- Eye Contact:
- I have trouble looking people in the eye. I look at the person then away, then back at them then away. I use to look directly at people but eventually it got to be too much.
- Facial Expression:
- I have "resting bitch face". I don't smile often and because of my natural expression, I probably come off as "unfriendly" and/or "cold".
- I. Feel. A lot.:
- I often wonder if this has put people off in the past. Because of this, I tend to keep my emotions to myself and feel embarrassed if I cry in front of others. I will apologize later.
- Change of Plans:
- This can irritate me. If the plan is to have pizza for dinner and then it is changed, I can get irritated. If the change is a welcomed one, then just this one time I'll accept it.
- Eating:
- I won't eat nor feel hungry if I'm really upset or under a lot of stress. Part of it is the possibility of digestion upset. Which has happened.
- Socially Awkward:
- I am very socially awkward and I don't do well around new people but I often want to make a good first impression. If I'm in a group type setting, I'll make note of the nearest exit and come up with the most realistic excuse I can think of just incase. Since I was a kid, I've also had a hard time making and keeping friends. And due to past experiences, I now have trouble trusting others.
- My Mind:
- It's like a T.V. changing channels constantly, looking for that dopamine rush.
- Distraction and Focus:
- I have a problem with focusing on a task and can get easily distracted. I could be cleaning my room, find a cookbook I haven't seen in a while, skim through it and find a recipe I want to make this week, start a grocery list for said recipe, Do we have coffee? I'm thirsty, I'm gonna make some right now...etc. One time I went to the kitchen to get ice for my drink and accidently left the VCR remote in the freezer.
- Spacing Out:
- I space out when I'm bored, depressed, stressed, or anxious. One time I had a major space out moment at my deli job. I didn't even realize I was just standing there until my manager called me to the counter to help out. It was really weird...
- Routines:
- It's hard for me to stick to a routine. I've made many routines up for myself and they either don't work, work for a little while then don't anymore, or I make them, find that it's too much work, and never try the routine.
- Hands:
- I have to have something to do with my hands while watching T.V. (crocheting, embroidery, drawing, coloring, playing on my switch, going on Pinterest on my phone, etc.)
- Stims:
- Tapping my fingers together, sighing, leg bounce, rocking while standing, listening to a song/album on repeat (usually songs), quoting shows/movies
- Special Interests:
- T.V.: Spongebob Squarepants (seasons 1-3), Good Omens, Our Flag Means Death, What we do in the Shadows, Moomins, Sherlock Holmes (Granada vers.)
- Hobbies: Drawing, painting, crocheting, embroidery, origami, botany, mycology, foraging, herbal medicine, liminal spaces, horror things, paranormal things, Venom, ENA
- Animals: Frogs, Cats, Corvids (crows, ravens, etc.), Maned Wolves, Shoebill Storks, Dinosaurs
- Love Language:
- I love to make things for the ones I care about. Whether it's a crocheted blanket or scarf or a dessert I thought the person would like, I feel good making something for someone.
- I also like hugging and being physically close (holding onto each other, cuddling on the couch, etc.) but don't feel too comfortable doing it with people I've just met.
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