✎ 10/20

• ok so teeeeechnicallyyyyy it is 10/21 rn but shhh it doesn't matter i'm writing this just after 12
• not much happened today again either? i was feeling pretty good because i actually got a good amount of sleep last night though.
• oh i added kaito to my main kinlist. finally. i hate admitting how hard i kin him because i'm afraid i'm wrong somehow but I DO SO MUCH ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY?? also i'm lowering dirk to the semi kinlist until i read more of homestuck and decide his final placement
• after school i went to therapy and then this social group program that i do every thursday. i was contemplating stopping this stuff because i didn't see much of a benefit, but today i actually had a pretty decent talk with my therapist and we're gonna work some important stuff out with my mom next week, about the choices i'm allowed to make and the expectations i have as a now-18 year old, so i'm genuinely happy for that.
• however like two minutes into social group some kid across the table pulled up his phone and showed everyone an irl gore picture from some fucked up subreddit. classy. fortunately i was across like 3 tables from him so i only saw a really vague image of some guy lying down with red on him
• oh yeah that reminds me, earlier in school we were learning about eye anatomy in psych and this video we were watching told us about this medical term for eyes popping out of skull. they warned viewers not to google, then sat back and waited because they knew viewers would inevitably google anyway LOL. the teacher then proceeded to pause the video and egg everyone on to google it, and i had to avert my eyes to not be shown an eyeful of... displaced eyes... as everyone pulled up google images on their chromebooks LMFAO
• i also joined a random homestuck server that a homestuck analysis blog i like posted, and my user being fiamet got me a funny reception which was good because it totally dissipated the anxiety i had over joining LOL
• i also watched most of princess mononoke after dinner but had to pause with about 35 minutes left because it was getting kinda late. definitely a good movie
• also talked to jean about typology and then this really good story idea he had, which was nice B) he is literally like some kind of creative genius with this stuff i swear
• and of course, then i got to talk to flour! we didn't do much because they've got a bug and my brain was just generally empty, but chill time with them is still very special. hope he's better tomorrow <3
• that's all i really have to say, my bad if this comes off as like a little bit of a rushed/sloppy rundown because it kinda is. LOL. i gotta be up like 10 minutes earlier because i REALLY need to take a shower because my hair's gotten all greasy again, so i'll dip and go to bed now. cya tomorrow journal!
• OH YEAH AND!!!!!! my mom is leaving for a month in january to visit her grandma in russia, so my brother and i will basically have the house to ourselves! i have SO many crazy ideas its unreal (i want to go to new york all by myself when i have the chance. i am so serious.) i will think/talk about this more tomorrow bye again!!