i'm at this point where i'm seriously realizing i'm at cusp of finally moving on from the way i've lived my life the past couple of years. i've finally began to figure out how i can determine who i am and part of that is almost definitely going to involve letting go of old interests; out with the old, in with the new. i can already feel it happening and i resisted it for so long because there was nothing that could have filled the void i knew would come to exist in my life yet. it's only now i've found what could be the replacement. i was so scared for so long, especially the more i reflected upon my preexisting patterns and ways of doing things, but i'm finally starting to see how valuable it would be to make this change as i write this out. it's not even that i'm fully letting go of what defined me for so long the past several years, it's just that i'm no longer allowing it to fulfil the role in my life it has played anymore. i'm making room for something new now.