you don't know

• I let my body hair grow instead of shaving it because I wanna feel free and feminine

you don't know

• I masturbate because it helps me soothe my anxiety

you don't know

• i'm still not sure what my sexuality is, but i'm pretty sure that i'm bisexual and my first kiss was a girl

you don't know

• i'm no longer a virgin and that I lost my virginity while being drunk

you don't know

• i had a pregnancy scare and was scared to go buy a plan B because of my anxiety so I ended up hyperventilating and crying myself to sleep

you don't know

• my ex-boyfriend and i went to the highest point of a town in the middle of the night and that we roamed empty streets until morning

you don't know

• i used to have frequent panic attacks and was uncontrollably shaking in my bed for hours

you don't know

• i used to self-harm by scratching my skin until it was wholly covered in red lines

you don't know

• i used to have suicidal thoughts and planned my suicide attempt to the tiniest details

you don't know

• i cried in the bathroom and under covers for months but kept my hand over my mouth every time so you won't hear and ask me what's wrong. i wouldn't know how to answer

you don't know

• i can't even take a shower sometimes and leave my bed because i feel numb

you don't know

• i was sexually harassed and almost being raped in middle school and that i felt so dirty back then

you don't know.