03/12/10 - 03/13/10

• SUN will die slowly and painfully in coming years
  • Merc retiring; no real replacement candidate (cant hire new due to budget constraints)
  • No strong student leadership (Dennis)
  • Little teamwork/cooperation bet juniors/sophomores
  • Only EIC option = tyrant >> staff will no longer be fun
  • Lacking strong talent
  • Limited funding for extracurriculars in today's economic climate (already stretched for cash)
• Budget sads (Mr Hizal per 1 3/12):
  • Extracurriculars = doomed
  • Public universities probably hard hit
  • I want so badly to go to UCSC, but I feel now that I should go to a private school, especially w/ all of them offering me generous scholarships, but I want Santa Cruz. Im so scared.
• Im so scared just for college in general
• Im growing up. I feel that I dont need my parents anymore. While I definitely do still need them, it's a lot less so than I used to. It's sad now to think about my childhood. On friday (03/12) 9:00PM, I asked to go out to go be with Evan, expecting at least a little struggle. They both said yes without hesitating or asking many questions. Even though it was what I wanted, it made me pretty sad in a way.
• APGov awarenesses:
  • US government is inefficient/divided/useless
  • There are people w/horrible beliefs
  • Resources strained, inevitably exhausted
  • No one cares about the wild
• Humans = parasites who destroy all they touch (not deserving rank of dominant species)
  • American wilderness resorted to tiny patches
  • Entire species destroyed
  • CA grizzly (on flag) forced into tiny ranges up north
• Life is undervalued
  • Animals/environment not held as a priority
  • Roadkill = a monstrosity that no one cares about
  • Sex offenders and other criminals thought to be lower forms of life, that should be monitored like dogs, their liberties infringed upon, w/no thought for their rights as human beings

I can see why so many people are ignorant nowadays. Knowing is just too painful.