this one probably won't be long. the title says it all.

i don't care to really dig into all the details of my history with nicotine, really. maybe another day or as an addition to this very blog post, but for now, i'll just provide what context feels necessary to make the point i want to make.

when i smoked cigarettes, i smoked so infrequently than when i finally decided i wanted to stop smoking it was less about quitting and more just letting go of a habit i didn't care to keep up anymore. the cons became too much so i just stopped smoking cigarettes, almost entirely. i didn't even care to document when this happened, but i roughly remember it being in the first couple months of 2025. i have smoked on two occasions since this, if you include this instance. both times i have come out the other side of those cigarettes not really wanting to smoke anymore, and the last instance was probably around september to october of last year.

yeah, it truly is so infrequent i haven't even cared to specifically document it in any real way. i know smoking cigarettes and addiction are highly linked for a reason, but i truly don't think i was ever truly addicted. i did to cope during rough times in my life where nothing else could really help me calm down and that purpose is no longer really necessary at all in my life.

i know exactly why i was getting to urge to smoke this time and it wasn't anything serious anyway. i smoked the cigarette and even while smoking it i was thinking to myself i shouldn't smoke another one anytime soon. it will probably be at least another 6 months before i smoke again, if i do at all.

anyway, i did care to document this time, so that's that.