re/ren -

• 28 years old (1994).
• transmasc nonbinary. Nullpronominal, they/them OK. GNC.
• multiracial:
  • lao/filipino/chinese/irish american.
  • i stand by my lao identity most. SEasian rep. (:
• dealing with depression, anxiety, social trauma, and ADHD. please be kind and understanding.
• for funsies:
  • sun capricorn/moon aries/asc gemini.
  • water rooster.

about attraction -

• previously thought to be panromantic demisexual. on the aroace spectrum.
  • gray aroace maybe, but...
  • huge non-sexual, aesthetic attractions to women & nonbinary people. can happen with other genders, but less so.
  • i'm in a queer platonic relationship.
  • i don't think about having relationships in a "typical way", if at all. for example, there's someone close to me i feel a deep, loving connection to, but it's the in between of platonic and romantic. on my side, it can also fluctuate depending on my mood. i don't consider that it gets less "strong" despite it. generally, the "QPR" label fits.
• also.. there's no point in loving anyone more than i love MZD.
  • i like to see MZD as a nonbinary demiguy (they/he). probably pansexual, but it doesn't matter as much.
  • he has been my comfort character for over 10 years.
  • i'm not attracted to any person or other fictional character to the same degree as him and it's probably going to stay that way forever.
  • i would regard him my "fictional other". it's for all these reasons that i don't consider myself purely aroace.
  • i'm probably OK with identifying with the fictosexual label. i've seen the term "certissexual" suggested, but i'm not too sure about using it...

about ADHD -

• i came to terms with having it in late 2020.
• i have a therapist. i'm not formally diagnosed yet. i'm afraid my depression and anxiety will take precedence over it.
• executive dysfunction is really kicking my ass.