words with poetic, or historical meaning.

† archaic  → origin   ♡ love

• avenoir : the desire that memory could flow backward.
• pede claudo: on halting foot (punishment coming, pede claudo, years after memory has forgotten). latin → 'punishment comes limping'. ♡
• ad infinitum : again and again in the exact same way; forever. latin → 'without end or limit'.
• exsanguination : the action of draining a person, animal, or organ of blood.
• zugzwang : a situation where every possible move or decision is a bad one, or one that will result in damage or loss. also used as a term in chess: the point at which an individual falls into an inevitable checkmate. german → 'compulsion to move'. ♡

• verse from the Qur'an on the backside/inner wrist
• let us be the same wound if we must bleed (on two different individuals)
• an elaborate pair of wings across the nape or positioned at the front of the neck, spreading sideways alongside the jaw
• something explicit over the throat

• Giulio Paolini - L'altra Figura: The heads are turned slightly at an angle to the body, their faces turned to reflect each other precisely. This slightly sideways glance lends a degree of animation to what would otherwise be a static mirroring. It is as if they have both just turned to catch the other's gaze; perhaps it is the dramatic incident that has just occurred between them. On the floor surrounding the two plinths is the manifest evidence of a minor disaster. The two faces may represent i) two separate individuals; or ii) two separate faces on the same individual (how many different ways can you look at a single loss?)
• Tracey Emin (confessional art - 'Exorcism of the last painting I ever made')

• sheer chiffon curtains/drapes that let the light in gently.
• oil diffusers/humidifiers.
• lavishly colored turkish rugs.
• arabesque or marble tiles in the bathroom and kitchen.
• dark tiles lined on the inside of a shower, a bundle of eucalyptus hung by the shower-head. ♡
• wooden chestnut bowls.
• a balcony filled with plants and a backyard full of sprawling flowers, plants and herbs.
• personal library : a room full of books on tall shelves. possible a theatre combined with a library as such
• arabic calligraphy, as painting or wooden carving
• wall-sized mirrors: length-wise, height-wise or both

• hereditary
• the haunting of hill house
• the haunting of bly manor
• the shape of water
• the danish girl
• crimson peak
• white bird in a blizzard
• the sea of trees
• gangubai kathiawadi
• tribhanga

to re-watch through older eyes

• secret in their eyes
• yelling at the sky
• detachment
• snowtown
• dream house
• anna karenina
• the perks of being a wallflower
• short term 12
• nocturnal animals

• Moratorium : temporary prohibition of an activity (the moratorium on hunting licenses will give the deer population time to expand).
• Allayed : diminished or put at rest, lessen or mitigate (the antidote allayed the pain, the policy did not allay the discontent of the Macedonian army).
• Amenable : liable to be called to account, answerable (you are amenable for this debt) or willing/ready to submit (the Jordanian leader seemed amenable to discussing the matter).
• Visceral : relating to deep inward feelings rather than to intellect (visceral fear of change) ♥
• Discordant : disagreeing, incongruous (discordant opinions, his plan is discordant with ours) or structurally uncomfortable sounding (blatant discordance in the their speeches for the rally).
• Cacophonous : having a harsh/discordant sound (the wi...

• iceland (bathe in the blue lagoon)
• fields and gardens (barefooted) in hokkaido, japan
• the blue mosque, sophia hagia, travertine terraces of pamukkale and cappadocia in turkey
• tunnel of love in ukraine
• winchester mansion in san jose, california
• water reserves in philippines
• olive groves/vineyards..

• the gauzy diaphanous blue-purplish-white of 5pm winters
• a naked mauve: pinkish skin color
• the milky tinge of iceland's blue lagoon - opaque and cloudy, a soft muted aqua
• blue television light reflected on skin (re: Richard Siken's // I had a dream about you & Joni Mitchell's // A Case of You)
• a bruised apricot orange

• Ocean Vuong: "it doesn't matter who my father was, but who i remember he was."
• William D. Tammeus: "human nature: why a child on a merry go round will wave at his parents every time around and why his parents will wave back."
• Idiom: "like rats deserting a sinking ship..."
• Alan Moore, V for Vendetta: "leader of the lost, ruler of the ruins."

for children

• polaroid camera
• star named after them
• a musical jewelry box
• hardcover books with a hand-written note on the first page

for adults

• physical services (hammam, spa service, etc.)
• pure silk pillowcase set
• deluxe sampler fragrance sets (jo malone, hermes, valentino, kayali, etc.)
• kimono style bath robe

for new parents

• fresh warm meals and easy-freeze meals
• food delivery/meal prep services
• subscription/gift card to maid/cleaning services
• luxury pajamas/loungewear

• antelope canyon, arizona
• kenai fjords, alaska
• smoky mountains, tennessee
• apostle islands national lakeshore, wisconsin
• acadia national park, maine
• glacier point, yosemite california
• angel oak, south carolina

• sleeping in/under huge trees (blooming, bare, closed like a fist)
• skeletal trees, the ones that explode with a thousand veins at each knuckle; seeds like alveoli
• the concept of a mother and daughter loving the same man, two versions of the same woman
• female characters drawing their own anatomy
• long, uncomfortable scenes with no dialogue - eyes meeting and then faltering, a glance as an apology; pride or distance swelling between two individuals until it is a third person in the room .
• a prosthetic limb with a compartment to hide small items
• resettlement camps filled with lovers
• cutting through the countryside to get to school
• creamy, silken flowers that are easily bruised

• fresh strawberries, mint.. (on a wooden counter top)
• incense burning
• scented candles (woodland)
• condensed milk and heavy cream whipped, crushed almonds and pistachios sprinkled over top
• rosewater on wet skin
• fingers dipping into thick oil (coconut)
• a pyre burning
• mist and dewdrops on a wooden veranda, a waterlogged morning, fog billowing and wrapping around thick tree trunks

• bleeding hearts (eep, just like in coraline!)
• bluebells
• bearded irises; blood crimson, and snowy champagne-nude, ♡
• lilies of the valley
• tufts of cottongrass
• rose cabbages, ♡
• towering snapdragons
• thick-stemmed red ranunculus
• wisteria hanging from high places
• salix babylonica: weeping willow, (in certain folklore, the willow's weeping stance reflects its association with grief).

belladonna: the deadly nightshade (atropa belladonna), of the family solanaceae (order solanales), and the crude drug consisting of its dried leaves or roots. highly poisonous plant; grows to 1.5 metres; native to wooded or waste areas of central/southern eurasia. has dull green leaves, violet flowers, shiny black berries abou...