‎Dunno, they say i have all the right to be angry and more angrier but I can't ever be mad to him. Even unblocking me made it all worse oh my god. It was all a nightmare and a dream bro. Back then, I woke up, i was blocked. Then this time, i woke up, i was unblocked. Both days i cried bro wtf is wrong with me. I hate that I'm so still sensitive of people mentioning his name. More worser that we share the same circle of friends but it's not that I take it to heart. Was I forgiven, or was I only tolerated? I only accepted it because I wanna feel something I want to feel. Good job intimidating me though, It did. do you sometimes wonder why am I still clinging to it—? Here's the answer, because I AM MISUNDERSTOOD. I'm not telling how, because you're so stubborn. And yes, I STILL CARE. Sino bang hindi mag aassume na you're not mad at me when you LITERALLY ignored me more THAN A WEEK NOT ONCE BTW. ALL I WANTED WAS YOU TO GREET ME MY BDAY. AND YOU FUCKING FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT??? ????????? Syempre nainis ako na block nalang kita for timeout TAPOS OVER NAMAN bahala ka it was almost a month of ignoring tbh, if you don't remember. I'm assuming is all because I'm close with your bf???? BRO I WAS ALSO HELPING HIM TO GET BACK TO YOU. YOU'RE UNGRATEFUL FUH AHH. ALL HE DID WAS LIKE SHARE HOW MUCH HE LOVES YOU AND NOW IT FEELS LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT TO TALK TO HIM???????????????? YOU SHOULD'VE TOLD ME THAT YOU DON'T WANT ME TO. BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE EVERY RIGHT TO DO THAT. friendship so doomed I'm always haunted by YOUR narrative bro. I even got myself to therapy for it. GOODBYE. And yes I'm not traumatized. I WANT IT TO BE FIXED. next month is my DOOMED anniversary. Like. This is so hilarious like wdym kii is mourning over someone who's alive and well. but hey the friendship was really precious to me okay and it was like... my first at some point. Remember the days that you sent me a minecraft image of a chest and said "gay" and made me laugh even i was around the crowd despite literally having a panic attack on the spot. well shit i don't wish to move on i guess. goodbye kii, i will get executed. I WAS ABOUT TO SAY SORRY NEXT DAY BUT YOU FREAKING BLOCKED ME. I'VE KNOWN BETTER NOT TO INTERRUPT WHAT YOU WANT. AND ME GREETING YOU NEW YEARS, YOU'RE TRYING TO SHOVE ME AWAY. even called me pathetic, so... wow that's very nice of you but yeah true. But don't worry, whether (please don't) you're reading this or not. But it's still fine and okay, i still forgive you, I'm not ever mad at you at heart. It's a draw fault ig. I'm never mad, that's why i still chose to accept it. And i guess, hearing you being fine with everyone still makes me glad for you, matsu never stop bringing your name it was hellish for me but i guess i have no guts to tell him to shut up. you guys found me at my lowest, who's going to move on from that anyways? PROBABLY NOT ME! it's been like 7-9months pass through me and I'm still not over it. Yeah I'm still affected. Yeah I'm still hurt, Yeah i wanna be heard, Yeah I want you guys to comeback! I feel bad for my friends especially kaydee to hear me talking this SPECIFIC topic. HELP MEEE. I don't think i have the every courage to play with him after he intimidated me. Idk bro. But I will look into that again! It was really funny for me, I missed those silly two boyfriends somehow. thank you for matsu and kaydee for being my emotional support that day HELP. my ahh was tweaking.