <3
• Diablo II coping mechanism Arakita werewolf funtimes
• managed another segment
• the next Hungry-Faced Gil video came out :']
• Wamuu got his red badge :'] <3
• tweaked Arakita's skill chart, I like it better now
• wrote some more, reached almost 1900 words in the solid parts of the draft
• did the Greater Energy Purification

August 22:

• despite all the howling outside, slept well enough
• feeling sort of indifferent I guess
• had a good breakfast though!
• it's Ellery's birthday! <3
• started writing again, feeling a bit tired though
• played more Arakita in Diablo II
• made a joke at my dad's expense but it was funny :'D!!!
• had poppy sloppy for pre-lunch <3
• had some more lunch and coffee
• played more with Arakita, ehehe
• got a very kind message about my wirting :'] <3
• my stomach was upset but it's getting better
• finally got to the segment where Yuri will talk to his mother!!!
• my mom heard me out and that was kind of her
• was honest on twitter and a few friends reached out ;*; <3

August 23:

• had decent sleep
• played stuff
• got an idea for the Louis/Giorgio wedding <3
• my stomach hurt earlier but it's better now
• had a nice lunch
• the Kinley Virgin Mojito is not bad!
• figuring out next week, can't wait tbh
• discussing gift stuff with my sister
• ordered gifts for my niece <3
• just existing and that is fine
• made a list of fics I want to write so I don't forget
• my mood improved as evening went on, thank goodness

August 24:

• had a very long dream, but it was mostly good
• my blood pressure was good too
• had eggs for breakfast and they were delicious
• my mom took me to therapy and we bought strudels
• therapist said I'm doing well all things considered
• went to the mall and bought a few things
• came home safely and had strudels for lunch
• Nadine promised a comment and delivered!!! WOW!!! ;*; <3
• I love my ships so much and I am so deeply horny for them it's healing me
• played with Legolas the Archer Barbarian I made yesterday and he ROCKS
• ate a pogácsa and it was good
• did some chores, feeling good about that
• had a chat with Mia <3
• got a subscription to Habitica since it has been helping me so much
• let myself off the hook and did a puzzle...
• and for the first time I wasn't fuming while doing it!
• gonna go to bed but wowie, I actually had a decent day in August!

August 25:

• slept well enough
• had strudels for breakfast
• the charms have arrived!
• dad gave me his pogácsa and it was delicious
• spent my Premium Points wisely
• put on regeneration chips and played Diablo II some more
• did small chores and had a nice lunch
• did a bit of tweaking on my space, now it looks better
• showered and washed my hair
• went to the mall and got stationery, I actually found what I wanted!
• got some tissues on my way to therapy
• my psychiatrist said I improved a lot ;*; <3
• managed to get my medication from the pharmacy afterwards
• got a new one, so here's to hoping it will be alright!
• had some fun with the concept of catboys and catmen
• "watched" the new Christina video (was playing with a puzzle)

August 26:

• slept well enough on this new medication
• Ellery replied to me and I had a bit of traffic on my fun posts <3
• did some chores and had some breakfast to take my pills
• played the new update and gosh, so many prizes and stuff!
• replied to Ellery <3
• organized my files so I have five previous years and this year in folders
• rearranged that space and it looks so much better, I love this
• will do my best to remain optimistic and have fun
• had a nice lunch
• managed to sort out and bind down another folder. proud of myself
• played more games and watched Monster Factory
• picked up writing/editing and did 1500+ words today!!! <3 <3 <3
• cleaned up for the night
• managed to cheer up after making myself cry during writing/editing :D
• I really am feeling better, thank god

August 27:

• slept on and off but I am up now
• caught myself lapsing and shifted
• the grinding bingo was brought back and it's so satisfying...
• started revising the rest of my draft again and I'm making good progress!
• went shopping with mom and we got everything we needed
• had a lovely lunch
• went back to writing and finished my first draft before 2 pm!!! WOOO!!!
• laid down and blew off some steam...
• got up and played a puzzle and I'm still sleepy, good gosh
• lay down to theta waves and am feeling a little better
• Monster Factory made me laugh many, many times
• showered and washed my hair
• realized that I basically have more energy and time right now for art! :D

August 28:

• slept much better and had fun dreams!
• ordered some tarot books from Biddy Tarot because why not!!! It was $69!!!
• now I have like 900 pages of tarot to read whenever, woo!
• had a lovely breakfast
• listening to Release Radar
• finally got hold of my uncle and they are okay, they just wanted to chat ;*;
• everything's gonna be okay <3
• started editing my first draft and so far, so good!
• had a lamp session to help with allergies
• resumed editing <3
• had a lovely lunch and got some watermelon as a treat
• edited my first draft and it grew to 7k with end notes :O!
• got three nice messages on CC and answered them <3
• got sick but my mom agreed to bake the cookies I was making <3
• played a puzzle to Monster Factory...

August 29:

• slept well I think
• it's not a highlight, but Chadwick Boseman passed away. Rest in power.
• went to the bank and the store, got money and breakfast
• starting my new meds in the morning too, we'll see how this goes
• continued Release Radar, good songs coming up
• wrote 1100 words for Olga!
• did an emergency errand for my sister and was 100% successful! <3
• we saw mom off with everything
• ordered pizza for lunch!
• had a very bad gut and nausea episode but it has since passed
• Kinley Ginger Ale slaps and also saves lives
• managed to eat my entire pizza
• spent some time resting and then started editing my chapter again
• decided I liked my chapter a lot and published it! <3
• managed to give my dad his meds and stuff
• caught Saku and we talked a little
• showered and washed my hair, cleaned up as much as I could
• thinking of resolutions for the fall

August 30:

• slept well enough!
• had a talk with my dad about stuff
• got four comments in the night as a person started reading!!!
• had a decent breakfast
• replied to the comments, feeling good about it :']
• my dad took a shower, which is good
• a new long PPP stage has been added! wooo!!!
• allergies got me bad but I'm doing my best
• welcome to the team, Janken Boy :D
• played some Diablo II for allergy relief
• got my dad lunch and mom got me lunch when she got home safe <3
• did some allergy chips and a lamp session on my face
• talked to my mom about stuff
• planned out some things for the rest of the year and next week
• looked up the 5 Tibetan Rites and bookmarked everything
• read the foreword to Intuitive Tarot and printed out the calendar
• played stuff since my head is busted
• finally scrubbed my floor so I can fix up that protective panel on it
• taped the panel down, finally, peace...
• did another lamp session, got a magnet on, time for bed

August 31:

• took care of my headache in the night and slept better after
• my dreams were interesting so that's good
• started the 5 Tibetan Rites
• had a nice breakfast
• got a comment on Like a Flame! :D <3
• read the first chapter of Intuitive Tarot
• did a daily guidance for myself, seems good!
• learned how to decalcify our coffee machine, woo!
• got some work from a client
• got an idea: Vento Aureo + Major Arcana
• found the kind of standing coat hanger I want in my room!
• ended up ordering it because why the heck not
• listened to Discover Weekly
• had a lovely lunch
• managed to will my headache away but mom massaged my feet anyway <3
• showered and washed my hair to feel cleaner and better
• managed to write 250+ words!
• did a swap of paragraphs, now it reads better, ehehe
• talked a bit to Mia <3
• in the end I have written 500+ words! very good start! :D <3
• got a headache again but the magnet is helping
• decided to do another Healing with Angels meditation
• Bravinto sent me a baby otter video I'm crying <3
• we are talking about Illegally Blond, what a wonderful end to August :'] <3