5/5 stars but one point off

this was so weird and strange and freaky and erotic and romantic and gross and nasty at the same time. so i loved. it felt very me coded like i was always meant to read this. im gonna talk about what didn't work for my purposes and what did.

it was too short, it felt like their romance was sprung up as an afterthought to the narrative and felt rushed and impromptu.. but two crazy bitches happened to find each other and it also felt right for the two characters. but it was hard to relate, empathize etc bc you know a love narrative will happen so it felt fitted in. it felt very rushed how fast they moved into it. i definitely want a natural progression of events even them missing each other. that was the one big downside for me also didnt like how it was so formally written

in terms of obsession and freakiness this is perfect. the dreams, the random horrific stories.. their dynamic while texting was good but it always ended so fast. i really loved the intensity of it all, the seriousness of it all. everything was very earnest. i want this to be unserious but then their relationship becoming more serious and entangled over time which again the timing of this failed at .. making everything seem real. this is really one of my biggest inspirations in terms of subject matter and storyline. i like her death not being explained. its debatable whether she died from some other matter like suicide or food poisoning or the tapeworm. i also love how romantic the depravity was. its kink in a way. thats really what i want it to display.