i should be getting a job, going to school, getting drunk, smoking too many damn cigarettes, staying out all night. getting bruises, getting heartbroken, break hearts. become a mess, make messes, clean up my messes. Find love, lose love, fuck love! then go out and find love again. achieve all my dreams. stay classy. make bank, save money. blow all my money. i should be making a shit load of mistakes and love every minute of it. have as much fun as possible. meet as many people as possible. not take anything for granted. I should be falling down, touching the ground, kissing the ground, sleeping on the ground, plant something on the ground, quit complaining and build something on the ground, get on my hands and knees and watch the ants walk around the ground. I should be going mad, fighting like hell, raising up my hands and dancing into the wee hours of the night. i should be painting the town the colour red, fucking raging, reciting poetry, singing and screaming at the top of my lungs, playing soundtracks to my life, pulling up to parties, making out with bad boys, holding hands with good boys. i should be getting kicked out of bars, calling my dad from a payphone in jail, raising hell. i need to speed up, but even the baddest girl in town needs to slow the fuck down. i gotta bring the horizon, camp on the beach and watch the sunset, spend all day in a library, make a move, do my thing, strike a pose, travel around the world, and spin with dj's. i should be speaking my mind, meditating, stopping, going. look around and feel, buy too many clothes, lose too much weight, take too many pictures, and love my family too much. i need to be thanking god. and i should probably make a family, make magic, make a mess. take the stress, feel my motivation and build my nest.